Journal Entry: March 15,2015

Today's my buddy Ant's birthday and we go to Medieval Times in New Jersey and that makes me daydream about what it might've been like living in that time and how lucky I am to be living in the 21st Century instead of the 14th or 15th during the medieval period.Of course this also reminds me of our trip to Atlantic City for Anthony's birthday last year and daydream about the fun we had and about future vacations me and my friends might take in the future.

Journal Entry: March 6,2015

Today's the day that,if my predictions of the future from say 1993 or 1994 were correct,my firstborn would've turned 9 years old today,so naturally I daydream about what would've happened if I had been correct with that prediction,watching my son open his presents with my wife,little Andrew and baby Carol Anne watching and then we'd have his cake for dessert.

Journal Entry: February 28,2015

Finally,February's over and it's been a brutally cold month. It makes me daydream of warmer days to come and seeing the flowers bloom and the leaves come back in the trees and seeing all this damn snow finally melt,but it's still not as bad as it's been up in Boston. They may never get rid of all that snow that's been dumped on them this year.

Journal Entry: February 20,2015

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and sit there to read and daydream about the future and particularly when I see parents with young children they make me daydream about having some of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: February 14,2015

It's Valentine's Day 2015 so I daydream about going out on dates and meeting women and eventually my future wife and having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 7,2015

It's a frigid,cold day so I stay home and watch some DVD's and of course I daydream about my children all bundled-up in their long-johns and footed blanket sleepers playing together in one of their bedrooms trying to keep themselves occupied on such a frigid-cold afternoon.

Journal Entry: February 4,2015

I have to go up to the White Plains Department of Labor for the first appointment with them where they give me some leads for jobs and inform me to fill out a chart with all of my job applications listed. I daydream about getting one of these jobs and then eventually meeting my future wife there and eventually having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 2,2015

It's Ground Hog's Day and getting close to being a whole month since I got laid off from Rembar. Once again I daydream about future winters with my children, getting them bundled-up in their snowsuits and their long-johns and putting them in their fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers at night, all of them looking like cute, little living teddy-bears with human heads in those garments.

Journal Entry: February 1,2015

It's Super Bowl Sunday,New England versus Seattle. I go to my friend Anthony's house for his Super Bowl party and all of us are disappointed when Brady and the Patriots win their first Super Bowl since Super Bowl XXXIX (39), back in 2005 exactly 10 years ago. I still daydream about future Super Bowl parties and watching the Super Bowl with my children and hopefully having the Giants in the Super Bowl while my children are still young children and them getting excited when the Giants win the thing (probably by Super Bowl 60-something,Super Bowl LXIII [63], or something, at this point).

Journal Entry: January 28,2015

Historic blizzard ends up being a big bust at least for us here in the NYC area,but New England and Boston in particular get slammed with up to 3 FEET of snow. We get "only" 8 or 9 inches,not the 2 feet or more that the doomsayers predicted back on Sunday and Monday. Still,I daydream about my future children playing out in the snow and running around and having fun.

Journal Entry: January 25,2015

Today's my mother's birthday but the bigger news is the massive,historic blizzard that they are predicting to hit us starting tomorrow afternoon. This,therefore prompts me to daydream about my future children running around and playing in the snow and building snowmen and having snowball fights and then coming inside to have hot chocolate to warm themselves up.

Journal Entry: January 14,2015

Today's my 36th birthday and first since I got laid off from Rembar a week ago this past Monday,so I'm not much in a dreaming-of-the-future mood except for dreaming about getting a new job and getting back to making money.

Journal Entry: January 10,2015

I hang out with my friends for the first time since I got laid off from Rembar and inform all of them present that I got laid off and am currently unemployed. I have since signed up for unemployment insurance and Linda is working to get me some medical coverage most likely with Medicaid. It is still hard to daydream about anything positive despite my best efforts to try to think positively and dream about a future with a wife and children and a nice house in the suburbs.

Journal Entry: January 5,2015

Today my boss calls me into the office and informs me that I'm being laid off; a devastating blow for me in so many ways. This definitely puts a crimp in any future plans for this year and the foreseeable future including us going away to Cabo San Lucas this year. Naturally, I'm upset and I call my parents to inform them of the bad news and eventually my sister, Linda, is also informed since it was her working with her friend, Doug, to get me into Rembar. I eventually tell my friends too, but mostly just keep it to Anthony for now. 

Journal Entry: January 3,2015

Tonight I hang out with my friends, Anthony and John and we talk about going away for Anthony's birthday this year in mid-March and maybe going to Cabo San Lucas in Mexico for it or for one of our summer vacations later this year so naturally I fantasize about going around the world with my friends and maybe my future wife at various points in our lives together.

Journal Entry: January 1,2015

First entry of 2015 and as usual,I fantasize about the future and my hopes and dreams for it no matter how much things aren't looking too promising for those dreams to come true with my dead-end job and my struggles with online dating at the moment.

Journal Entry: December 31,2014

New Year's Eve,the last day of 2014 and therefore the last entry for this year. I end up meeting my buddies and watching the ball drop in White Plains and I fantasize about future New Year's Eves including any parties that me and my future/fictional wife might go to in the future or us going to see the ball-drop in Times Square one year.

Journal Entry: December 25,2014

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I fantasize about seeing the joy in little William, little Andrew and little Caroline or Carol Anne's eyes when they get all those wonderful presents that they asked Santa for, seeing them in their footed blanket sleeper jumping around when they get that present that they claim that they always wanted as well as the disappointment when the toy they thought that they were about to open was actually a pair of socks or underwear, instead. I also fantasize about future Christmases with snow on the ground and/or falling from the sky adding to the beauty and festivities of the holiday season. 

Journal Entry: December 24,2014

It's Christmas Eve so I fantasize about future Christmas Eves. I fantasize about putting the Christmas-tree up and having the kids help us decorate. I fantasize about getting the kids dressed in their best clothes and showing them off for Christmas Eve Mass at the local church. I daydream about seeing the excitement in my kids' eyes later that night and especially tomorrow morning when Santa brings them all of those toys and how happy they get when they get their dollies and scooters and I-pads and video games and get upset and toss their underwear, socks, pajamas, and other "boring" presents to the side as well.

Journal Entry: December 22,2014

First day of the 2014-15 winter season and I fantasize about future winters of me and my future wife taking the kids out, bundled-up in the thickest, fuzziest snowsuits and let them play in the snow. Of course, with Christmas coming in a few days, I also fantasize about how excited the kids get when informed of Santa's impending arrival and how my wife and I might use the usual threat of coal in their stockings to get the kids to comply to our bidding to take their bathes or eat all their vegetables or to put their toys away and hop into bed and the like.

Journal Entry: November 28,2014

Today's Black Friday 2014 so I fantasize about me and my future wife rushing around to get all the presents for the kids, fantasizing about one year we sit outside waiting for the 4AM door-buster deals to start, camped out with the kids in bulky, down snowsuits over fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers, bundled-up-to-the-nines waiting out in the freezing-cold for the stores to open and then us rushing around to get everything that we want,fighting the crowds for every last morsel.

Journal Entry: November 27,2014

Today's Thanksgiving 2014 so I fantasize about future Thanksgivings, about my sons and/or daughters eating their first turkey dinners and watching the annual parade on TV and then the annual football games that are on as well and my little ones getting excited when they see Santa Claus coming down the street at the end of the parade.

Journal Entry: November 16,2014

Today's my niece, Julianne's fourth birthday,so like on Frankie's birthday last month, I fantasize about the future birth of my children and future birthday-parties where everyone gathers at one or another's house and we all have a good time.

Journal Entry: November 15,2014

Today was supposed to be my sister Linda's wedding-day but due to her and her fiance breaking off the wedding, I fantasize about meeting my future wife and some of the places we might go for our honeymoon. Naturally, eventually, I fantasize about all the future events I hope to see,including the birth of my future children. 

Journal Entry: October 31,2014

Today's Halloween and after work I run into both of my sisters walking around with my niece and nephew in their costumes and I daydream about future Halloweens seeing my future children walking around in their own costumes. I picture them as babies wearing some cute, one-piece, footed costumes that they make for babies to seeing my kids in the traditional costumes like vampires, witches, angels, devils, superheroes and costumes that are popular today like zombies.

Journal Entry: October 8,2014

Today's my nephew Frankie's sixth birthday,so I daydream about future birthday-parties that my own children might have and all future birthdays in which our kids and my niece and nephew get to run around and play similarly to how me and my sisters and cousins would come visit each others' houses for birthdays when we were all growing up in the 1970's and 1980's and into the early 1990's.

Journal Entry: Septenber 23,2014

First day of the 2014 autumn season so I start daydreaming about throwing and tossing the football around with my fictional sons; William and Andrew and then I fantasize about them growing up to be NFL football players.

Journal Entry: September 13,2014

Today's our date,so I meet with Jennifer at Half Moon Restaurant by 7PM this evening.Beforehand,I daydream about how the date will go.After the date,I come back,and daydream about my second date with Jennifer and about future dates with her,yet I'll continue to leave my options open until I feel that I'm ready to pick my next girlfriend and focus on our relationship.

Journal Entry: September 11,2014

It's the 13-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon,so my daydreams today aren't about the future,but about the past,about what I was doing on this date 13 years ago and how my life,and the life of this country has changed since then.

Journal Entry: September 7,2014

I go for a walk,leaving at 11AM,and eventually walk all the way to Sleepy Hollow and Philipsburg Manor,getting there by 1:15PM. I turn around at around 1:30PM, get back to Tarrytown by 2:30PM, to Irvington by 3:15PM, and back to town at around 4PM and go home by 5PM,all the time daydreaming about my date with Jennifer,yet keeping my options open for other girls I've been messaging from EHarmony.com, mostly.

Journal Entry: September 3,2014

I've dropped Elizabeth because I haven't heard from her in several days now,so it's just me and Jennifer for next Saturday's date,so I start daydreaming about that.

Journal Entry: August 31,2014

I daydream about my dates with Jennifer and Elizabeth and meeting other girls through Eharmony.com. I also dream of asking one of them to be my date for my younger sister, Linda's wedding on November 15,and dancing with them on the dance-floor,and making out with them and losing my virginity upstairs in the hotel later that evening.

Journal Entry: August 30,2014

I arrange to meet a girl named Jennifer on September 13,and another named Elizabeth 2 weeks later on September 27,so now I daydream about my dates with both of them.

Journal Entry: August 29,2014

Get message from Kathleen telling me that it's over,that she doesn't have time for a relationship with me,but I still daydream about going out with other girls I've been recently sending messages to on Eharmony.com despite this crushing blow.

Journal Entry: August 23,2014

I hang out with my friends at one of the bars in White Plains this evening,and I talk about my date with Kathleen with them and we talk about what I need to do next to keep this relationship going and I daydream about going on dates with Kathleen based on what me and my friends discussed this evening.

Journal Entry: August 22,2014

I go out on my first date with Kathleen,from okcupid.com. We eat at the town diner for dinner this evening,and then we leave.Afterwards,I daydream about our next date and having a relationship and eventually marrying and having a family with this Kathleen women, especially after we agreed to see each other again in a couple of weeks.

Journal Entry: August 20,2014

I talk on the phone for the first time with the girl I met on okcupid.com recently,named Kathleen.We talk for about 5-10 minutes,but afterwards,I daydream about our first date set for Friday.

Journal Entry: August 16,2014

It's been exactly one month since my little baby girl, Carol Anne, was supposed to have been born,so I daydream about what my life might've been like if those predictions of mine (of being married with now three kids), from my teen years, over 20 years ago now, had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 10,2014

Second day in Jersey Shore with my buddies.We go to the beach today and I daydream about going to beach with girls I've met through online dating and doing other exciting things with them in the future.I also daydream about going to the beach with my future family and my children playing in the sand and in the water on a trip to the beach with them and their Mommy one day.

Journal Entry: August 9,2014

I go down to the Jersey Shore with my buddies Jimmy,John,and Anthony,and I daydream about going on vacation with one of the girls I've met through online dating so far.

Journal Entry: August 6,2014

I daydream about inviting Kathleen to my sister, Linda's wedding and our dancing to the music they play at the reception,and about our own wedding,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 5,2014

Kathleen and I settle on August 22,2014 as the day of our meeting and I daydream about what's going to happen on our first date,and then from subsequent dates.

Journal Entry: August 4,2014

I go back to work today after taking a week off.Later on,I get an email from girl I met not on Eharmony.com but from OkCupid.com,named Kathleen,and she asks me if we can meet one day on a Friday so I daydream about what might happen on our first date and about our relationship only blossoming from there.

Journal Entry: July 31,2014

On this,my fourth day of vacation,I hang out with my friend, Anthony, going to the Palisades Mall in Rockland County.As I walk around town earlier in the day,I see some women pushing strollers with babies inside,prompting me to daydream about my future wife and I doing the same thing one day.

Missing Journal Entry: November 28,2013

It's Thanksgiving,and family comes over and I daydream about having Thanksgiving dinner with a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: July 30,2014

On the third official day of my vacation from work,I again take a walk around town,and up to Irvington,daydreaming about meeting those girls from the Internet,going on vacations to Bermuda and other tropical islands with them,and eventually going on a honeymoon with the one I end up having a deep relationship with and eventually marrying.

Journal Entry: July 29,2014

On my second official day of vacation,I take a walk around town and daydream about the future, including getting married and having a family

Journal Entry: July 28,2014

Today's the first official day of my vacation,so I daydream about flying to some tropical island with some hottie I've met online recently and having sex on the beach.

Journal Entry: July 25,2014

I daydream about meeting the few girls that I'm talking,now on phone and emails with from Eharmony.com and going out with them and asking one of them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: July 24,2014

I take a walk after dinner this evening and see some young couples pushing their babies and toddlers in strollers and baby-carriages and it prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls from Eharmony.com and having children with them, pushing our own babies in strollers and such as we go on walks around the area like these young families were doing this evening.

Journal Entry: July 23,2014

I talked with some of the girls that I've met from Eharmony.com and I daydream about meeting them one day soon and inviting them to my younger sister's wedding and our dancing together to slow, romantic songs, kissing and making out all evening.

Journal Entry: July 19,2014

Two of my friends and I go down to the city for the day,and I daydream about meeting some of the girls that I've met on dating sites that live in the city and going on dates with them.

Journal Entry: July 18,2014

I daydream about what it might've been like if my predictions of having a wife and 3 kids by now would be like,and about how me and my first 2 kids go to visit their Mom and 2-day old baby sister in the hospital this afternoon.

Journal Entry: July 17,2014

Get another email from woman on dating web-site and once again I daydream about meeting girls from dating web-sites and asking them for a date to my younger sister's wedding in November

Journal Entry: July 16,2014

It's the day that I predicted that my third child would be born on,back when I was a naive teenager in the 1990's unaware of future consequences that would make me still very much single and still living with my parents at 35 years old,at this time,so I daydream about what would happen if my prediction had come true and I daydream about rushing my wife to the hospital,about the birth of our little girl, Carol Anne,and about everyone in our families, including my parents, my sisters,and their husbands (both current and soon-to-be), my two (now fictional) sons, and my niece and nephew coming to meet their baby niece,sister,cousin,and granddaughter, Carol Anne, during the course of the day.

Journal Entry: July 15,2014

I daydream about meeting more of those girls/women from Eharmoney.com,especially as one of them emails me explaining that she'll email me and tell me more about herself tomorrow.I also daydream, especially by night-fall, what I might be doing if I had been correct,all those years ago,in my predictions that by this time,I'd be married, already have two kids (both boys), and a third on the way to be born tomorrow,including racing around to be sure to be ready if my (of course fictional), wife was to go into labor tonight.

Journal Entry: July 14,2014

I get some more responses from women I've messaged from Eharmoney.com and this prompts me to daydream not only meeting these women, but possibly asked them to be my date for my younger sister's November wedding,and with my folks informing me that we'll be staying at the hotel that they had arranged to host my younger sister's wedding reception,I also daydream about possibly making love (having sex with), one of these women who ends up being my date for the wedding.

Journal Entry: July 13,2014

My recently engaged younger sister and her fiance are able to pick a date for their wedding (November 15 of this year), and though I'm happy for them,I'm feeling quite low as it reminds me of my loneliness trying to weed out all the profiles and responses from women from Eharmoney.com and see which one looks likely that I can start a relationship with.I do eventually daydream about meeting these women and eventually having a relationship with one of them.

Journal Entry: July 11,2014

I hear from a couple of women that I've met online and one agrees to meet me in person by the end of the summer,so I daydream about what might happen on our first date at that time.

Journal Entry: July 9,2014

With the date of my prediction of my third-born child being born from over 20 years ago being just a week away,I daydream about what would be happening in my life right now if my predictions on when I was going to get married and have children were correct.

Missing Journal Entry: November 16,2013

It's my niece,Julianne's third birthday,so we go to my older sister's house for her birthday and I daydream about one day having a little girl of my own,most likely named Carol Anne,who me and my wife celebrate her birthday with one day in the future.

Journal Entry: July 7,2014

Went back to work after the 3-day Fourth of July holiday weekend and daydream about getting a new job and possibly landing a lucrative book contract with someone one day.

Journal Entry: July 6,2014

Went to see the latest Transformer movie with a couple of friends of mine and daydream about taking one of the girls from Eharmoney.com and going to see a romantic movie with her one day.

Journal Entry: July 5,2014

Walked around the area,stopped at library and such,daydreaming about the future.When I got an email from one of the girls from Eharmoney.com,telling me that she's blowing me off,I get upset and daydream about ending up being homeless and alone and having no one once my elderly parents die.

Journal Entry: July 4,2014

I spend the day at the Starbucks in Ardsley,and daydream about having a family one day and taking them to barbecues and watching fireworks during future Fourth of Julys.

Journal Entry: July 3,2014

I go for another walk,this time after dinner,and I daydream about getting rich off my books and meeting those girls I've met recently on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: July 2,2014

I send some more book proposals to some more literary agents and daydream about one of them taking me on as a client to send my books to publishers to get some lucrative book deals

Journal Entry: July 1,2014

I take a walk after work and daydream about the future.Then,I come home and send some more book proposal to some literary agents.

Missing Journal Entry: October 31,2013

It's Halloween and as I walk around town after work,all the kids around town are out in their Halloween costumes and I daydream about seeing my children dressed in cute Halloween costumes some day in the future,after I meet my future wife and we get married and start having kids.

Journal Entry: June 30,2014

It's the end of another month,and once again,I daydream about the future,and with us getting deeper into the 2014 summer season,I daydream about meeting those ladies that I've met off the Internet, mainly through EHarmoney.com,and daydream about what it would be like if I had been right in my predictions when I was a kid,that I'd be married with 2 kids and a third on the way in a couple of weeks (July 16,2014 being the predicted date of the birth of my third child),by now.

Journal Entry: June 29,2014

Took a long,4-hour walk all around the area, over 3 towns in the area,and used the time to daydream about the future and achieving the future goals that I've set for myself,including the main goal of having my own family and being able to support them and give them the very best.

Journal Entry: June 27,2014

I went to the Starbucks in Ardsley after work today and daydreamed about dating and eventually marrying one of the girls/ladies that I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for recently, meeting at least one of them this upcoming summer.

Journal Entry: June 25,2014

Daydreamed some more about the future,as I decide to find literary agents that might take me on as a client so that my books can get into the hands of real publishers and hopefully it'll take my writing career to the next level.

Journal Entry: June 24,2014

My younger sister officially gets engaged to be married to her boyfriend,leaving me the last one of my whole family still single,which prompts me to daydream about dating and one day marrying one of those girls I've met on those online dating sites and asking them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: June 23,2014

Today's the 3-year anniversary of my first day at my current job,and it prompts me to daydream about the future,which I hope to include getting a better job one day.

Journal Entry: June 22,2014

Went around Central Avenue in Yonkers with my friend Anthony,and we passed by both a bridal store and a children's clothing store,which prompted me to daydream about marrying one of the girls I've since met off the dating sites and having a family with said date.

Journal Entry: June 21,2014

Went swimming today, as my town had a "Free Pool Day", as they allowed all residents to use the public swimming-pool at Gould Park, for free, without needing a membership pass.Naturally, as I was swimming around in the pool,I daydreamed about the future, teaching my babies how to swim. Of course,I daydreamed about teaching each of my children,my son, and my daughter,urging them on as they struggled to keep their heads above water as they learn to kick their chubby, little legs and paddle with their adorable,chubby,little arms.

Journal Entry: June 20,2014

I go to the Starbucks in Ardsley,NY after work and dinner this evening and I daydream about meeting,in person, one of those girls I've met off those dating web-sites later this summer,with the first day of summer just a day away and the 2014 Summer Solstice being just hours away.

Journal Entry: June 19,2014

I go for a walk after work today and I stop at the local park to read for awhile, and while I'm reading I see a woman with her infant daughter who's apparently learning to walk, and it prompts me to daydream about watching one of my own children learning to walk one day in the future.

Journal Entry: June 18,2014

I went for my typical after-dinner walk this evening,and as I walked around town here, I daydreamed about the usual things; going on dates with these women I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for,marrying one of these women, and having babies with her, as well as writing the "Great American Novel", as well as achieving other future goals of mine. 

Journal Entry: June 17,2014

I daydream some more about meeting these women off these dating sites and about eventually marrying and having a family with one of them,including some beautiful little babies.When I go for a walk after dinner this evening, I stop at one of the local parks,named Gould Park, to read from my Nook when I see some young families out at the park with their kids and it makes me daydream what it might be like if I were already a father of a couple young kids myself, with one of the girls/women I met on one of those dating sites I've been signed up with.

Journal Entry: June 16,2014

Got another response from another woman that I sent some questions to via EHarmoney.com's three-step/levels of compatibility,and daydream about meeting said woman for a date and what we might do on this first date. 

Journal Entry: June 15,2014

It's Father's Day 2014,so I daydream about a future where I have anywhere from 1 to as much as 4 or 5 children,and all the neat situations of taking my children out with me in future Father's Days.

Missing Journal Entry: December 25,2013

It's Christmas Day,so I daydream about a future where I'm married and have 2 or 3 children,and the kids are opening their presents wearing their fuzzy,woolen,footed blanket sleepers,their little faces lighting up when they see all the presents underneath the tree.I daydream about various future situations from a future Christmas with my next girlfriend,the first Christmas after me and my first wife get married,and the first Christmas of my future offspring.

Journal Entry: June 14,2014

I walk around town today,daydreaming about the future,particularly since one of the other girls I've been talking with that I met on EHarmoney.com, named Liz, and we talk about possibly meeting in person one day this upcoming summer season,daydreaming particularly about meeting this Liz girl and having a relationship with her and possibly marrying her,if things work out.

Journal Entry: June 13,2014

I go out after work,being a Friday,and I daydream about the future,especially as I talk with the girl named Tunde,on the phone this evening,for about 10-15 minutes, at around 7:30PM.

Journal Entry: June 12,2014

My family threw a little party for my younger sister's turning 30 yesterday,and of course,my older sister and her husband and my niece and nephew came over,and my younger sister and her boyfriend came.Her boyfriend announced to us,when my younger sister left the room that he's going to ask my younger sister to marry him someday soon,and he even showed us the engagement ring he got her while she was away,leaving it a foregone conclusion that I'll be the last one never married in my whole family,once they officially "tie the knot",possibly sometime late next year.It prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls I've met through online dating and about our meeting and such.I also got an email from another girl from another dating site I signed up for and this prompted me to daydream about meeting her, as well.

Journal Entry: June 11,2014

Today's my younger sister's 30th birthday,so I daydream both about the future and the past, the past about me and my sisters growing up,so it was more a reminiscence than daydreaming,but I also daydreamed about the future and about my goals for a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: June 10,2014

Tunde texted me again today,so I texted her back and daydreamed about my future goals including possibly dating and marrying this girl and having a family together with her,as well as about what might've been if I had been right about my being married with 2 kids and a third on the way by now, back when I was growing up 20-25 years ago now.

Journal Entry: June 9,2014

Heard from another girl from EHarmoney.com,Liz,and then I emailed her back and I daydreamed about being married with children with this Liz-girl,and how beautiful our children will be if me and this Liz-girl end up together as husband-and-wife.

Missing Journal Entry: December 31,2013

It's New Year's Eve,so it's again time to daydream about my goals for the future,which are to get a better job/make more money that I am now,including writing more novels,and about what I hope to ultimately achieve (a family of my own,including children,one day).

Journal Entry: June 8,2014

I spent another sunny,beautiful Sunday afternoon taking a walk around the area today,daydreaming about the future,about meeting these girls on dating sites,and eventually marrying one of them and having a family.I also daydreamed what it would be like if my prediction,from 20 years ago,when I thought that I would already be married and even have a couple of children,with a third on the way, had come true and what I might be doing now with my wife and children if this had actually happened to me,something I still hold out hope will happen one day,preferably in the near future

Journal Entry: June 7,2014

Went to White Plains today to do some shopping and texted the Hungarian girl,Tunde,and I daydreamed about meeting her and other girls I've been texting on EHarmoney.com recently.

Journal Entry: June 6,2014

It's Friday,so obviously I go out after work and eventually go to Ardsley to do some shopping.I also daydream about the future,about meeting these girls off EHarmoney and going on dates and eventually marrying and having a family with one of them.I meet up with my buddy Anthony later that evening,and we chat at Doubledays bar on Main Street.

Journal Entry: June 5,2014

I again go out after work and go for a walk and daydream about my future goals being met,eventually.

Journal Entry: June 4,2014

After work,I call Tunde over the phone and we talk for a few minutes,but she's still busy,working as a nanny in the city,so we don't talk long and then I go for a walk after work and daydream about the future,about meeting with Tunde and other women from EHarmoney in the future.

Journal Entry: June 3,2014

Walked around town after work and daydreamed about the future,about achieving my goals, especially as I talk/text with girl named Tunde I've met on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: June 2,2014

Talked with girl from Eharmoney.com named Tunde (she's Hungarian),and texted each other all day and even talked about meeting for a date later this month,so I start daydreaming about the possibility of this working out and the two of us falling in love and having a family together.

Journal Entry: June 1,2014

It's a sunny,seasonably warm,gorgeous day;a rarity around here this spring,so of course,I go out and exercise and daydream about the future,including my meeting these women I've been messaging on these dating sites and going on dates and eventually having a relationship with one of them that, hopefully,eventually,leads to marriage and children.

Missing Journal Entry: January 1,2014

Today's New Year's Day,the start of a new year,the year 2014,so I daydream about the future and about my goals for 2014,including to get a new job,make some more money,and meet a girl,have a girlfriend,and eventually get married and have children.