Journal Entry: April 30,2014

Daydreamed about the birth of my children,starting with my son,and then in another,about the birth of my daughter,about visiting them and their mother in the hospital,and about those first days after we take them home and about the day-to-day care of them as newborn babes,including my wife breast-feeding them and my changing their diapers,and giving them their first bathes.

Missing Journal Entry: March 17,2014

It's St. Patrick's Day and I get to see some pretty,find,young lassies out and about wearing their green shirts and what-not,and I daydream about having sex with some of the fine,lovely lassies I see, daydreaming about making one of them my wife and making fine-looking babies with her, as I pass by some of these fine,hot,Irish chicks!

Missing Journal Entry: March 16,2014

Came back from Atlantic City this evening with my friends and on the ride back,daydreamed again about making out with some of the fly chicks from Atlantic City.

Missingf Journal Entry: March 15,2014

Went with 5 friends to Atlantic City for my boy,Anthony's birthday.We walked the famed Boardwalk and played at the casino in our hotel,and went to nearby club by 11PM,this evening..Saw some beautiful women which prompted me to daydream about having sex with them.

Journal Entry: April 29,2014

Daydreamed about a future where I'm married and my little girl,Carol Anne,is dancing around in her little pink tutu,putting on a show for me.I clap several times when I think that she's done,but she gets mad at me,and I just kiss her on the head.Then,my lovely,vivacious,sexy wife tells Carol Anne to go get changed into her jammies,ready for bed, and then a bit later on,I tuck her into her bed.

Journal Entry: April 28,2014

Got message from woman on dating site asking for a date.I respond back,asking when and where we can meet,but haven't heard from her yet,but I daydream about that possible first date; where we go to eat, and what we do after dinner.I then daydream about dating some hot chick, and eventually going to bed and having hot,passionate sexual intercourse with said chick.

Journal Entry: April 27,2014

I walk around the area this afternoon,to get some exercise,and I daydream about finding a sexy hot chick to date and we eventually get married and have either three or four equally beautiful children and some of the day-to-day events that typical families go through,from changing my babies' diapers to watching my sons play little league,and the like.

Journal Entry: April 26,2014

Did the laundry at the Laundromat in town today and daydreamed about meeting a hot,sexy chick there who I end up dating,marrying,having sex and eventually a family with,and daydream of my wife doing the laundry with our beautiful children in toe.Then,later,I go to the Ardsley Starbucks and see a young couple with their toddler son and I daydream about being married and having a little son like the cute little toddler boy at the Starbucks.I later have daydreams about several type of situations I might run into in the future if I ever get married and have kids myself.

Journal Entry: April 25,2014

Today, as I'm trying to think of new material for my latest fiction novel (I'm a self-published author of now 40 books and counting),I daydream about writing the infamous "great American novel",and about getting filthy rich off some best-sellers that I managed to write,buying fancy sport cars,big mansions and having sexy,hot,super-model chicks to have hot,passionate sex with.

Missing Journal Entry: April 4,2014

Me and my two guy friends,named Jimmy and Anthony,go see the second Captain America movie that came out this evening and I daydream that,instead,I'm at the movies with my girlfriend/wife seeing either a comedy, or romance movie,or even a rom-com movie together as a date.I also daydream or reminisce about seeing the few superhero movies that I went to the movies to see as a kid and teen, many long years ago.

Missing Journal Entry: March 28,2014

I go to the Ardsley Starbucks today after work and as I'm sitting there, reading from my Nook E-reader,I see a young couple with a baby and I daydream about the young couple being me and my lovely,vivacious wife pushing the stroller of our toddler son,but then in another daydream,the baby is our toddler daughter,sucking on a pacifier wearing a one-piece,footed,snowsuit.

Journal Entry: April 24,2014

It was a very busy day at work today;busier than most.I work in the shipping department of my current employer,and we ended up shipping out 20 packages;a record since I started working there almost 3 years ago,in June of 2011.This triggers a daydream or two about my climbing the corporate ladder,and what I would do if I were to finally get a nice,decent raise from my employer (we haven't had a raise since September of 2011,and for me that was only because I went from part-time,during my first couple of months there,to going full-time just weeks before the last raise we all received),from buying a car,to finally going on a date with those dating-site women.

Journal Entry: April 23,2014

This evening,after I get home from work,I decide to log onto the dating web-sites that I am a member of and see that I have some responses from some of the women I sent messages to,and of course,that triggers my daydream of having a hot,sexy chick to date and make love to and I daydream about meeting and going out with a few of the attractive women I got responses from.

Journal Entry: April 22,2014

During lunch,at work,one of my co-workers was talking to another about his girlfriend,which prompted me to daydream about having sexual intercourse with what I think is a drop-dead gorgeous woman; one with golden-blonde hair, crystal-blue eyes, and a slim,healthy,hour-glass figure and how I'd like to marry and have children with such a woman.

Journal Entry: April 21,2014

It's yet another sunny,seasonably mild late April,mid-spring afternoon.While at work,on my lunch-break,I listen to my small walk-man device, to some rock-and-roll music and it makes me daydream of riding around in a red, sporty convertible with the top down, blaring the music as I speed off down the highway,with a hot, sexy chick next to me.Later on,as I'm taking my 3PM break outside,and some kids are walking down the block returning from school,I daydream about my future, VERY unborn children;this time just one son (8 or 9), and one daughter, aged 6 (Carol Anne wearing her "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh" overalls), coming home with their book-bags,my little girl showing me some drawing that she made for me while at school today.

Journal Entry: April 20,2014

Today's Easter Sunday,so once again,I go for a walk and while walking around the area,I have some daydreams. One is of my beautiful, sexy wife, and beautiful children all decked out in our Sunday best, ready to go to church for Easter Mass. I daydream that my young,handsome,strapping sons are wearing suits and ties,while my wife and toddler daughter are in dresses.I daydream of seeing my toddler daughter,Carol Anne,searching for Easter eggs with all the other parish children on the church lawn.I then daydream us going home and my wife putting our toddler daughter in this cute, pink, bunny-suit (either a snowsuit or a blanket sleeper),with a hood and floppy bunny ears (think the bunny-suit from the Christmas movie "A Christmas Story"),and attached tail,and slippers/booties. When I get home to where I live,in reality,with my parents,I daydream about them seeing their grandbabies and including their granddaughter in that bunny-suit.

Missing Journal Entry: April 11,2014

Walk to Ardsley to visit Starbucks after work. While there,I daydream about being married with a wife and kids,and one of the kids was my little daughter,Carol Anne (yes,after the little platinum-blonde girl in Poltergeist), in her stroller wearing footie pajamas.By 9PM,I leave the Starbucks for home,and I daydream about my wife and children walking home together and then we put our children to bed once we get home.

Journal Entry: April 19,2014

Yet another beautiful Saturday,so once again,I go walk to Tarrytown,and along the way,I again daydream about my future goals.One daydream in particular has me pushing my little girl,Carol Anne, as a toddler,in her stroller.Sometimes she's wearing pinstriped "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh",overalls and in other dreams,she's in a pair of one-piece,footed,blanket sleeper pajamas,as it is a bit cool at times,though the temperature does raise to the middle 60's this afternoon.I do walk to the site of where the company calling for an interview with me,so I can know where it is once I schedule an appointment for an interview,and end up walking to the Tarrytown/Greenburgh border. Later this evening,I hang with my buddies that I usually hang with,and daydream about telling my wife that I'll be hanging with the guys for a few hours while she watches the kids,who are all in bed,being just after 10PM,by then.

Journal Entry: April 18,2014

It's the start of the Easter 2014 weekend,as it's Good Friday,so my job lets us out at around 1PM.I then stop at the town cafe to have lunch.Then, at around 2:30PM,I come home to drop off some things and see a message from either my Mom or Dad,about someone calling for an interview after seeing my resume on careerbuilder.com. This prompts me to have daydreams about this new job and about my future goals including having a wife and children.I eventually go to Ardsley and stop at the Starbucks there and then go home by 9PM,this evening

Journal Entry: April 17,2014

After work,I walk around Dobbs Ferry,and once again,my daydreams center around my future goals and again that's having a family one day and I daydream about what it's like to come home after work being greeted by my beautiful wife and my equally beautiful children.Each time I have these daydreams,it motivates me more and more to do what I have to do to make these dreams a reality

Journal Entry: April 13,2014

This time I head up to the town of Ardsley,just to the northeast of Dobbs Ferry,and I again daydream about my dream wife,and our going out on dates,and our kissing and making love,and our eventually having our children.I go into the Starbucks there,and daydream about me and my wife and our three or four lovely,beautiful children sitting there in the Starbucks with me.

Journal Entry: April 12,2014

Went for another walk around the area,from Dobbs Ferry to Tarrytown,though I walked a bit further this time,almost to the town of Sleepy Hollow.As I was walking, once again enjoying another wonderful, bright, sunny early spring afternoon,I once again had some daydreams about the future featuring my future goal of having my own family one day.Now,even though I don't have a girlfriend at this time,as I'm in the process of using some online dating sites to meet women (again in that 27 to 33 year old age-range), I'm using these daydreams as motivation to keep pushing.My daydreams on this day feature my driving my children around to the park on this beautiful,unseasonably warm early spring Saturday,listening to some music on the radio (I was listening to my little walk-man [yes,I still use those.I haven't upgraded to I-pads for this,yet], while having these daydreams).I have my two sons (I had 2 sons and a daughter in these daydreams), which I named William and Andrew, sitting on the back, and their baby sister, which I named Carol Anne, sitting on a car-seat in the middle.I then daydreamed that we stopped at a local park,and while the boys run around and play,I have my little daughter in an infant-seat sitting on the park bench.Eventually,as I'm heading back to Dobbs,I daydream my heading back with my three beautiful children in toe.

Journal Entry: April 9,2014

Went to go see my regular physician Dr. Andrew Fader and he told me that I was generally healthy but I weighed 244 pounds,a 5-7 pound rise from my last check-up.This only made me want to exercise some more and reflect on my life and once again,I daydreamed about having a lovely wife and 2 or 3 beautiful children and all the various situations,from when they're babies,to when they're school-aged and even teenagers,and all the various concerns any parent has about their children's well-being.I also daydreamed about various scenarios where I would be much skinnier than I am now and what might happen once I do lose 20 or 30 pounds

Journal Entry: April 6,2014

Walked from my home in Dobbs Ferry,NY to Tarrytown,NY,as part of a diet/exercise routine I've just begun,mainly by walking and cutting down on  nonessential snacking/eating.As I walked,I thought about/reflected on future goals; one of which is to find Mrs. Right and get married and have a family. As I walked,enjoying the nice,sunny,early spring weather,I daydream about being married and having a family.Some of the dreams/reflections have me and my wife;a beautiful,vivacious,lovely,gorgeous, super-model-like woman between 4 and 7 or 8 years my junior (I'm 35,so if me and my future wife are to have children,she's going to have to be between 27 and 33 at this time and for the foreseeable future),having our firstborn child (sometimes a son,sometimes a daughter),as a baby or toddler being pushed in his carriage/stroller.Others have us having 2 or 3 kids,including a son (or two),and a daughter (or two),but all are very young,no older than 5 or 6 years old. During these daydreams, I would just push the kids around in their strollers and I'd just look at them and talk to them, and they'd smile up at me