Journal Entry: May 31,2014

I still haven't heard from Mary in 3 days now,so I am moving on.I obtain phone # of another girl on EHarmoney.com but I still need to know if her profile name is just a nickname,her surname or her first name,but this prompts me to daydream about going out with this girl and developing a relationship with this woman and daydream about marriage and a family,as this renews my belief that I will make these daydreams a reality one day,hopefully soon.

Missing Journal Entry: April 1,2014

I decide to go on a new diet and exercise regiment today,as I start eating less and walking more,and I start daydreaming about my ultimate goal: losing weight enough to attract women,and I daydream about achieving said goals and what this could mean if goals end up being realized.I also decide to renew commitment to get a new job and do other things to improve my life and achieve my dreams.This is also the date that I decide to keep a journal of my daydreams for future reference (or at least,I start thinking of doing just this,but it takes several days before I revisit idea and start doing this).

Journal Entry: May 30,2014

Haven't heard from girl from dating site named Mary,for the last couple of days now,and am starting to think that she has ditched me for someone else.I still daydream about achieving my future goals despite this set-back,as I message some more women on several dating sites this evening.

Missing Journal Entry: January 25,2014

Today's my mother's 65th birthday and I spend the day daydreaming about giving her more grandkids than the 2 she has now,as I daydream about various scenarios where I introduce my mother to her new grandkids,from my first born (which is usually a boy in most of my daydreams),to my second born,third born,etc...............,including when my first daughter (either as a firstborn,or in most of my daydreams,my second or third born),Carol Anne (most likely),is born.

Journal Entry: May 29,2014

I again daydream,this afternoon and evening, about going out on dates with these women I'm meeting on sites including eHarmony.com and other dating sites that I've signed up for.

Journal Entry: May 28,2014

Texted Mary from Plentyoffish.com on my cell-phone a few times this evening,and once again it makes me daydream about going on dates with this Mary woman hopefully later this summer.

Journal Entry: May 27,2014

Went for walk after work and daydreamed about the future and certain scenarios that might happen or at least, that I hope will happen,eventually.

Journal Entry: May 26,2014

Talked to Mary over the phone for a few minutes,but we decided to continue to chat online for the most part.I've messaged a few more girls on the two or three dating sites I've signed up for and just have to wait for their replies.I daydreamed about having a barbecue on a future Memorial Day with my future wife and our adorable children running around with their friends and cousins.

Journal Entry: May 25,2014

Got phone # from girl I met on online dating site Plentyoffish.com,and will be calling her tomorrow or Tuesday.Meanwhile,I daydream about me and this girl,named Mary,meeting,going out on dates and eventually having sweet,passionate sex and eventually children together.I daydream about some day in the future when I'll be bringing my kids around to see their grandparents,and maybe to meet their new grandson or granddaughter for the first time.

Journal Entry: May 24,2014

Daydreamed about the future as I'm talking with this girl I met on the dating site POF (Plentyoffish.com),as she has the platinum-blonde hair that I'm attracted to.I then daydream about our having children who all have the same platinum-blonde hair this girl,named Mary,has,in the picture she posted on the site.

Journal Entry: May 23,2014

With Memorial Day weekend coming up,I daydream about it being in the future,say about 5-10 years from now.I have a nice job,a lovely,beautiful wife,and a great home in a nice neighborhood.I'm outside barbecuing some burgers on the grill,our 3 or 4 beautiful children (okay,it's probably more like 15 years from now,but whatever),are running around in the yard with some neighborhood kids or with their cousins and everything is wonderful and life is grand.

Journal Entry: May 22,2014

Daydreamed about my hopes and dreams of getting a nice job with a decent salary,and losing enough weight to better attract more women and having all these hot babes crowding around me that I end up having glorious sex with,just about every night.

Journal Entry: May 21,2014

After getting out of the interview with the employment agency,I again have daydreams about my future,including working at a company paying me lots of money and having a beautiful bride as my wife and some beautiful,golden-haired children and I daydream about having a nice house,a lovely wife and beautiful children for most of the afternoon and evening.

Journal Entry: May 20,2014

Going to that interview with the employment agency tomorrow and went walking after work,to reflect on my future goals,including career goals,and I daydream about some of the future jobs this agency might be able to set me up with.

Journal Entry: May 19,2014

It's another beautiful day for a walk after work.I take a walk and daydream about the future especially with upcoming interview with local employment agency looming on Wednesday.I'm also working to up-grade or "sex up",my online dating profile and one of the things is asking what my ideal first date is,so I daydream about just that,and how I hope to get one of them hot girls online into the sack with me and make hot,sweet,passionate love with each other and then I daydream about getting married and having a family with "dream girl",from my daydreams.

Journal Entry: May 18,2014

Walked around the area,as part of my exercise program and I spend most of the day daydreaming about the various ways I can meet women who I can carry on a serious relationship with one day,including improving my chances via strengthening my profile on dating sites

Journal Entry: May 17,2014

Went to a singles meet-up event in White Plains,NY this evening.Was there from 8-10:30PM,and met some great people,but no girls my age or type for me to date,but I am confident that if I go to enough of these,eventually I'll meet that "woman of my dreams",and for the rest of the evening,I daydream about getting married and having a family.

Journal Entry: May 14,2014

Joined some meetup groups from meetup.com and am thinking of going to a single's event that they're holding this Saturday,so I daydream,today,about meeting a hot,sexy chick there and asking her out. I then daydream about going on dates and eventually marrying and having a family with this hypothetical single woman that I hope to meet at this event this upcoming Saturday,including daydreaming about the day of the birth of my first child (hopefully happening soon enough).

Journal Entry: May 13,2014

Got a call from an employment agency with some jobs that I may be qualified for.This prompts me to daydream about what my life can be like with a job that pays me a good,living wage,with room from growth and expansion and to help me maximize my talents and my being finally able to buy my own car,my own place and maybe,one day,help me raise a family of my own.

Journal Entry: May 11,2014

It's Mother's Day 2014 so I daydream about being a parent,and who I dream of as the mother of my children,and daydream about the day that my future wife becomes a mother herself.

Missing Journal Entry: January 14,2014

Today's my 35th birthday,so naturally,I daydream about being married with 3 gorgeous children,including little Carol Anne,and my firstborn son, William. I dream about meeting this gorgeous "woman of my dreams", which ends up being the mother of William,Andrew (another male name that I like and might name my second son,if I end up having 2 sons one day),and Carol Anne.This "woman of my dreams",meet everything I look for,mainly someone to share my hopes and dreams with that will be with me through thick and thin,in sickness and in health.

Journal Entry: May 8,2014

Once again daydreamed about the future,this time after receiving some messages from women from online dating sites I'm signed up for,including from one drop-dead gorgeous fox.I can picture both of us making beautiful, golden/platinum-haired children together one day.

Journal Entry: May 5,2014

Took a walk after work,and as I was walking around the town,I daydreamed about my hopes and dreams of becoming a husband and family man one day, in which I have anywhere from one to as much as five children,all very beautiful,matching my vivacious,lovely,vision of my future wife, as I continue to use my walks as times and moments to reflect on my life and it's direction.

Journal Entry: May 4,2014

Went around town today,and at 3PM,I stopped at one of the parks in town,to sit,enjoy the nice weather and read from my Nook,and when I got there,I saw some families with small children there, and I daydreamed about taking my own children to the park and what it might be like once I have children in reality.I spent most of the rest of the day contemplating my life and future goals and how I can obtain them both before and after my visit to the park.

Missing Journal Entry: February 14,2014

It's Valentine's Day,so naturally,I daydream about meeting the woman of my dreams,having a romantic,candle-light dinner with her, and then we watch a romantic movie together and then top everything off with a night of wild, passionate love-making.

Missing Journal Entry: March 7,2014

On the day that the Malaysian airline disappears and it's all over the news,I daydream about being on a plane going to some tropical island with some gorgeous,super-model chick.

Missing Journal Entry: March 14,2014

On the day before I am to go to Atlantic City with my friends,I daydream about going to one of the casinos there and what I would do if I were to win a lot of money from these casinos.

Journal Entry: May 3,2014

Today,as I walk around the area,doing my exercise routine,I daydream about the future,and again about having a family,taking my baby son,or daughter, usually either wearing overalls, or one-piece, footed, blanket sleeper pajamas, around in their strollers,sometimes having to stop to change their diapers and the like,as I continue to think about my future goals and aspirations.

Journal Entry: May 2,2014

Got message last night/early this morning from dating site okcupid.com from some girl claiming to be living in my town who wanted to chat with me and exchange pictures and though I've since found out that this is a sham to get me to sign up for some porno-site,until then,I did have daydreams all day about meeting this woman and going on dates with her.Later this evening,I went to Starbucks and daydreamed/fantasized about having a family with anywhere from 2 to as much as 5 or 6 kids.I also daydreamed about taking one of my kids,as a baby and taking them to the Starbucks and watching them as they nap in their strollers,while sitting at the Starbucks,reading from my Nook,having to take the babies into the bathroom to change them, or while I was there, relieving myself,as the case may be, fantasizing that my wife was working late and I had to watch the kids and take them to Starbucks with me.All day,I fantasize about playing with the kids while they're babies,watching them mimic me as I make funny faces at them as little babies and toddlers tend to do,making me feel bad that I had these daydreams about meeting this woman,after finding out that this dumb bimbo was just trying to get me to sign up for some dumb,lame-ass porno-site.

Journal Entry: May 1,2014

All day today, as I thought about my future goals, hopes and dreams, and how I was going to get there under my present circumstances,I daydreamed about those said hopes and dreams,including the day that my sons and/or daughters were going to be born.I daydreamed about having one son and one daughter in one daydream,and about having twin sons and/or twin daughters in yet another,but basically I daydreamed about the day my children were (or are to be,in any case),born.