Journal Entry: December 25,2016

It's finally Christmas,once again and I again daydream about future Christmases and seeing my children one day getting excited about Santa coming and opening presents and seeing what Santa got them,especially as I watch my niece and nephew do the exact same thing I hope to see William,Carol Anne (and any other children I may have one day), do one day.

Journal Entry: December 24,2016

It's Christmas Eve and though I have to work for a few hours this afternoon,I just daydream about the holiday tomorrow and all that I'm looking forward to and of course,daydream about spending future Christmases with a wife and eventually children one day.

Journal Entry: December 21,2016

It's the first day of the 2016-17 winter season and naturally I daydream about taking my children out in the snow and making snowmen and having snowball fights with them and getting them all dressed-up in thick,heavy snowsuits and thermal underwear and the like.

Journal Entry: December 19,2016

I once again go watch Monday Night Football with my buddies Joe and Anthony,this time at Anthony's house and I daydream about watching and playing football with my sons one day in the future during the game.

Journal Entry: December 18,2016

It's just a week from the most wonderful holiday of all and I'm daydreaming about the upcoming holiday and future Christmases that I hope to spend with a girlfriend,wife and eventually children.

Journal Entry: December 14,2016

I get confirmation that the woman making my bunny-suit sleeper pajamas that it's ready and she just shipped it out so I daydream about getting the thing and zipping myself up in it,looking like the little boy from A Christmas Story (a famous Christmas movie from the 1980's that always comes on Christmas Day every year including,I'm sure,this one as well).

Journal Entry: December 11,2016

It's now 2 more weeks to Christmas 2016 and once again,I daydream about future Christmases including the first Christmas of me being a Daddy one day.

Journal Entry: December 10,2016

I hang out with my buddies Anthony and John and John's gf Daniella and we go to the diner in White Plains across from The Westchester and naturally, John and Daniella get all lovie-dovie and start  kissing each other and naturally that makes me daydream about my future girlfriend and eventual wife getting all lovie-dovie like John and Daniella get.

Journal Entry: December 4,2016

It's 3 weeks to Christmas,so naturally I start daydreaming about future Christmases involving my future wife and children as well as remembering past Christmases,as well.

Journal Entry: December 1,2016

I had a long day at work. With my job at the DeCicco's supermarket/grocery-store in Ardsley being having to put the sales labels up every Friday morning,the labels, which are usually here on Thursday morning when I come in,don't arrive until 6:30PM this evening and I have to break down all of those labels in 2 hours before I leave for home and so naturally I daydream about getting a better job one day where I don't have to deal with breaking down thousands of labels in only 2 hours.

Journal Entry: November 30,2016

The last month of the year 2016 is set to begin so naturally I daydream about better days ahead, including the day of my wedding and my babies being born one day.

Journal Entry: November 27,2016

I once again go to my friend Ant's house with the guys to watch some football games and naturally I daydream about watching football one day with my own sons.

Journal Entry: November 25,2016

It's Black Friday 2016 so I daydream about future Black Fridays where I'll go shopping and eventually take the kids to see Santa Claus and have their pictures with Santa one day.

Journal Entry: November 24,2016

It's Thanksgiving 2016 and I daydream about future Thanksgivings that I might have one day once I find the mother of my children and we settle down and start a family one day.

Journal Entry: November 20,2016

I go over to my friend Anthony's house to watch football with the guys in our circle of friends and naturally,I daydream about watching football with my future sons.

Journal Entry: November 18,2016

Today's the day that the radio station 106.7 starts playing Christmas music and naturally,I start daydreaming about future Christmases to come while listening to the music.

Journal Entry: November 15,2016

It's mid-November,and that means that the winter season is just around the corner. Therefore,I daydream about future winters in which I take the kids out to play in the snow and maybe,one day, take them skiing or doing other winter activities.

Journal Entry: November 13,2016

I take a nature walk on my day off from work this afternoon and I use the time to daydream about the future, going out on dates and then,eventually, settling down and starting a family one day.

Journal Entry: November 9,2016

Donald Trump is declared the winner of the election and naturally I'm so happy and start daydreaming about all the good things that'll happen if our newly elected president follows through on his campaign promises.

Journal Entry: November 8,2016

It's Election Day and naturally, after I go to vote,I daydream about all the good things that I feel should happen if the guy I voted for (Donald Trump), becomes president. Also,I have my latest physical and despite my being overweight,I'm otherwise 100% healthy, so I daydream about losing some weight and all the good things that might happen from that.

Journal Entry: November 6,2016

It's another Sunday and therefore another day of football. Therefore, I then started daydreaming about watching football games with my kids and watching my kids play football one day.

Journal Entry: November 4,2016

After work,I go hang out at the Starbucks across the street and naturally,I daydream about what I might be doing for this weekend.

Journal Entry: November 3,2016

It's a slow work-day today,so I mostly just daydream about the future and about getting a better job and dating women and eventually having a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: October 31,2016

It's Halloween,so I go out first with my older sister and my niece and nephew for a couple of hours to let the kids go trick-or-treating and naturally I daydream about taking my own children trick-or-treating one day in the future.Then,later on,I meet up with a couple of my guy friends and me and one of the guys gets dressed-up in costumes and I daydream about going to future costume-parties with my girlfriend and eventual wife.

Journal Entry: October 28,2016

One of my buddies; Joe, wants to hang out to watch Game 3 of the World Series but I texted him to inform him that I'm just too worn-out from working all day,since 7AM this morning,to want to go back out this evening to do that,but I do then daydream about either watching a World Series game with my own children one day or even seeing one of them playing in one once they get big and become MLB players.

Journal Entry: October 25,2016

Me and my buddies go out to dinner together as my buddy,Anthony,has since returned from Arizona with his Dad and we talk about the usual topics we all talk about when we get together,mostly sports in general and football in particular.We do talk about one of the guys,named Jeremy,who got his own bachelor pad recently and naturally that makes me daydream about my getting my own bachelor pad one day once I'm finally making enough from my career-job to afford one of my own,hopefully long before I'm forced into it by the death of my parents,who I'm currently still living with.

Journal Entry: October 24,2016

We're one week from Halloween 2016 and I daydream about future Halloweens and what my children might dress-up like in future Halloweens (after they're born, of course), including their first ones,while they're babies (I picture my boys being things like puppy dogs and teddy-bears and other boyish things and I picture my girls as bunnies,kitty-cats,maybe even mermaids in a bunting shaped into a mermaid tail at the end, where the sack would be,these outfits being otherwise one-piece with attached hoods,mittens,booties and maybe even attached tails on the butt).

Journal Entry: October 22,2016

This is the date that I had it that my second-born child,named either Andrew or Theodore,would turn 6 years old,back when I was a teen daydreaming about what my future life might be like,so naturally I daydream about what would've happened if I had been right and daydream about us sitting around the table singing "Happy Birthday", to Andrew/Theodore, as we all gather,including my parents and 2 sisters and their families (real and imagined because my older sister does have a family; she's married with 2 kids;my niece and nephew, while my younger sister is still single like yours truly still is,even if she's dating someone at this time while I'm still not,tragically enough).I daydream of Andrew/Theodore opening his presents and blowing out the candles on his cake and what he might look like as a 6-year-old little boy. 

Journal Entry: October 19,2016

It feels like the middle of summer up here even though we're almost a whole month into autumn.I therefore daydream about some of the things me and my friends might do next summer,but I also daydream about cooler weather that's sure to come before long,as November approaches.

Journal Entry: October 17,2016

Today was the day that Ant went to his first road game for his favorite football team,the New York Jets with his Dad. Though the Cardinals would win that game 28-3, Ant said that he enjoyed the experience with his Dad.Meanwhile,I daydream about going to a football game one day myself, including maybe a road New York Giants game with my future gf or wife and/or my own children like Ant did with his Dad.

Journal Entry: October 16,2016

This was the date,one year ago,that me and my friends, Anthony and Jimmy came back from Florida from our 2-week vacation down there (it was more of a vacation for Ant and Jimmy since they had jobs at the time,while I was still unemployed for what turned out to be another 10 months). I therefore daydream about the trip down there last year and that day that we drove all the way back to New York from Florida (we had done the reverse back on October 1,2015, when we left for this 2-week jaunt down there).

Journal Entry: October 13,2016

My buddy,Anthony,leaves to go on a 8-day vacation to Arizona with his Dad as they are set to go to the Jets-Cardinals game out there on Monday. I daydream about our trip to Florida last year and some of the fun,neat things that we did there last year including a year ago on this date.

Journal Entry: October 10,2016

It's a beautiful Monday afternoon,so since I'm off from work,I take a walk around the area and naturally,I daydream about having a better job,a family and some kids of my own one day,as I tend to do on such beautiful days when I take my little walks around, thinking about the future.

Journal Entry: October 8,2016

Today's my nephew's actual eighth birthday and it makes me daydream about my having my own children and how I thought that I'd not only have 3 kids by now,but my firstborn would already be 10 years old,something my nephew, Frankie, will be in a couple more years.

Journal Entry: October 7,2016

While I'm out at work,my folks invite my older sister to bring my niece and nephew over the apartment for my nephew's eighth birthday while officially arrives tomorrow.Of course,with me working,I have to miss it but I daydream what might be going on while I'm at work that afternoon.

Journal Entry: October 4,2016

I take a walk around the area on my day off and I daydream about getting this bunny-suit that I'm trying to have made for this upcoming Halloween.It's not looking good for me to get it this year but maybe next Halloween I'll wear it and I daydream about that.

Journal Entry: October 2,2016

It's another football Sunday,so once again,I daydream about watching football with my sons one day in the future.

Journal Entry: September 30,2016

With the end of September and therefore tomorrow's October 1,2016,I daydream about the cooler, fall weather,football continuing and even hockey and basketball coming back in the coming weeks and months and also,with my nephew's birthday being a week from tomorrow,I daydream about my having children of my own already by now (in all of these,I usually have 2 sons,named William and either Theodore,Andrew or some other traditional boys name and a little girl named Carol Anne and this daydream is no different), and my kids going to see my niece and nephew to celebrate my nephew's upcoming eighth birthday.

Journal Entry: September 29,2016

It's a raw,cool early autumn day as suddenly it feels like we went from late August or early September weather to late October or early November weather, from temps in the 80's all the time to only around 60 degrees. Even some customers are wearing coats and sweaters as they enter the store as if it's 30 degrees out instead of 65. Anyway, this prompts me to daydream about the holiday season upcoming and the coming winter season and therefore wearing down parkas and woolen long-johns and footsie pajamas (For both kids and adults. Even I have a couple of pairs in adult-size,of course).

Journal Entry: September 28,2016

After having a few days off from work,I go back to work again today and it prompts me to daydream about one day having an even better job,making enough to support myself and hopefully,eventually,a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: September 27,2016

The weather's just starting to change as just a few days ago,it was quite warm and summer-like even as late as the second full day of the 2016 autumn season (September 24,2016),but now it's getting cool out as it's only around 70 or in the lower 70's today;perfect early fall,end-of-September weather.

Journal Entry: September 26,2016

For the first time in over 6 weeks,I hang out with both my friends Anthony and John and we catch-up on things and of course, John mentions how he and his girlfriend are doing and naturally it makes me daydream about my having a girlfriend one day and eventually a wife and children of my own.

Journal Entry: September 25,2016

It's another football Sunday and once again,I go to my friend's house to watch football,this time my friend Joe's house with a few other guys. We watch football games all day and I eventually daydream about watching football with my future sons and seeing them play football themselves one day.

Journal Entry: September 22,2016

It's the first day of autumn 2016 so naturally I daydream about the upcoming holiday season and what I'm planning on dressing-up as for Halloween this year.

Journal Entry: September 21,2016

It's the last day of the 2016 summer season so I daydream about the autumn,football and the cooler weather to come.

Journal Entry: September 19,2016

It's a dull,cool,rainy late summer day,but with autumn starting in a few more days,I daydream about cooler weather and the upcoming holiday season both this year and in future years when,hopefully, eventually,I'll have a little family of my very own as in a wife and offspring.

Journal Entry: September 18,2016

Go to my friend Anthony's house with my other friend Joe (the one who helped me get my current job at his old stomping-grounds), and we watch football all day and it prompts me to daydream about watching football games with my future little boys one day or even watching them play in Pee-Wee League or even in high-school or college,heck maybe in the pros aka the NFL.

Journal Entry: September 16,2016

It was a long,grueling,tiring day at work today and so I daydream of better and brighter days though at times,I do get depressed and wonder if my life will ever get better or if life has just dealt me a cold, cruel hand since the day I was born.

Journal Entry: September 13,2016

Met with person from group trying to help me get some funding for some jobs training programs and other things that I may need and will try to obtain in the coming months and years and the meeting went very well and my sister; Linda and I feel that we've made quite a bit of positive progress.

Journal Entry: September 11,2016

It's the 15-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks and I daydream about what I was doing that day and my thoughts on what was going on. It's also the first Sunday of football for the new season so I also daydream about the same stuff I did the other day; watching football games with friends and eventually my sons and maybe even watching my sons play football even if just Pee-Wee League football or just for their high school's team one day.

Journal Entry: September 10,2016

It's another boring day at work so when I can,I daydream about getting a better job,meeting my future wife and having children with her.

Journal Entry: September 8,2016

Tonight's the NFL season opener and naturally,I daydream about the football season ahead and sitting down and watching football games with friends and eventually my children in the future.

Journal Entry: September 5,2016

It's Labor Day 2016 and I'm off from work so I daydream about the end of the summer and the cooler weather to come and of course,the start of the new football season just around the corner.

Journal Entry: September 3,2016

It's the start of the Labor Day weekend so I daydream about watching football games and the cooler autumn weather to come in just a matter of weeks from now.

Journal Entry: September 1,2016

This evening's the last games of the NFL preseason are playing and therefore I daydream about watching football games with my friends and eventually my sons in the future.

Journal Entry: August 31,2016

Today's the last day of August,so once again,I daydream about the start of the football season and the coming of the nice,cool,crisp weather of the autumn months of October and November to come.

Journal Entry: August 29,2016

I hang out with my buddies Ant and Jimmy and we go to the Starbucks in town and we chat about sports and our favorite movies and comics and especially about the upcoming football season,which prompts me to then daydream about not only watching football games but also participating and winning the annual picks pool that we have with the 3 of us and 3 or 4 other buddies of ours.

Journal Entry: August 27,2016

With August coming to a close and September and the fall coming right behind,I start daydreaming about cooler weather and football games soon to come.

Journal Entry: August 26,2016

I go to the wake for Anthony's mother and though I,naturally,don't daydream at the wake, I do daydream during the day about how I would handle the same situation and how I want to get married and have kids before that happens to my own mother or father in the future.

Journal Entry: August 23,2016

My close friend of 8 years,Anthony, had a devastating loss in his family; his mother passed away today and I find out from him on Facebook. This prompts me to daydream about all the times I've been over my friend,Anthony's house and seeing his Mom there and her asking me how my family is and how my parents are doing.

Journal Entry: August 22,2016

Today I go with my parents to the pool where my sister takes my niece and nephew now until school starts for them in a couple more weeks and I daydream again about my niece and nephew having some cousins (my own children), to play with in the pool one summer in the future.

Journal Entry: August 21,2016

I finally have my first day off since I finally got employed again back on Wednesday and naturally I daydream,for most of the day at work,what I might do with my first days off since I started working again,this time at my latest part-time,retail-job.

Journal Entry: August 19,2016

I end up getting out of work early today because I had to work from 7AM until 4PM,and so I daydream about what I might do on some Fridays in the future now that I'm back to having a job and therefore earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 17,2016

Today's my first day at DeCicco's and it's quite an exhausting day as you might imagine from being the first day of my working since the beginning of 2015, over 19 months ago.I barely have enough time to daydream about anything today,but I do about one day getting a full-time career-job and finally making some real, serious money one day.

Journal Entry: August 16,2016

Today's my last day of being unemployed. I spend the whole day again daydreaming about this new job and what it might entail and taking advantage of all the benefits of finally earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 15,2016

I go to the Foodtown in Hastings for the interview. When I get out,I get a call from DeCicco's, another supermarket in the area,this one from Ardsley,where I had that interview on July 25 and they inform me that they are going to go ahead and hire me and for the first time in 19 months,I finally have a new place of employment and a job to go to. I therefore daydream about finally starting to work and earning money and eventually having a family of my own,especially when I then go to the pool in Hastings to help my parents look after my 7-year-old nephew and 5-year-old niece.

Journal Entry: August 14,2016

I get a call to come in to Foodtown for an interview tomorrow and naturally I daydream about getting a job there so at least I can finally start working and earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 13,2016

Another day in this brutal heatwave,so once again,I head up to the malls this afternoon and naturally,I again see some hot chicks and daydream about dating them. I also try to daydream about other "cool thoughts", as a way to beat this oppressive heatwave.

Journal Entry: August 12,2016

Another hot day,so once again, I go up to the malls in White Plains to keep cool and I see a few attractive ladies while there and naturally I daydream about going out with them,having one of them be my girlfriend and what that might be like.

Journal Entry: August 11,2016

Another hot,muggy,steamy,mid-to-late summer afternoon,but this time I do go up to one of the AC-ed malls in White Plains and just keep cool and daydream about being on a beach or some of the things I might do one day on hot days like this once I have children of my own.

Journal Entry: August 10,2016

Decided to go back to the Starbucks in Ardsley but in the afternoon,mostly to,once again,catch up on or finishing up my baseball almanac book,but with how hot and humid it is out there today,I just daydream about being at a beach,or AC-ed mall or movie theater.

Journal Entry: August 8,2016

Took a walk after dinner and decided to,once again,go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley to go have a chance to sit down and read some more of my baseball almanac while sipping back on a black-tea with lemonade and at times,daydream about being employed again,dating,and eventually having a wife and three beautiful,cherubic,golden-haired angels one day.

Journal Entry: August 7,2016

Went to the Ardsley Starbucks this afternoon and read some of my baseball almanac that I'm in the middle of reading,daydreaming about either me playing baseball myself or one of my children playing baseball or softball either in little league,high school,college or even the pros.

Journal Entry: August 6,2016

The main public pool in town hosts a free event where all town residents get in free even if you're not a member of the pool,so I go over there and go swimming this afternoon and naturally,I see many families with young children there and I daydream about taking my own kids to this pool one day as well as about having my own kids already and taking them there.

Journal Entry: August 4,2016

My parents have my niece and nephew to look over for a few hours after camp lets out but before their father; my brother-in-law, comes to pick them up after work. Naturally, I daydream about having children of my own and seeing them playing with my niece and nephew; their cousins.

Journal Entry: August 3,2016

Today I meet with a psychiatrist and have a physical all to make sure that I am autistic and deserving of funding for programs designed to help those with autism find jobs and their own apartments and other meaningful services to lead a productive life one day,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 1,2016

It's a new month,so that means I, once again, daydream about having a family of my own and having children one day and all that that might entail.

Journal Entry: July 31,2016

It's the end of another month,so once again I daydream about the future. It's been such a hot,steamy summer already that I just daydream about cooler weather to come particularly as we move into the last few months of 2016, especially once the summer officially ends in late September.

Journal Entry: July 30,2016

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this evening and as I'm reading a sports book I'm currently in the middle of reading,it makes me daydream about either being a professional athlete myself or daydreaming about one of my kids playing professional sports one day themselves.

Journal Entry: July 29,2016

Hung out with a few of my friends and one of the guys in my group who has a girlfriend and I see them kissing and it prompts me to daydream about having a girlfriend to kiss one day.

Journal Entry: July 27,2016

I go back up to the mall today to beat the heat and while in the Barnes-&-Noble up in White Plains, I see several mothers wheeling strollers with their babies inside and I daydream of one day either me alone or me and my wife coming into that same Barnes-&-Noble wheeling one of our own babies in his or her stroller around the store.

Journal Entry: July 26,2016

To beat the heat,I go into the local library to finish reading my latest book and then I donate it to the library. As I'm reading, I see several parents with young children there for some special event and therefore I daydream about taking my kids to one of these such events in the future.

Journal Entry: July 25,2016

Go on my first interview in months for a job at a local grocery-store (just to have some money coming in until I get something better,something more suited for my career goals),and naturally,I daydream about getting the job and some of the things that I might be doing on a typical work day while working for this particular grocer-company.

Journal Entry: July 23,2016

Once again head to the malls in White Plains to beat the heat on another summer scorcher.This time, I see some fine-looking young woman walking around and I daydream meeting one of them or having one of them for a girlfriend and the various things we might do together,including having sex.

Journal Entry: July 22,2016

The latest heatwave begins and once again,I go up to find relief from the heat at one of the malls in White Plains. Eventually, I see several mothers with strollers and babies and young kids there and naturally, I daydream about being married and having kids of my own and envisioning the various scenarios where I might try to keep them cool; whether at the mall,the movies or the pool or a water-park, during these hot, summer months.

Journal Entry: July 21,2016

Went to Jones Beach with my friend Anthony this afternoon and naturally,I daydream about going to the beach with my girlfriend one day and my wife and children another day further into the future, taking the kids into the water, seeing them play in the sand, etc.............

Journal Entry: July 20,2016

Took a walk around town and daydreamed about taking my kids to the park after passing by the main park in town, for example or taking them to the local diner to eat lunch,which I also did and overall just daydreamed about what I still hope to be my future.

Journal Entry: July 18,2016

It's another hot,mid-summer day,so once again,I try to find a way to keep cool; this time at one of the malls in White Plains and again, whenever I see parents pushing strollers and carriages,I immediately daydream about being one of those doing the same thing.

Journal Entry: July 17,2016

I went up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this afternoon to beat the heat and naturally, I daydreamed about some of the other ways I might keep myself and maybe my girlfriend and eventual wife and my babies cool,like the pool or the beach or to a family-friendly movie. I also daydream about being married with kids each time I see someone who,in reality,has those things already.

Journal Entry: July 16,2016

Daydreamed about my third child turning 2 years old today (based on my prediction that I'd have 3 kids and the third being born on July 16,2014, which was 2 years ago today,some 20-25 years ago back in the mid 1990's when I was a mere teenager),daydreaming that those predictions of mine from 1994 or 1995 had come true and my little girl, Carol Anne, had turned 2. I daydream that we'd have invited all of the grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins over and we'd have my little now 2 year old daughter open her presents by 4PM, then we'd have dinner by 6PM and her birthday-cake by 8PM and the party being over about a half hour ago at about 9:40PM, or so.

Journal Entry: July 15,2016

Hang out with my pal Anthony Latino,and we go to the Palisade's Mall in Nyack and of course, I see many women with kids and babies in strollers and carriages and I again daydream about one day going to the mall with my wife and both of us taking turns pushing our babies in their carriages and strollers one day including now if I had been correct with my predictions of being married with 3 kids and the third turning 2 years old tomorrow. 

Journal Entry: July 14,2016

Take another walk around the area and daydream about the future,including about one day meeting my future wife and "making babies", with her.

Journal Entry: July 13,2016

We are just 3 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I,once again,daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday.

Journal Entry: July 12,2016

We are just 4 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday. 

Journal Entry: July 11,2016

Went to Starbucks in area for a quick drink and snack this afternoon and daydreamed about what I might be doing if on vacation with wife and kids if I even had said wife and kids,maybe taking them camping or to one of the beaches in the area,most likely.

Journal Entry: July 9,2016

It was a cool,cloudy,murky day today,so I go out to the Starbucks in Ardsley and I see this attractive-looking woman sitting at one of the other tables nearby where I'm sitting. Naturally,at times,I think of going up to talk to this woman but she looks rather young for me (I'm 37,she looked to be about 22 or 23),and so I daydream about all the ways I could go up and talk to this woman but I never find the right moment and then the woman leaves and I daydream what might've been if I had gotten the chance to talk to this woman and I find out that she's much closer to my age than I thought.

Journal Entry: July 7,2016

It's another hot one during this latest heatwave and so I go up to the malls again today and walk around. Naturally,I see mothers pushing babies in carriages and strollers and it prompts me to daydream about my wife being one of them and another time I daydream about pushing one of my own kids in their strollers and carriages as babies through this particular mall.

Journal Entry: July 6,2016

The first heatwave of the year starts today so I head up to the malls for the day and I daydream taking my girlfriend or wife to the movies and then have another daydream of taking my kids to the movies or to the public swimming-pool in town or the beach as the case may be.

Journal Entry: July 4,2016

This evening,I go down to the waterfront to watch the fireworks display that the town sets off every year and I daydream about having my wife and children down there with me and seeing my babies having their eyes wide open as they look at all the pretty colors from the fireworks in the sky,but then it starts to rain and I picture me and my wife and kids racing to the car to leave.

Journal Entry: July 2,2016

Took a walk around the area this afternoon and used time to reflect on life and daydream about what my life could've been like if things turned out differently along the way.

Journal Entry: July 1,2016

We had some hefty thunderstorms this afternoon and evening and it made me daydream about how my own babies will react to scary thunderstorms and I daydream about some nights in the future I have to take them out of their cribs and comfort them down after some loud crashing noise from thunder wakes them up and scares them and what it might take for me to get them to calm down and fall back to sleep again,daydreaming about each of my future kids (whether just 2 or 5 or 6), being babies and having to calm them down after severe thunderstorms while they're all little kids.

Journal Entry: June 30,2016

My folks babysat my niece and nephew for a few hours today and I decided to hang around and help them out.We took them to a park in town and naturally I daydreamed about taking my own children to this same park one day and maybe with my niece and nephew;their cousins.Then,later on,when my brother-in-law came to pick them up,my folks mentioned my sister and brother-in-law going to Cape Cod for vacation next week and that made me daydream about taking my wife and kids on such a vacation while our kids are still little.

Journal Entry: June 29,2016

Took a walk around the area and saw some parents with babies,including two women who I assume are friends,holding their babies who look only a few weeks or months old,in their arms and I daydream about me and my wife doing the exact same thing with our babies.

Journal Entry: June 28,2016

Again stopped into local cafe in town at around 4:30PM, this afternoon and saw this couple who usually go in there as they live nearby,and they have this little daughter of theirs who's about 2 so naturally, I daydream about having my own 2 year old,Carol Anne,there with me just like I had daydreamed about this yesterday as well.

Journal Entry: June 27,2016

I go into the cafe in town on Main Street and see a young family with parents and a kid of about 4 or 5 years old and I daydream about taking my own four or five year old son and/or daughter into the same place one day and introducing them to the people who work there who I personally know.

Journal Entry: June 26,2016

I go for a walk this evening after dinner and I daydream about being married with 3 beautiful children and we're taking an after-dinner walk together with our little girl,Carol Anne, in pinstriped "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh", overalls and when the baby spots one of my neighbors walking their dog, I daydream her going "doggy", or when she spots a bird flying up into one of the trees that line one of the streets,she goes "birdie", just like a little one or two year old would (again fantasizing about my prediction of having 3 kids by the summer of 2014 some 20-25 years ago having come true).

Journal Entry: June 23,2016

I decide to do something different today.I take the bus up to White Plains and stop in a strip-mall near the Greenburgh Public Library and I stop in a K-Mart but I also stop in a Carter's store and of course when I see mothers with their babies and young kids I daydream about one of those mothers being my wife and carrying one of my children,shopping for clothes for them. I then take the bus home. Also on the bus-ride up I see a mother with a baby and I again daydream about my wife doing the same with one of our babies one day.

Journal Entry: June 20,2016

It's the first day of summer,so I daydream about all the things I hope to do with a future family one day; from going to the beach and playing with my babies in the sand to taking my wife and kids camping in the woods and my wife and I making out in the RV while the kids sleep in sleeping bags in their tent and I tell them all camp-fire stories before they go off to bed in their sleeping bags.

Journal Entry: June 19,2016

It's Father's Day 2016,so naturally I daydream about being a father myself. I daydream about my kids giving me presents and having a chance to spend a day with them,especially when they're real little and all the various things I'll get to do with them once I become a Daddy one day,myself.

Journal Entry: June 17,2016

Helped my elderly parents take care of my niece and nephew for a few hours after school this afternoon and naturally, I started daydreaming about seeing my niece and nephew running around with my kids who would,naturally,be their cousins, though sometimes it gets me to feel bad about not giving them cousins to play with in real life,but that only makes me more determined to make that a reality; some day.

Journal Entry: June 14,2016

Took a walk all the way up to Tarrytown and daydreamed that I was taking one of my kids as a baby with me in his or her little stroller or baby-carriage and then daydreamed about taking them to the park and playing baseball with them while I was listening to some music while I walked.

Journal Entry: June 13,2016

Took a walk around the area and stopped in the town diner for a snack and daydreamed that I was walking in there with my two little boys and my baby daughter; Carol Anne.

Journal Entry: June 12,2016

Took a walk all the way to Tarrytown today and while doing so,I not only thought about new scenes for the books that I'm working on,but I also daydreamed about a scene where I'm sitting on the couch with my infant daughter,Carol Anne,me in a T-shirt and jeans or pants,Carol Anne in a fuzzy, fleecy, thick,plush,one-piece,footed,blanket sleeper with a zipper-tab snapped shut,skid-resistant soles and bumper-toecaps and a vintage Sears Winnie-the-Pooh applique embroidered on the left-chest,napping on my chest.She has one thumb in her mouth and her other arm is lying to her side and from the angle that I'm looking at her,one of her chunky,chubby,baby-fat-laden cheeks is sticking out as she lays on her tummy and has her head tilted to one side as she peacefully sleeps on top of me.

Journal Entry: June 11,2016

Walked around the area for my workout regiment and once again daydreamed about having my own place,having sex with a hot chick in my own apartment,getting married and having children and all the things that I've been daydreaming about over the years.

Journal Entry: June 10,2016

Even though tomorrow's my younger sister's 32nd birthday,she comes over to the apartment this evening to celebrate and I daydream again about happier times and my hopes and dreams for the future,including celebrating the birth of one of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: June 9,2016

I watch Game 5 of the NHL Stanley Cup Finals and daydream this time about one of my sons playing in the NHL and helping his team win their first ever Stanley Cup title and hoisting the Stanley Cup over his head as he skates around the arena.

Journal Entry: June 7,2016

I take a walk around the area as part of my exercise regiment, and I daydream about better times than I've been having,from having a decent job earning a decent living,to being married and with kids or at least,having a place of my own to invite girls back to, to have sexual intercourse.

Journal Entry: June 5,2016

Another of my friends invites a group of guys over to their house to watch Game 2 of the NBA Finals and this time I daydream about one of my sons playing in the NBA and helping his team to their first NBA championship and his first of many championship rings.

Journal Entry: June 2,2016

One of my friends invites us to come over to his house to watch Game 1 of the NBA Finals and I daydream about my playing in the NBA and making the game-winning shot to help my team win their franchise first NBA title.

Journal Entry: May 30,2016

It's Memorial Day,so I feel that this is a perfect opportunity to memorialize my hopes and dreams for the future and what I thought that my life would be like by now. Therefore,I daydream about being married with 3 kids by now and what we might've been doing today if my predictions from over 20 years ago now had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: May 8,2016

It's Mother's Day 2016,and I daydream about being married and having children and seeing my children give my wife and therefore their mother, some presents like roses and such and of course, eventually I daydream about having children already in any event, with a whole host of situations.

Journal Entry: May 7,2016

Today's the day of my nephew Frankie's Holy Communion. This prompts me to daydream about having one of my kids having their first Holy Communion as well. Eventually, later that afternoon, I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and hang out there for the rest of the afternoon into the evening, reading the newspaper and at times daydreaming about future events.

Journal Entry: March 31,2016

I go with my father and younger sister to meet with a woman from this agency I'm working with to try to get services including vocational services with,called ARC of Westchester.We sign me up for a whole host of government-funded services under Medicaid and of course, this prompts me to daydream about a day when I have a decent-paying job and eventually my own place and being able to live a fruitful, independent life one day.

Journal Entry: March 27,2016

It's Easter Sunday 2016 today and my older sister drops off my niece and nephew at the house for a few hours. This prompts me to daydream about what my kids might or would look like in their little Easter outfits if they had since been born as I had predicted 20-25 years ago would happen by now. I also picture either myself,my wife,or our daughter,Carol Anne,being in an Easter Bunny costume or outfit on this holiday, maybe someday in the future.

Journal Entry: March 22,2016

It's the first day of spring and that means that the warmer weather is coming and so is baseball season. That prompts me to daydream about taking my kids to a baseball game one day.

Journal Entry: March 17,2016

It's St.Patrick's Day and therefore the famous parade is on TV. I watch it and as I watch, I see some bands with young kids in them marching down the street as well as shots of people with kids,some of whom are most definitely Irish just by looking at them. Since I myself am part Irish, it makes me daydream about having my own children at the parade, either marching in it or being one of the spectators on the street one day.

Journal Entry: March 6,2016

This was the day that I thought,over 20 years ago,that I'd not only be married with 3 children,but that my oldest would be 10 years old today. Therefore,I daydream what it might've been like if I was right and I had a 10 year old son named William,as well as a 5 year old son named Andrew and 1.5 year old daughter named Carol Anne,since my predictions for all 3 for their birth-dates was March 6,2006 (William), October 22,2010 (Andrew; just 3 weeks from when my real-life niece; Julianne, was born), and July 16,2014 (Carol Anne).

Journal Entry: February 14,2016

It's Valentine's Day,and a very cold one at that,so I daydream about taking my future wife out to dinner on future Valentine's Day,as well as daydream about my babies being in thermal long-johns and their thickest,heaviest blanket sleepers, keeping toasty and cozy-warm on the coldest of nights during their first few winters in the future.

Journal Entry: February 2,2016

It's Ground Hog's Day,which prompts me first to think about the famous movie with that name starring Bill Murray, and then I daydream more about the future and being married and having children.

Journal Entry: January 23,2016

We get the biggest snowstorm in ages today as parts of the area are buried under 2-3 FEET of snow, with Central Park getting very close to an all-time record snowfall,though some say that those early estimates are off by an inch or so. Anyway,this prompts me to daydream first about hefty snowfalls that we've had in the past including the famed Blizzard of 1996.Then,I daydream about future snowstorms and seeing my babies playing out in the snow in their little one-piece, footed snowsuits and then bringing them inside to have hot chocolate and then put them back into the fuzzy, fleecy, one-piece, footed, blanket sleeper pajamas and playing with them for the rest of the evening.

Journal Entry: January 14,2016

It's my 37th birthday today and once again,like 2 weeks ago,I reflect on my life and what I hope will be my future,daydreaming about future birthdays with my wife and kids around me and feeling blessed to have them all in my life.

Journal Entry: January 1,2016

It's New Year's Day,so once again,I daydream about the future; about getting a job,a girlfriend,getting married and having a family and daydream all about what that might entail.

Journal Entry: December 31,2015

It's New Year's Eve,as I go up to White Plains with my friends to celebrate the end of 2015 and the ringing in of 2016. Naturally,I daydream about having my girlfriend here and even more into the future,celebrating the ball drop with my wife and eventually our children and having a party with friends for it at our house or apartment in future years.

Journal Entry: December 25,2015

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I daydream about a future Christmas Day with my wife and children and seeing my kids eyes light-up at all the presents underneath the tree. I daydream about my kids being in footed sleepers,opening their presents and jumping around,all excited that Santa got them that one toy that they always wanted and now finally got.I daydream of seeing one of my kids as a baby,napping in front of the Christmas-tree with his or her blanket sleeper-clad and diaper-clad butt sticking up in the air, sucking on his or her thumb or pacifier as they sleep.

Journal Entry: December 24,2015

It's Christmas Eve,so I daydream about a future Christmas Eve with my wife and kids and my kids being excited that Santa Claus is coming to town tonight,but with it being the hottest Christmas Eve ever,it doesn't feel the same,so I daydream about a typically cold,snowy Christmas Eve in the future.

Journal Entry: November 26,2015

It's Thanksgiving so I daydream about having a Thanksgiving dinner with my future wife and kids and the kids watching the traditional Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade.

Journal Entry: October 31,2015

Today's Halloween and as I walk around town,they close down the two main streets in town and let everyone walk around in costumes and take their kids trick-or-treating through the town. Of course, seeing all the little kids in their cute Halloween costumes make me daydream about the future and my kids getting dressed in the same cute, little costumes when they're little as some of the kids walking around with their parents this evening. Also,when I see my niece and nephew for about an hour that evening,in their costumes,I also daydream about my own kids being in Halloween costumes one day.

Journal Entry: October 30,2015

Tomorrow's Halloween 2015 and being a Saturday,me and my friends are going to be wearing costumes to the bars in White Plains, so I daydream about wearing the costume I am thinking of wearing; as a big baby,wearing my feetsie pajamas as part of the costume along with the big bottle and pacifier I also bought earlier this week.

Journal Entry: October 29,2015

I have an appointment with a jobs counselor with the organization called ACCES-VR and I talk to her about my career goals and she sounds really upbeat about my chances for success. This prompts me to daydream about achieving said career goals and eventually my personal goals of getting married and having children as well.

Journal Entry: October 28,2015

Aunt Cathy and Uncle Richard who are visiting for a wedding end up staying at our place last night. Just before she leaves with my uncle to go back to their hotel before leaving for home on Thursday, my aunt invites me to come visit her and my uncle in Arizona so I daydream about what it might be like to visit where they live for a couple of weeks like me and my friends visited Florida for a couple of weeks earlier this month.

Journal Entry: October 27,2015

I go to White Plains for an interview for a position at the company Panera Bread; my first interview since just before I went to work for my last company; Rembar. I then daydream about getting a job and getting back to achieving my future goals of my own place and eventually having a family.Also,my Aunt Cathy and Uncle Richard (Richie), from Arizona are here for a visit due to a wedding so I daydream about seeing them again and catching up on things with them.

Journal Entry: October 24,2015

It's exactly one week before the pagan holiday of Halloween and I daydream about taking my future children around town in their costumes trick-or-treating as well as myself walking around in costumes for costume-parties and the like that I might attend in the future.

Journal Entry: October 21,2015

It's the day dubbed by social media as "Back to the Future" day since this is the date in the sequel where the main characters go to the "future", to stop one of the main characters from being talked into committing a crime with neighborhood thugs, so I daydream about what it might be like to time-travel back-and-forth between the future and the past like the characters in the "Back to the Future" trilogy.

Journal Entry: October 18-19,2015

Though I dream of many things tonight,one dream that stands out is another one where I'm out and about wearing my footsie pajamas. One is when I'm at the town library,reading books and magazines and wearing my royal blue,sherpa, adult-sized blanket sleeper pajamas (I'm wearing them in reality as it's the coldest night since early-to-mid April tonight). I then leave the library and in my footsie pajamas and am surprised that no one seems to notice that I'm outside walking around town in my footsie pajamas. In another dream,I'm wearing these pink bunny footies that I had owned for a time and wore to work one Halloween for a costume, but this time I'm at home and walking around and usually my folks would comment about my wearing these but in this dream they don't and act like I'm wearing just regular clothes

Journal Entry: October 17,2015

I arrive home by 12:30AM, unpack my stuff and by 1:10AM I go to bed. Then, later in the day,I daydream about getting a job soon and meeting women and making a family as I start getting back to my normal life and thinking about my hopes and dreams for the future.

Journal Entry: October 16,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I went back to New York today as we got up by 4AM and were on the road by 4:45AM. We didn't get back to New York until shortly before 12AM some 18.5 hours later. During the long journey,I daydream about taking a long road-trip with my future wife and children and all the things that could happen on such a journey

Journal Entry: October 14,2015

This time,Jimmy,Anthony and I go to Daytona Beach and get there by 3PM,after leaving at 11AM (we would've gotten there 2 hours earlier if we weren't going around in circles thanks to the crummy directions people keep giving us to get to the beach). We then leave at 7PM,stop somewhere for dinner at 9PM,and get back to the condo by 10PM. All the time,I daydream about taking my future family to the beach during a family vacation one day in the future

Journal Entry: October 12,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I go back to Universal Studios theme park and go on some more rides so once again I daydream about taking my kids to this park and going on these same rides that me, Jimmy and Anthony go on today

Journal Entry: October 11,2015

Today,Jimmy,Anthony and I stay at the condo and watch football games all day and I daydream about watching football with my future sons.

Journal Entry: October 9,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I went back to Disney World and went to Epcot Center. While there, I daydreamed about taking my kids here in the future and some of the rides that they might want to get on while at the park here.

Journal Entry: October 7,2015

Jimmy,Ant and me go to Universal Studios for the first time and we go on some rides and meet some of the superhero characters like Spiderman; Jimmy's favorite. We get several pictures of us with the characters and of course I daydream about taking my kids,particularly my sons here and their meeting their favorite superheroes here one day.

Journal Entry: October 5,2015

Jimmy,Ant,and me go to Disney World for the first time today and I daydream all day about taking my children here in the future and all the fun they'll have; meeting their favorite characters and the like.

Journal Entry: October 4,2015

Me,Jimmy and Anthony go to a football game in which one of the teams playing is Jimmy's favorite NFL team; the Carolina Panthers won by Jimmy's team so obviously he's thrilled. Meanwhile, I just daydream about taking my future children; hopefully at least one or two of whom will be sons, to some football games including ones played by the area's NFL teams; the Jets and Giants.

Journal Entry: October 3,2015

Today's our first full day in Florida and we mostly just do some souvenir shopping and I daydream about all the great souvenirs I'm planning on buying and how everyone's going to react to their gifts that I get them.

Journal Entry: October 2,2015

We finally arrive in Florida and to Anthony's family's condo. We arrive at 1PM and then take naps until around 6PM. Then we go out to eat and buy some groceries for the week. I daydream about what we're going to be doing on our 2-week vacation.

Journal Entry: October 1,2015

Today's the day me and my friends; Jimmy and Anthony leave for our vacation to Florida so I daydream about what it might be like when we get there.

Journal Entry: September 29-30,2015

Tonight I dream first about my trip to Florida with Anthony and Jimmy tomorrow in which we are in Anthony's car and trying to get by some rush-hour traffic in,say the nation's capital or somewhere in Maryland or Virginia. Second,I have a dream about being in the town cafe wearing my Winnie-the-Pooh adult-sized blanket sleeper pajamas when I realize that I'm in my footsie pajamas and it's like 1PM in the afternoon and I'm out walking around in my Doctor Denton's. Strangely,no one in the dream seems to even notice what I'm wearing.

Journal Entry: September 27,2015

I start packing for my 2-week trip to Florida with my friends Anthony and Jimmy today and I promptly daydream about all the fun,neat things we're going to do on this vacation/trip; my very first to the Sunshine State.

Journal Entry: September 26,2015

Today's the day of the town festival where they close down the 2 main roads in town and the business in town show off their wears to the visitors to the festival and I daydream of one day taking my girlfriend,wife,and eventually children to future town festivals like this one.

Journal Entry: September 25,2015

I have to go back up to my new doctor's office in White Plains to sign the release forms for my records from my physical a week ago yesterday. I daydream about the future some more and maybe about future doctor visits and maybe even later on,taking my own babies to get check-ups from their pediatricians in the future.

Journal Entry: September 24,2015

Today's my first visit with my new counselor from the WJCS and I meet with her and talk about my background and my past and what I want to get out of the services that this new counselor provides her clients and I daydream about eventually getting my own place and being an independent person and not relying on my now elderly parents for the rest of their lives if not the rest of mine.Tonight me and my friend Anthony go to our friend Joe's house to watch the football game tonight and I daydream about watching football with my future sons one day.

Journal Entry: September 23,2015

It's the first day of the 2015 autumn season today and today I have to go to the VESID/ACCES-VR orientation today as they will eventually transfer me to the ARC of Westchester where they will help me find jobs. I daydream about this process being completed and about getting a decent job and making a decent living and achieving all I want out of life.

Journal Entry: September 22,2015

It's the last day of the 2015 summer season so I daydream about the cooler weather and all the other stuff I love about autumn to come.

Journal Entry: September 19,2015

I hang out with my friends,Anthony and John and one of the things we talk about is about our trip to Florida in 12 more days and therefore I daydream about going on this trip and the long road trip that we're taking to go down there in a little under a couple more weeks.

Journal Entry: September 17,2015

Today I went to see my new doctor; Dr. Giampietro and have my first physical in over a year today and I daydream about getting this done and eventually signing up for those organizations that help people like me affected by autism,get jobs and such.

Journal Entry: September 18,2015

It's my older sister's 40th birthday and she comes over for an hour with my niece and nephew and I play with them and I daydream of having my own children one day and their running around with my niece and nephew and what it might've been like if I already had kids for my little niece and nephew to play with already,while they're still young.

Journal Entry: September 16,2015

It's mid-September and exactly 100 days to go before Christmas of 2015, so I daydream about future Christmases with my girlfriend,then my wife and then my children.

Journal Entry: September 15,2015

It's officially mid-September and a week from tomorrow autumn will officially begin so I daydream about cooler days to come,the changing color of the leaves,the holidays and all the other promises of autumn, though it feels more like mid-summer than almost autumn with the unseasonable warmth out there today and it's only to get warmer/hotter from here over the next 2 or 3 days,making everyone think more of the beach and getting a tan than raking leaves and tossing the football around.

Journal Entry: September 13,2015

Today's the first day of the 2015 NFL season so I daydream about tossing the football around with my still fictional sons and taking them out to the park for a game of catch and eventually seeing them play little league or high school football one day.

Journal Entry: September 11,2015

Today's the 14-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon and instead of daydreaming about pleasant things,I think about what I was doing that day 14 years ago and what might horrific event might happen to this city and this country 10-15 years from now thanks to the feckless cowards in Congress approving this reckless Iranian nuke deal recently and though I try to think of more positive things,today it's not that easy. 

Journal Entry: September 8,2015

It's the hottest day of 2015 as it hits 90 degrees by 10AM and is 95 degrees by 2PM when I leave to go to the pool. I stay there all day and daydream about my future hopes and dreams including getting married and having children of my own.

Journal Entry: September 7,2015

It's Labor Day 2015 but with it being so warm out today,I go right to the pool and swim my laps.Of course,I daydream about teaching my little kids in the future how to swim and seeing them swim around and play games and of course I also think about what I'm going to write about in my latest novel that I'm working on,as well.

Journal Entry: September 6,2015

I go to the pool in town and find out that;due to the upcoming heatwave, they are keeping the pool open a couple more days through September 9. Also today,John comes to the pool and we hang out there and naturally I daydream about future especially when John and I talk about my ongoing hunt for a job and his Mom helping out by checking my resume and editing it for me.

Journal Entry: September 5,2015

Tonight I hang out with Anthony,John,and Jimmy and his girlfriend and sister Janine. Of course, seeing Jimmy with his girlfriend prompts me to daydream about having a girlfriend one day as well.

Journal Entry: September 3,2015

Today's my latest visit with Dr. Grossman from WJCS and after talking with her,and her telling me about this other doctor who is going to work with me about some of the issues we discussed particularly with my issues of needing greater independence in my life. Therefore,I daydream about getting my own place one day and being able to cook for myself and clean my own apartment and such.

Journal Entry: August 30,2015

Me,Anthony and John all go into the city today and we first stop at Battery Park and eat lunch at a restaurant there. Then, we go to walk around Manhattan and we walk the Brooklyn Bridge and then we go to Times Square before going home. I daydream about possibly working in the city or meeting some babe off Eharmony.com who lives in the city and us going around the city on dates and later maybe making a family day of it with my wife and kids as well.

Journal Entry: August 29,2015

Anthony,John and I decide to forget the beach for tomorrow and go to the city to do some sightseeing instead,so I daydream about some of the things that we might do in the city tomorrow.

Journal Entry: August 27,2015

Today's my latest visit with Dr. Grossman at WJCS and then later this evening,I meet with Anthony and John and we go to the Starbucks here in Dobbs Ferry and we sit and talk about what we're doing this weekend and about my job hunt and other issues. I then come back and start researching some organizations including ARC of Westchester and Autism Speaks and trying to sign up for more services including vocational services. I daydream about all of this coming together and my getting a job and my own place and achieving other goals that are still just a dream for the future.

Journal Entry: August 22,2015

Anthony,John and I meet up and we all go to White Plains to hang out and discuss what we're going to do for next weekend. We decide to reduce it from the whole weekend of August 29-30 to just that Sunday and that we just go to the beach out in Long Beach. I daydream about that and maybe meeting some girl I met on Eharmony.com that lives out there, until she tells me that she's not going to be around that weekend anyway.

Journal Entry: August 18,2015

Today's my second meeting with Dr. Pat Grossman at WJCS and we go over some more of my goals for therapy including about my goals to get employed again. I daydream about these goals coming to fruition and what I'd like my life to look like 5,10,15 years down the road,in the year 2020,2025, 2030,etc.........

Journal Entry: August 16,2015

Today would be the day that my third born;Carol Anne would be 13 months old if I had been correct about my predictions of this from over 20 years ago,so naturally I daydream about what life might be like right now if those silly,crazy,uneducated predictions from when I was 13 or 14 back in 1992 or 1993 had actually come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 11,2015

Today I had to go up to my old high school;Stepinac because of records from there needed for the programs that my younger sister, Linda's trying to sign me up for,so naturally not only do I daydream about the future,but also past experiences during my high-school years. 

Journal Entry: August 9,2015

Me,Anthony and John all go to Orchard Beach in Rye today and once again I daydream about me and my future wife going out to the beach with the kids and watching the kids play in the sand and in the water, splashing all about and learning to swim and such.

Journal Entry: August 6,2015

I hang out with my friends Anthony and John and we meet at the Cross County mall in Yonkers and we catch up on things. John says that he wants to go to Long Beach out on Long Island and he wants to do it during the weekend of August 28-30. I daydream about being out there and seeing all the beautiful women in the skimpy bikinis and getting with one of them; getting their number, going out on dates and eventually getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: August 5,2015

I meet with Dr. Pat Grossman; a psychiatrist with the WJCS of Westchester to discuss my unemployment situation and my dealing with my autism and Asperger's diagnosis. I daydream about the future again and what I want to have accomplished,not just with getting back to being employed but also being a more independent person and one day having a family of my own. 

Journal Entry: July 31,2015

For baseball fans everywhere,this is the day of the Trade Deadline so naturally I daydream about taking my kids to some baseball games. I also daydream about seeing them play little league baseball to seeing them play Major League Baseball once they become big and other baseball related things.

Journal Entry: July 28,2015

At various times today I daydream about the future,from daydreaming about taking my future kids camping,to taking them to the carnival or the circus, to taking them to the zoo, to going to see a movie and other things parents take their kids to do during the hot summer months.

Journal Entry: July 25,2015

I go to the pool again today and once again I daydream about my future children learning to swim and playing pool games together, splashing all about and doing other fun things during the summer.

Journal Entry: July 22,2015

Today's the day I go to the Elmsford office of the Social Security office of Westchester/New York State for an appointment to sign up for some Social Security benefits. Naturally, I daydream about being approved for these benefits especially when the lady assigned to my case signs an application for me for SSDI.

Journal Entry: July 16,2015

It's the day that I thought,over 20 years ago,I'd be celebrating my third child; Carol Anne's first birthday, so naturally I daydream about that actually happening and my dreams from 20+ years ago coming true. My wife and I watch her open presents, watch her blow out the candles on her cake and all the usual things parents do on their baby son or daughter's first birthday, as well as daydreaming about all my future children's first birthdays.

Journal Entry: July 10,2015

I go to Jones Beach with Anthony today and we get there by 3PM and leave for home by 5:30PM. While there, I daydream about my future wife and I taking our babies to the beach and playing with them in the sand as I show them how to build a sand-castle and later, I daydream about taking the kids into the water and see them splashing all about.

Journal Entry: July 9,2015

Today I hang out with my buddy Anthony and we go to the Palisades Mall in Nanuet on a rainy,cool early summer afternoon.As we're there,I daydream about my future wife and I walking around a local mall with our children while they're babies pushing them in their strollers. 

Journal Entry: July 6,2015

I go to the pool in town and swim some laps. As I do so, I daydream about my future children swimming around in the pool, as well as my teaching them how to swim when they're real little.

Journal Entry: July 4,2015

It's Independence Day aka the Fourth of July. This evening,I go down to the waterfront in town to watch the fireworks. I daydream about my having children and seeing the fireworks with them and how in awe they are of the fireworks and all the pretty colors that they make as they explode in the sky. I also daydream about barbecues and the like throughout the day.

Journal Entry: June 30,2015

It's the end of another month and we're really into the 2015 summer season so I daydream about trips to the beach,and other summer destinations that I may go to in the future.

Journal Entry: June 25,2015

My unemployment is about to run out in another week and I daydream about getting on some sort of government assistance and if not,getting a new job through that autism organization that my younger sister, Linda, is trying to get me signed up for, but they've been giving us problems,asking for all of these documents to prove that I have autism including records from my high school,Archbishop Stepinac and my most updated medical records.

Journal Entry: June 21,2015

It's Father's Day,so naturally I daydream about becoming a father myself one day. Of course,it's also the first day of the 2015 summer season and once again I daydream about taking my kids to the beach or taking my sons to a baseball game and the like.

Journal Entry: June 15,2015

It's already the middle of June and summer's only a week from starting so once again I daydream of summer vacations at the beach, on tropical islands and the like.

Journal Entry: June 11,2015

Today's my younger sister, Linda's 31st birthday and again I daydream about me and my sister giving my niece and nephew cousins to play with one day and future family get-togethers.

Journal Entry: June 10,2015

I have the last visit to the Department of Labor up in White Plains to evaluate my job searching and eventually I daydream about getting a better job and maybe meeting my next girlfriend at that job and then eventually getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: June 5,2015

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and daydream about the future again, especially when I see couples with young children coming into the store.

Journal Entry: June 1,2015

Summer's almost here. I daydream about the future as I take advantage of the beautiful weather out there today, from getting a new job,to eventually getting my own place,to going on dates and eventually having a family one day.

Journal Entry: May 25,2015

It's Memorial Day,the unofficial start of summer so naturally I daydream about vacations to all sorts of tropical islands and taking my future wife and kids to the beach on a hot summer's day.

Journal Entry: May 22,2015

Today's the day the remake to my favorite horror movie growing up, Poltergeist, hits theaters, so naturally I go up to White Plains to the City Center's theater on the top floor and see the 7PM showing of the movie. I meet with my friend,Anthony in Wal-Mart just before I go see the movie. Naturally, I daydream about my future children since I get the name for my daughter, Carol Anne, from the 1982 original movie. Obviously they upgrade the story a little and though the movie has its moments of jump-scares and scariness and gore,the original still was better as usually is the case with originals compared to remakes/reboots. I just relish the fact that I finally got to see a Poltergeist movie in theaters after missing out on the original trilogy because they were all in the 1980's (1982, 1986 and 1988), when I was too young to be going to the movies to see such fare.

Journal Entry: May 16,2015

Today's my friend Jimmy and his twin sister, Janine's birthday but Jimmy doesn't come out with us, but Janine and some of her friends do and we all meet up at the bar and restaurant Rory Dolan's in Yonkers. I daydream about the future some more, particularly during the day when I take a walk around the area to get some exercise and think about things.

Journal Entry: May 10,2015

It's Mother's Day 2015 so I daydream about making one of those girls I've been chatting with on those online dating web-sites my wife and eventually a Mommy one day herself.

Journal Entry: May 5,2015

It's Cinco de Mayo, but it's still taking its sweet time warming up out there. I daydream about the future some more as I take a walk around the area on a nice, mild mid-spring afternoon.

Journal Entry: May 1,2015

New month starts today and still waiting for it to feel more like spring than winter. Anyway,I daydream about the usual stuff as I wait for everything to work it's way out.

Journal Entry: April 27,2015

Man, now this is getting ridiculous. It snowed today but only for a few minutes,but man,it's almost May and it's still cold enough to snow? When is it ever going to finally warm up? Well, I daydream about seeing my kids get excited about snow even at this late time of the year and with baseball season now in full swing,I also daydream about them playing baseball,maybe even for the New York Yankees one day when they get big.

Journal Entry: April 22,2015

I have to go back to the Department of Labor for another evaluation today. This is my second and there should be one more either next month or in June before I'm kicked off unemployment. Once again I daydream of having a job,one day getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: April 21,2015

Today's my Dad's 71st birthday and I daydream about him one day meeting his grandkids from me and that I get to have children before he dies. I just hope that,in real life,I'm not too late already,not even having a girlfriend or even a job to support myself at this point.

Journal Entry: April 5,2015

It's been exactly 3 months since I lost my job at Rembar and therefore I'm already halfway between getting on unemployment and being kicked off it. I would be trying harder to get a job but fortunately I've been working with my sister to get me signed up for some programs that help those with autism find work. I'm starting to accept the fact that I have this "disorder", though I've always known that I need help in terms of finding gainful employment, making friends and the like. Anyway, I continue to daydream about better days to come.

Journal Entry: April 1,2015

It's a new month but it still feels more closer to still being winter than the spring but being how brutally cold this winter was, I'm not surprised by this. Of course, I daydream about warmer days ahead and the usual stuff since I've been employed going on 3 months now.

Journal Entry: March 9,2015

I go down to the city with my sister,Linda,for the first day of tests to get me diagnosed with autism so that I can sign up for services that'll hopefully,one day,get me a full-time career job among other things,and of course,this makes me daydream about getting a new job and one day getting my own place and moving on up in the world and achieving my ultimate dreams for the future.

Journal Entry: March 27,2015

Another trip up to Starbucks in Ardsley and once again I daydream about the future and about my having children and of course, with my being unemployed for going on 3 months,having a job one day and hopefully getting my life together someday soon,I hope.

Journal Entry: March 20,2015

It's the first day of spring yet it feels like winter. We even get a few inches of snow today. Man,can't wait for spring. This winter's been the pits. Of course,this makes me daydream of warmer weather that's hopefully just around the corner.

Journal Entry: March 15,2015

Today's my buddy Ant's birthday and we go to Medieval Times in New Jersey and that makes me daydream about what it might've been like living in that time and how lucky I am to be living in the 21st Century instead of the 14th or 15th during the medieval period.Of course this also reminds me of our trip to Atlantic City for Anthony's birthday last year and daydream about the fun we had and about future vacations me and my friends might take in the future.

Journal Entry: March 6,2015

Today's the day that,if my predictions of the future from say 1993 or 1994 were correct,my firstborn would've turned 9 years old today,so naturally I daydream about what would've happened if I had been correct with that prediction,watching my son open his presents with my wife,little Andrew and baby Carol Anne watching and then we'd have his cake for dessert.

Journal Entry: February 28,2015

Finally,February's over and it's been a brutally cold month. It makes me daydream of warmer days to come and seeing the flowers bloom and the leaves come back in the trees and seeing all this damn snow finally melt,but it's still not as bad as it's been up in Boston. They may never get rid of all that snow that's been dumped on them this year.

Journal Entry: February 20,2015

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and sit there to read and daydream about the future and particularly when I see parents with young children they make me daydream about having some of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: February 14,2015

It's Valentine's Day 2015 so I daydream about going out on dates and meeting women and eventually my future wife and having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 7,2015

It's a frigid,cold day so I stay home and watch some DVD's and of course I daydream about my children all bundled-up in their long-johns and footed blanket sleepers playing together in one of their bedrooms trying to keep themselves occupied on such a frigid-cold afternoon.

Journal Entry: February 4,2015

I have to go up to the White Plains Department of Labor for the first appointment with them where they give me some leads for jobs and inform me to fill out a chart with all of my job applications listed. I daydream about getting one of these jobs and then eventually meeting my future wife there and eventually having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 2,2015

It's Ground Hog's Day and getting close to being a whole month since I got laid off from Rembar. Once again I daydream about future winters with my children, getting them bundled-up in their snowsuits and their long-johns and putting them in their fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers at night, all of them looking like cute, little living teddy-bears with human heads in those garments.

Journal Entry: February 1,2015

It's Super Bowl Sunday,New England versus Seattle. I go to my friend Anthony's house for his Super Bowl party and all of us are disappointed when Brady and the Patriots win their first Super Bowl since Super Bowl XXXIX (39), back in 2005 exactly 10 years ago. I still daydream about future Super Bowl parties and watching the Super Bowl with my children and hopefully having the Giants in the Super Bowl while my children are still young children and them getting excited when the Giants win the thing (probably by Super Bowl 60-something,Super Bowl LXIII [63], or something, at this point).

Journal Entry: January 28,2015

Historic blizzard ends up being a big bust at least for us here in the NYC area,but New England and Boston in particular get slammed with up to 3 FEET of snow. We get "only" 8 or 9 inches,not the 2 feet or more that the doomsayers predicted back on Sunday and Monday. Still,I daydream about my future children playing out in the snow and running around and having fun.

Journal Entry: January 25,2015

Today's my mother's birthday but the bigger news is the massive,historic blizzard that they are predicting to hit us starting tomorrow afternoon. This,therefore prompts me to daydream about my future children running around and playing in the snow and building snowmen and having snowball fights and then coming inside to have hot chocolate to warm themselves up.

Journal Entry: January 14,2015

Today's my 36th birthday and first since I got laid off from Rembar a week ago this past Monday,so I'm not much in a dreaming-of-the-future mood except for dreaming about getting a new job and getting back to making money.

Journal Entry: January 10,2015

I hang out with my friends for the first time since I got laid off from Rembar and inform all of them present that I got laid off and am currently unemployed. I have since signed up for unemployment insurance and Linda is working to get me some medical coverage most likely with Medicaid. It is still hard to daydream about anything positive despite my best efforts to try to think positively and dream about a future with a wife and children and a nice house in the suburbs.

Journal Entry: January 5,2015

Today my boss calls me into the office and informs me that I'm being laid off; a devastating blow for me in so many ways. This definitely puts a crimp in any future plans for this year and the foreseeable future including us going away to Cabo San Lucas this year. Naturally, I'm upset and I call my parents to inform them of the bad news and eventually my sister, Linda, is also informed since it was her working with her friend, Doug, to get me into Rembar. I eventually tell my friends too, but mostly just keep it to Anthony for now. 

Journal Entry: January 3,2015

Tonight I hang out with my friends, Anthony and John and we talk about going away for Anthony's birthday this year in mid-March and maybe going to Cabo San Lucas in Mexico for it or for one of our summer vacations later this year so naturally I fantasize about going around the world with my friends and maybe my future wife at various points in our lives together.

Journal Entry: January 1,2015

First entry of 2015 and as usual,I fantasize about the future and my hopes and dreams for it no matter how much things aren't looking too promising for those dreams to come true with my dead-end job and my struggles with online dating at the moment.

Journal Entry: December 31,2014

New Year's Eve,the last day of 2014 and therefore the last entry for this year. I end up meeting my buddies and watching the ball drop in White Plains and I fantasize about future New Year's Eves including any parties that me and my future/fictional wife might go to in the future or us going to see the ball-drop in Times Square one year.

Journal Entry: December 25,2014

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I fantasize about seeing the joy in little William, little Andrew and little Caroline or Carol Anne's eyes when they get all those wonderful presents that they asked Santa for, seeing them in their footed blanket sleeper jumping around when they get that present that they claim that they always wanted as well as the disappointment when the toy they thought that they were about to open was actually a pair of socks or underwear, instead. I also fantasize about future Christmases with snow on the ground and/or falling from the sky adding to the beauty and festivities of the holiday season. 

Journal Entry: December 24,2014

It's Christmas Eve so I fantasize about future Christmas Eves. I fantasize about putting the Christmas-tree up and having the kids help us decorate. I fantasize about getting the kids dressed in their best clothes and showing them off for Christmas Eve Mass at the local church. I daydream about seeing the excitement in my kids' eyes later that night and especially tomorrow morning when Santa brings them all of those toys and how happy they get when they get their dollies and scooters and I-pads and video games and get upset and toss their underwear, socks, pajamas, and other "boring" presents to the side as well.

Journal Entry: December 22,2014

First day of the 2014-15 winter season and I fantasize about future winters of me and my future wife taking the kids out, bundled-up in the thickest, fuzziest snowsuits and let them play in the snow. Of course, with Christmas coming in a few days, I also fantasize about how excited the kids get when informed of Santa's impending arrival and how my wife and I might use the usual threat of coal in their stockings to get the kids to comply to our bidding to take their bathes or eat all their vegetables or to put their toys away and hop into bed and the like.

Journal Entry: November 28,2014

Today's Black Friday 2014 so I fantasize about me and my future wife rushing around to get all the presents for the kids, fantasizing about one year we sit outside waiting for the 4AM door-buster deals to start, camped out with the kids in bulky, down snowsuits over fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers, bundled-up-to-the-nines waiting out in the freezing-cold for the stores to open and then us rushing around to get everything that we want,fighting the crowds for every last morsel.

Journal Entry: November 27,2014

Today's Thanksgiving 2014 so I fantasize about future Thanksgivings, about my sons and/or daughters eating their first turkey dinners and watching the annual parade on TV and then the annual football games that are on as well and my little ones getting excited when they see Santa Claus coming down the street at the end of the parade.

Journal Entry: November 16,2014

Today's my niece, Julianne's fourth birthday,so like on Frankie's birthday last month, I fantasize about the future birth of my children and future birthday-parties where everyone gathers at one or another's house and we all have a good time.

Journal Entry: November 15,2014

Today was supposed to be my sister Linda's wedding-day but due to her and her fiance breaking off the wedding, I fantasize about meeting my future wife and some of the places we might go for our honeymoon. Naturally, eventually, I fantasize about all the future events I hope to see,including the birth of my future children. 

Journal Entry: October 31,2014

Today's Halloween and after work I run into both of my sisters walking around with my niece and nephew in their costumes and I daydream about future Halloweens seeing my future children walking around in their own costumes. I picture them as babies wearing some cute, one-piece, footed costumes that they make for babies to seeing my kids in the traditional costumes like vampires, witches, angels, devils, superheroes and costumes that are popular today like zombies.

Journal Entry: October 8,2014

Today's my nephew Frankie's sixth birthday,so I daydream about future birthday-parties that my own children might have and all future birthdays in which our kids and my niece and nephew get to run around and play similarly to how me and my sisters and cousins would come visit each others' houses for birthdays when we were all growing up in the 1970's and 1980's and into the early 1990's.

Journal Entry: Septenber 23,2014

First day of the 2014 autumn season so I start daydreaming about throwing and tossing the football around with my fictional sons; William and Andrew and then I fantasize about them growing up to be NFL football players.

Journal Entry: September 13,2014

Today's our date,so I meet with Jennifer at Half Moon Restaurant by 7PM this evening.Beforehand,I daydream about how the date will go.After the date,I come back,and daydream about my second date with Jennifer and about future dates with her,yet I'll continue to leave my options open until I feel that I'm ready to pick my next girlfriend and focus on our relationship.

Journal Entry: September 11,2014

It's the 13-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon,so my daydreams today aren't about the future,but about the past,about what I was doing on this date 13 years ago and how my life,and the life of this country has changed since then.

Journal Entry: September 7,2014

I go for a walk,leaving at 11AM,and eventually walk all the way to Sleepy Hollow and Philipsburg Manor,getting there by 1:15PM. I turn around at around 1:30PM, get back to Tarrytown by 2:30PM, to Irvington by 3:15PM, and back to town at around 4PM and go home by 5PM,all the time daydreaming about my date with Jennifer,yet keeping my options open for other girls I've been messaging from EHarmony.com, mostly.

Journal Entry: September 3,2014

I've dropped Elizabeth because I haven't heard from her in several days now,so it's just me and Jennifer for next Saturday's date,so I start daydreaming about that.

Journal Entry: August 31,2014

I daydream about my dates with Jennifer and Elizabeth and meeting other girls through Eharmony.com. I also dream of asking one of them to be my date for my younger sister, Linda's wedding on November 15,and dancing with them on the dance-floor,and making out with them and losing my virginity upstairs in the hotel later that evening.

Journal Entry: August 30,2014

I arrange to meet a girl named Jennifer on September 13,and another named Elizabeth 2 weeks later on September 27,so now I daydream about my dates with both of them.

Journal Entry: August 29,2014

Get message from Kathleen telling me that it's over,that she doesn't have time for a relationship with me,but I still daydream about going out with other girls I've been recently sending messages to on Eharmony.com despite this crushing blow.

Journal Entry: August 23,2014

I hang out with my friends at one of the bars in White Plains this evening,and I talk about my date with Kathleen with them and we talk about what I need to do next to keep this relationship going and I daydream about going on dates with Kathleen based on what me and my friends discussed this evening.

Journal Entry: August 22,2014

I go out on my first date with Kathleen,from okcupid.com. We eat at the town diner for dinner this evening,and then we leave.Afterwards,I daydream about our next date and having a relationship and eventually marrying and having a family with this Kathleen women, especially after we agreed to see each other again in a couple of weeks.

Journal Entry: August 20,2014

I talk on the phone for the first time with the girl I met on okcupid.com recently,named Kathleen.We talk for about 5-10 minutes,but afterwards,I daydream about our first date set for Friday.

Journal Entry: August 16,2014

It's been exactly one month since my little baby girl, Carol Anne, was supposed to have been born,so I daydream about what my life might've been like if those predictions of mine (of being married with now three kids), from my teen years, over 20 years ago now, had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 10,2014

Second day in Jersey Shore with my buddies.We go to the beach today and I daydream about going to beach with girls I've met through online dating and doing other exciting things with them in the future.I also daydream about going to the beach with my future family and my children playing in the sand and in the water on a trip to the beach with them and their Mommy one day.

Journal Entry: August 9,2014

I go down to the Jersey Shore with my buddies Jimmy,John,and Anthony,and I daydream about going on vacation with one of the girls I've met through online dating so far.

Journal Entry: August 6,2014

I daydream about inviting Kathleen to my sister, Linda's wedding and our dancing to the music they play at the reception,and about our own wedding,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 5,2014

Kathleen and I settle on August 22,2014 as the day of our meeting and I daydream about what's going to happen on our first date,and then from subsequent dates.

Journal Entry: August 4,2014

I go back to work today after taking a week off.Later on,I get an email from girl I met not on Eharmony.com but from OkCupid.com,named Kathleen,and she asks me if we can meet one day on a Friday so I daydream about what might happen on our first date and about our relationship only blossoming from there.

Journal Entry: July 31,2014

On this,my fourth day of vacation,I hang out with my friend, Anthony, going to the Palisades Mall in Rockland County.As I walk around town earlier in the day,I see some women pushing strollers with babies inside,prompting me to daydream about my future wife and I doing the same thing one day.

Missing Journal Entry: November 28,2013

It's Thanksgiving,and family comes over and I daydream about having Thanksgiving dinner with a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: July 30,2014

On the third official day of my vacation from work,I again take a walk around town,and up to Irvington,daydreaming about meeting those girls from the Internet,going on vacations to Bermuda and other tropical islands with them,and eventually going on a honeymoon with the one I end up having a deep relationship with and eventually marrying.

Journal Entry: July 29,2014

On my second official day of vacation,I take a walk around town and daydream about the future, including getting married and having a family

Journal Entry: July 28,2014

Today's the first official day of my vacation,so I daydream about flying to some tropical island with some hottie I've met online recently and having sex on the beach.

Journal Entry: July 25,2014

I daydream about meeting the few girls that I'm talking,now on phone and emails with from Eharmony.com and going out with them and asking one of them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: July 24,2014

I take a walk after dinner this evening and see some young couples pushing their babies and toddlers in strollers and baby-carriages and it prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls from Eharmony.com and having children with them, pushing our own babies in strollers and such as we go on walks around the area like these young families were doing this evening.

Journal Entry: July 23,2014

I talked with some of the girls that I've met from Eharmony.com and I daydream about meeting them one day soon and inviting them to my younger sister's wedding and our dancing together to slow, romantic songs, kissing and making out all evening.

Journal Entry: July 19,2014

Two of my friends and I go down to the city for the day,and I daydream about meeting some of the girls that I've met on dating sites that live in the city and going on dates with them.

Journal Entry: July 18,2014

I daydream about what it might've been like if my predictions of having a wife and 3 kids by now would be like,and about how me and my first 2 kids go to visit their Mom and 2-day old baby sister in the hospital this afternoon.

Journal Entry: July 17,2014

Get another email from woman on dating web-site and once again I daydream about meeting girls from dating web-sites and asking them for a date to my younger sister's wedding in November

Journal Entry: July 16,2014

It's the day that I predicted that my third child would be born on,back when I was a naive teenager in the 1990's unaware of future consequences that would make me still very much single and still living with my parents at 35 years old,at this time,so I daydream about what would happen if my prediction had come true and I daydream about rushing my wife to the hospital,about the birth of our little girl, Carol Anne,and about everyone in our families, including my parents, my sisters,and their husbands (both current and soon-to-be), my two (now fictional) sons, and my niece and nephew coming to meet their baby niece,sister,cousin,and granddaughter, Carol Anne, during the course of the day.

Journal Entry: July 15,2014

I daydream about meeting more of those girls/women from Eharmoney.com,especially as one of them emails me explaining that she'll email me and tell me more about herself tomorrow.I also daydream, especially by night-fall, what I might be doing if I had been correct,all those years ago,in my predictions that by this time,I'd be married, already have two kids (both boys), and a third on the way to be born tomorrow,including racing around to be sure to be ready if my (of course fictional), wife was to go into labor tonight.

Journal Entry: July 14,2014

I get some more responses from women I've messaged from Eharmoney.com and this prompts me to daydream not only meeting these women, but possibly asked them to be my date for my younger sister's November wedding,and with my folks informing me that we'll be staying at the hotel that they had arranged to host my younger sister's wedding reception,I also daydream about possibly making love (having sex with), one of these women who ends up being my date for the wedding.

Journal Entry: July 13,2014

My recently engaged younger sister and her fiance are able to pick a date for their wedding (November 15 of this year), and though I'm happy for them,I'm feeling quite low as it reminds me of my loneliness trying to weed out all the profiles and responses from women from Eharmoney.com and see which one looks likely that I can start a relationship with.I do eventually daydream about meeting these women and eventually having a relationship with one of them.

Journal Entry: July 11,2014

I hear from a couple of women that I've met online and one agrees to meet me in person by the end of the summer,so I daydream about what might happen on our first date at that time.

Journal Entry: July 9,2014

With the date of my prediction of my third-born child being born from over 20 years ago being just a week away,I daydream about what would be happening in my life right now if my predictions on when I was going to get married and have children were correct.

Missing Journal Entry: November 16,2013

It's my niece,Julianne's third birthday,so we go to my older sister's house for her birthday and I daydream about one day having a little girl of my own,most likely named Carol Anne,who me and my wife celebrate her birthday with one day in the future.

Journal Entry: July 7,2014

Went back to work after the 3-day Fourth of July holiday weekend and daydream about getting a new job and possibly landing a lucrative book contract with someone one day.

Journal Entry: July 6,2014

Went to see the latest Transformer movie with a couple of friends of mine and daydream about taking one of the girls from Eharmoney.com and going to see a romantic movie with her one day.

Journal Entry: July 5,2014

Walked around the area,stopped at library and such,daydreaming about the future.When I got an email from one of the girls from Eharmoney.com,telling me that she's blowing me off,I get upset and daydream about ending up being homeless and alone and having no one once my elderly parents die.

Journal Entry: July 4,2014

I spend the day at the Starbucks in Ardsley,and daydream about having a family one day and taking them to barbecues and watching fireworks during future Fourth of Julys.

Journal Entry: July 3,2014

I go for another walk,this time after dinner,and I daydream about getting rich off my books and meeting those girls I've met recently on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: July 2,2014

I send some more book proposals to some more literary agents and daydream about one of them taking me on as a client to send my books to publishers to get some lucrative book deals

Journal Entry: July 1,2014

I take a walk after work and daydream about the future.Then,I come home and send some more book proposal to some literary agents.

Missing Journal Entry: October 31,2013

It's Halloween and as I walk around town after work,all the kids around town are out in their Halloween costumes and I daydream about seeing my children dressed in cute Halloween costumes some day in the future,after I meet my future wife and we get married and start having kids.

Journal Entry: June 30,2014

It's the end of another month,and once again,I daydream about the future,and with us getting deeper into the 2014 summer season,I daydream about meeting those ladies that I've met off the Internet, mainly through EHarmoney.com,and daydream about what it would be like if I had been right in my predictions when I was a kid,that I'd be married with 2 kids and a third on the way in a couple of weeks (July 16,2014 being the predicted date of the birth of my third child),by now.

Journal Entry: June 29,2014

Took a long,4-hour walk all around the area, over 3 towns in the area,and used the time to daydream about the future and achieving the future goals that I've set for myself,including the main goal of having my own family and being able to support them and give them the very best.

Journal Entry: June 27,2014

I went to the Starbucks in Ardsley after work today and daydreamed about dating and eventually marrying one of the girls/ladies that I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for recently, meeting at least one of them this upcoming summer.

Journal Entry: June 25,2014

Daydreamed some more about the future,as I decide to find literary agents that might take me on as a client so that my books can get into the hands of real publishers and hopefully it'll take my writing career to the next level.

Journal Entry: June 24,2014

My younger sister officially gets engaged to be married to her boyfriend,leaving me the last one of my whole family still single,which prompts me to daydream about dating and one day marrying one of those girls I've met on those online dating sites and asking them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: June 23,2014

Today's the 3-year anniversary of my first day at my current job,and it prompts me to daydream about the future,which I hope to include getting a better job one day.

Journal Entry: June 22,2014

Went around Central Avenue in Yonkers with my friend Anthony,and we passed by both a bridal store and a children's clothing store,which prompted me to daydream about marrying one of the girls I've since met off the dating sites and having a family with said date.

Journal Entry: June 21,2014

Went swimming today, as my town had a "Free Pool Day", as they allowed all residents to use the public swimming-pool at Gould Park, for free, without needing a membership pass.Naturally, as I was swimming around in the pool,I daydreamed about the future, teaching my babies how to swim. Of course,I daydreamed about teaching each of my children,my son, and my daughter,urging them on as they struggled to keep their heads above water as they learn to kick their chubby, little legs and paddle with their adorable,chubby,little arms.

Journal Entry: June 20,2014

I go to the Starbucks in Ardsley,NY after work and dinner this evening and I daydream about meeting,in person, one of those girls I've met off those dating web-sites later this summer,with the first day of summer just a day away and the 2014 Summer Solstice being just hours away.

Journal Entry: June 19,2014

I go for a walk after work today and I stop at the local park to read for awhile, and while I'm reading I see a woman with her infant daughter who's apparently learning to walk, and it prompts me to daydream about watching one of my own children learning to walk one day in the future.

Journal Entry: June 18,2014

I went for my typical after-dinner walk this evening,and as I walked around town here, I daydreamed about the usual things; going on dates with these women I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for,marrying one of these women, and having babies with her, as well as writing the "Great American Novel", as well as achieving other future goals of mine. 

Journal Entry: June 17,2014

I daydream some more about meeting these women off these dating sites and about eventually marrying and having a family with one of them,including some beautiful little babies.When I go for a walk after dinner this evening, I stop at one of the local parks,named Gould Park, to read from my Nook when I see some young families out at the park with their kids and it makes me daydream what it might be like if I were already a father of a couple young kids myself, with one of the girls/women I met on one of those dating sites I've been signed up with.

Journal Entry: June 16,2014

Got another response from another woman that I sent some questions to via EHarmoney.com's three-step/levels of compatibility,and daydream about meeting said woman for a date and what we might do on this first date. 

Journal Entry: June 15,2014

It's Father's Day 2014,so I daydream about a future where I have anywhere from 1 to as much as 4 or 5 children,and all the neat situations of taking my children out with me in future Father's Days.

Missing Journal Entry: December 25,2013

It's Christmas Day,so I daydream about a future where I'm married and have 2 or 3 children,and the kids are opening their presents wearing their fuzzy,woolen,footed blanket sleepers,their little faces lighting up when they see all the presents underneath the tree.I daydream about various future situations from a future Christmas with my next girlfriend,the first Christmas after me and my first wife get married,and the first Christmas of my future offspring.

Journal Entry: June 14,2014

I walk around town today,daydreaming about the future,particularly since one of the other girls I've been talking with that I met on EHarmoney.com, named Liz, and we talk about possibly meeting in person one day this upcoming summer season,daydreaming particularly about meeting this Liz girl and having a relationship with her and possibly marrying her,if things work out.

Journal Entry: June 13,2014

I go out after work,being a Friday,and I daydream about the future,especially as I talk with the girl named Tunde,on the phone this evening,for about 10-15 minutes, at around 7:30PM.

Journal Entry: June 12,2014

My family threw a little party for my younger sister's turning 30 yesterday,and of course,my older sister and her husband and my niece and nephew came over,and my younger sister and her boyfriend came.Her boyfriend announced to us,when my younger sister left the room that he's going to ask my younger sister to marry him someday soon,and he even showed us the engagement ring he got her while she was away,leaving it a foregone conclusion that I'll be the last one never married in my whole family,once they officially "tie the knot",possibly sometime late next year.It prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls I've met through online dating and about our meeting and such.I also got an email from another girl from another dating site I signed up for and this prompted me to daydream about meeting her, as well.

Journal Entry: June 11,2014

Today's my younger sister's 30th birthday,so I daydream both about the future and the past, the past about me and my sisters growing up,so it was more a reminiscence than daydreaming,but I also daydreamed about the future and about my goals for a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: June 10,2014

Tunde texted me again today,so I texted her back and daydreamed about my future goals including possibly dating and marrying this girl and having a family together with her,as well as about what might've been if I had been right about my being married with 2 kids and a third on the way by now, back when I was growing up 20-25 years ago now.

Journal Entry: June 9,2014

Heard from another girl from EHarmoney.com,Liz,and then I emailed her back and I daydreamed about being married with children with this Liz-girl,and how beautiful our children will be if me and this Liz-girl end up together as husband-and-wife.

Missing Journal Entry: December 31,2013

It's New Year's Eve,so it's again time to daydream about my goals for the future,which are to get a better job/make more money that I am now,including writing more novels,and about what I hope to ultimately achieve (a family of my own,including children,one day).

Journal Entry: June 8,2014

I spent another sunny,beautiful Sunday afternoon taking a walk around the area today,daydreaming about the future,about meeting these girls on dating sites,and eventually marrying one of them and having a family.I also daydreamed what it would be like if my prediction,from 20 years ago,when I thought that I would already be married and even have a couple of children,with a third on the way, had come true and what I might be doing now with my wife and children if this had actually happened to me,something I still hold out hope will happen one day,preferably in the near future

Journal Entry: June 7,2014

Went to White Plains today to do some shopping and texted the Hungarian girl,Tunde,and I daydreamed about meeting her and other girls I've been texting on EHarmoney.com recently.

Journal Entry: June 6,2014

It's Friday,so obviously I go out after work and eventually go to Ardsley to do some shopping.I also daydream about the future,about meeting these girls off EHarmoney and going on dates and eventually marrying and having a family with one of them.I meet up with my buddy Anthony later that evening,and we chat at Doubledays bar on Main Street.

Journal Entry: June 5,2014

I again go out after work and go for a walk and daydream about my future goals being met,eventually.

Journal Entry: June 4,2014

After work,I call Tunde over the phone and we talk for a few minutes,but she's still busy,working as a nanny in the city,so we don't talk long and then I go for a walk after work and daydream about the future,about meeting with Tunde and other women from EHarmoney in the future.

Journal Entry: June 3,2014

Walked around town after work and daydreamed about the future,about achieving my goals, especially as I talk/text with girl named Tunde I've met on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: June 2,2014

Talked with girl from Eharmoney.com named Tunde (she's Hungarian),and texted each other all day and even talked about meeting for a date later this month,so I start daydreaming about the possibility of this working out and the two of us falling in love and having a family together.

Journal Entry: June 1,2014

It's a sunny,seasonably warm,gorgeous day;a rarity around here this spring,so of course,I go out and exercise and daydream about the future,including my meeting these women I've been messaging on these dating sites and going on dates and eventually having a relationship with one of them that, hopefully,eventually,leads to marriage and children.

Missing Journal Entry: January 1,2014

Today's New Year's Day,the start of a new year,the year 2014,so I daydream about the future and about my goals for 2014,including to get a new job,make some more money,and meet a girl,have a girlfriend,and eventually get married and have children.

Journal Entry: May 31,2014

I still haven't heard from Mary in 3 days now,so I am moving on.I obtain phone # of another girl on EHarmoney.com but I still need to know if her profile name is just a nickname,her surname or her first name,but this prompts me to daydream about going out with this girl and developing a relationship with this woman and daydream about marriage and a family,as this renews my belief that I will make these daydreams a reality one day,hopefully soon.