Journal Entry: December 25,2016

It's finally Christmas,once again and I again daydream about future Christmases and seeing my children one day getting excited about Santa coming and opening presents and seeing what Santa got them,especially as I watch my niece and nephew do the exact same thing I hope to see William,Carol Anne (and any other children I may have one day), do one day.

Journal Entry: December 24,2016

It's Christmas Eve and though I have to work for a few hours this afternoon,I just daydream about the holiday tomorrow and all that I'm looking forward to and of course,daydream about spending future Christmases with a wife and eventually children one day.

Journal Entry: December 21,2016

It's the first day of the 2016-17 winter season and naturally I daydream about taking my children out in the snow and making snowmen and having snowball fights with them and getting them all dressed-up in thick,heavy snowsuits and thermal underwear and the like.

Journal Entry: December 19,2016

I once again go watch Monday Night Football with my buddies Joe and Anthony,this time at Anthony's house and I daydream about watching and playing football with my sons one day in the future during the game.

Journal Entry: December 18,2016

It's just a week from the most wonderful holiday of all and I'm daydreaming about the upcoming holiday and future Christmases that I hope to spend with a girlfriend,wife and eventually children.

Journal Entry: December 14,2016

I get confirmation that the woman making my bunny-suit sleeper pajamas that it's ready and she just shipped it out so I daydream about getting the thing and zipping myself up in it,looking like the little boy from A Christmas Story (a famous Christmas movie from the 1980's that always comes on Christmas Day every year including,I'm sure,this one as well).

Journal Entry: December 11,2016

It's now 2 more weeks to Christmas 2016 and once again,I daydream about future Christmases including the first Christmas of me being a Daddy one day.

Journal Entry: December 10,2016

I hang out with my buddies Anthony and John and John's gf Daniella and we go to the diner in White Plains across from The Westchester and naturally, John and Daniella get all lovie-dovie and start  kissing each other and naturally that makes me daydream about my future girlfriend and eventual wife getting all lovie-dovie like John and Daniella get.

Journal Entry: December 4,2016

It's 3 weeks to Christmas,so naturally I start daydreaming about future Christmases involving my future wife and children as well as remembering past Christmases,as well.

Journal Entry: December 1,2016

I had a long day at work. With my job at the DeCicco's supermarket/grocery-store in Ardsley being having to put the sales labels up every Friday morning,the labels, which are usually here on Thursday morning when I come in,don't arrive until 6:30PM this evening and I have to break down all of those labels in 2 hours before I leave for home and so naturally I daydream about getting a better job one day where I don't have to deal with breaking down thousands of labels in only 2 hours.

Journal Entry: November 30,2016

The last month of the year 2016 is set to begin so naturally I daydream about better days ahead, including the day of my wedding and my babies being born one day.

Journal Entry: November 27,2016

I once again go to my friend Ant's house with the guys to watch some football games and naturally I daydream about watching football one day with my own sons.

Journal Entry: November 25,2016

It's Black Friday 2016 so I daydream about future Black Fridays where I'll go shopping and eventually take the kids to see Santa Claus and have their pictures with Santa one day.

Journal Entry: November 24,2016

It's Thanksgiving 2016 and I daydream about future Thanksgivings that I might have one day once I find the mother of my children and we settle down and start a family one day.

Journal Entry: November 20,2016

I go over to my friend Anthony's house to watch football with the guys in our circle of friends and naturally,I daydream about watching football with my future sons.

Journal Entry: November 18,2016

Today's the day that the radio station 106.7 starts playing Christmas music and naturally,I start daydreaming about future Christmases to come while listening to the music.

Journal Entry: November 15,2016

It's mid-November,and that means that the winter season is just around the corner. Therefore,I daydream about future winters in which I take the kids out to play in the snow and maybe,one day, take them skiing or doing other winter activities.

Journal Entry: November 13,2016

I take a nature walk on my day off from work this afternoon and I use the time to daydream about the future, going out on dates and then,eventually, settling down and starting a family one day.

Journal Entry: November 9,2016

Donald Trump is declared the winner of the election and naturally I'm so happy and start daydreaming about all the good things that'll happen if our newly elected president follows through on his campaign promises.

Journal Entry: November 8,2016

It's Election Day and naturally, after I go to vote,I daydream about all the good things that I feel should happen if the guy I voted for (Donald Trump), becomes president. Also,I have my latest physical and despite my being overweight,I'm otherwise 100% healthy, so I daydream about losing some weight and all the good things that might happen from that.

Journal Entry: November 6,2016

It's another Sunday and therefore another day of football. Therefore, I then started daydreaming about watching football games with my kids and watching my kids play football one day.

Journal Entry: November 4,2016

After work,I go hang out at the Starbucks across the street and naturally,I daydream about what I might be doing for this weekend.

Journal Entry: November 3,2016

It's a slow work-day today,so I mostly just daydream about the future and about getting a better job and dating women and eventually having a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: October 31,2016

It's Halloween,so I go out first with my older sister and my niece and nephew for a couple of hours to let the kids go trick-or-treating and naturally I daydream about taking my own children trick-or-treating one day in the future.Then,later on,I meet up with a couple of my guy friends and me and one of the guys gets dressed-up in costumes and I daydream about going to future costume-parties with my girlfriend and eventual wife.

Journal Entry: October 28,2016

One of my buddies; Joe, wants to hang out to watch Game 3 of the World Series but I texted him to inform him that I'm just too worn-out from working all day,since 7AM this morning,to want to go back out this evening to do that,but I do then daydream about either watching a World Series game with my own children one day or even seeing one of them playing in one once they get big and become MLB players.

Journal Entry: October 25,2016

Me and my buddies go out to dinner together as my buddy,Anthony,has since returned from Arizona with his Dad and we talk about the usual topics we all talk about when we get together,mostly sports in general and football in particular.We do talk about one of the guys,named Jeremy,who got his own bachelor pad recently and naturally that makes me daydream about my getting my own bachelor pad one day once I'm finally making enough from my career-job to afford one of my own,hopefully long before I'm forced into it by the death of my parents,who I'm currently still living with.

Journal Entry: October 24,2016

We're one week from Halloween 2016 and I daydream about future Halloweens and what my children might dress-up like in future Halloweens (after they're born, of course), including their first ones,while they're babies (I picture my boys being things like puppy dogs and teddy-bears and other boyish things and I picture my girls as bunnies,kitty-cats,maybe even mermaids in a bunting shaped into a mermaid tail at the end, where the sack would be,these outfits being otherwise one-piece with attached hoods,mittens,booties and maybe even attached tails on the butt).

Journal Entry: October 22,2016

This is the date that I had it that my second-born child,named either Andrew or Theodore,would turn 6 years old,back when I was a teen daydreaming about what my future life might be like,so naturally I daydream about what would've happened if I had been right and daydream about us sitting around the table singing "Happy Birthday", to Andrew/Theodore, as we all gather,including my parents and 2 sisters and their families (real and imagined because my older sister does have a family; she's married with 2 kids;my niece and nephew, while my younger sister is still single like yours truly still is,even if she's dating someone at this time while I'm still not,tragically enough).I daydream of Andrew/Theodore opening his presents and blowing out the candles on his cake and what he might look like as a 6-year-old little boy. 

Journal Entry: October 19,2016

It feels like the middle of summer up here even though we're almost a whole month into autumn.I therefore daydream about some of the things me and my friends might do next summer,but I also daydream about cooler weather that's sure to come before long,as November approaches.

Journal Entry: October 17,2016

Today was the day that Ant went to his first road game for his favorite football team,the New York Jets with his Dad. Though the Cardinals would win that game 28-3, Ant said that he enjoyed the experience with his Dad.Meanwhile,I daydream about going to a football game one day myself, including maybe a road New York Giants game with my future gf or wife and/or my own children like Ant did with his Dad.

Journal Entry: October 16,2016

This was the date,one year ago,that me and my friends, Anthony and Jimmy came back from Florida from our 2-week vacation down there (it was more of a vacation for Ant and Jimmy since they had jobs at the time,while I was still unemployed for what turned out to be another 10 months). I therefore daydream about the trip down there last year and that day that we drove all the way back to New York from Florida (we had done the reverse back on October 1,2015, when we left for this 2-week jaunt down there).

Journal Entry: October 13,2016

My buddy,Anthony,leaves to go on a 8-day vacation to Arizona with his Dad as they are set to go to the Jets-Cardinals game out there on Monday. I daydream about our trip to Florida last year and some of the fun,neat things that we did there last year including a year ago on this date.

Journal Entry: October 10,2016

It's a beautiful Monday afternoon,so since I'm off from work,I take a walk around the area and naturally,I daydream about having a better job,a family and some kids of my own one day,as I tend to do on such beautiful days when I take my little walks around, thinking about the future.

Journal Entry: October 8,2016

Today's my nephew's actual eighth birthday and it makes me daydream about my having my own children and how I thought that I'd not only have 3 kids by now,but my firstborn would already be 10 years old,something my nephew, Frankie, will be in a couple more years.

Journal Entry: October 7,2016

While I'm out at work,my folks invite my older sister to bring my niece and nephew over the apartment for my nephew's eighth birthday while officially arrives tomorrow.Of course,with me working,I have to miss it but I daydream what might be going on while I'm at work that afternoon.

Journal Entry: October 4,2016

I take a walk around the area on my day off and I daydream about getting this bunny-suit that I'm trying to have made for this upcoming Halloween.It's not looking good for me to get it this year but maybe next Halloween I'll wear it and I daydream about that.

Journal Entry: October 2,2016

It's another football Sunday,so once again,I daydream about watching football with my sons one day in the future.

Journal Entry: September 30,2016

With the end of September and therefore tomorrow's October 1,2016,I daydream about the cooler, fall weather,football continuing and even hockey and basketball coming back in the coming weeks and months and also,with my nephew's birthday being a week from tomorrow,I daydream about my having children of my own already by now (in all of these,I usually have 2 sons,named William and either Theodore,Andrew or some other traditional boys name and a little girl named Carol Anne and this daydream is no different), and my kids going to see my niece and nephew to celebrate my nephew's upcoming eighth birthday.

Journal Entry: September 29,2016

It's a raw,cool early autumn day as suddenly it feels like we went from late August or early September weather to late October or early November weather, from temps in the 80's all the time to only around 60 degrees. Even some customers are wearing coats and sweaters as they enter the store as if it's 30 degrees out instead of 65. Anyway, this prompts me to daydream about the holiday season upcoming and the coming winter season and therefore wearing down parkas and woolen long-johns and footsie pajamas (For both kids and adults. Even I have a couple of pairs in adult-size,of course).

Journal Entry: September 28,2016

After having a few days off from work,I go back to work again today and it prompts me to daydream about one day having an even better job,making enough to support myself and hopefully,eventually,a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: September 27,2016

The weather's just starting to change as just a few days ago,it was quite warm and summer-like even as late as the second full day of the 2016 autumn season (September 24,2016),but now it's getting cool out as it's only around 70 or in the lower 70's today;perfect early fall,end-of-September weather.

Journal Entry: September 26,2016

For the first time in over 6 weeks,I hang out with both my friends Anthony and John and we catch-up on things and of course, John mentions how he and his girlfriend are doing and naturally it makes me daydream about my having a girlfriend one day and eventually a wife and children of my own.

Journal Entry: September 25,2016

It's another football Sunday and once again,I go to my friend's house to watch football,this time my friend Joe's house with a few other guys. We watch football games all day and I eventually daydream about watching football with my future sons and seeing them play football themselves one day.

Journal Entry: September 22,2016

It's the first day of autumn 2016 so naturally I daydream about the upcoming holiday season and what I'm planning on dressing-up as for Halloween this year.

Journal Entry: September 21,2016

It's the last day of the 2016 summer season so I daydream about the autumn,football and the cooler weather to come.

Journal Entry: September 19,2016

It's a dull,cool,rainy late summer day,but with autumn starting in a few more days,I daydream about cooler weather and the upcoming holiday season both this year and in future years when,hopefully, eventually,I'll have a little family of my very own as in a wife and offspring.

Journal Entry: September 18,2016

Go to my friend Anthony's house with my other friend Joe (the one who helped me get my current job at his old stomping-grounds), and we watch football all day and it prompts me to daydream about watching football games with my future little boys one day or even watching them play in Pee-Wee League or even in high-school or college,heck maybe in the pros aka the NFL.

Journal Entry: September 16,2016

It was a long,grueling,tiring day at work today and so I daydream of better and brighter days though at times,I do get depressed and wonder if my life will ever get better or if life has just dealt me a cold, cruel hand since the day I was born.

Journal Entry: September 13,2016

Met with person from group trying to help me get some funding for some jobs training programs and other things that I may need and will try to obtain in the coming months and years and the meeting went very well and my sister; Linda and I feel that we've made quite a bit of positive progress.

Journal Entry: September 11,2016

It's the 15-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks and I daydream about what I was doing that day and my thoughts on what was going on. It's also the first Sunday of football for the new season so I also daydream about the same stuff I did the other day; watching football games with friends and eventually my sons and maybe even watching my sons play football even if just Pee-Wee League football or just for their high school's team one day.

Journal Entry: September 10,2016

It's another boring day at work so when I can,I daydream about getting a better job,meeting my future wife and having children with her.

Journal Entry: September 8,2016

Tonight's the NFL season opener and naturally,I daydream about the football season ahead and sitting down and watching football games with friends and eventually my children in the future.

Journal Entry: September 5,2016

It's Labor Day 2016 and I'm off from work so I daydream about the end of the summer and the cooler weather to come and of course,the start of the new football season just around the corner.

Journal Entry: September 3,2016

It's the start of the Labor Day weekend so I daydream about watching football games and the cooler autumn weather to come in just a matter of weeks from now.

Journal Entry: September 1,2016

This evening's the last games of the NFL preseason are playing and therefore I daydream about watching football games with my friends and eventually my sons in the future.

Journal Entry: August 31,2016

Today's the last day of August,so once again,I daydream about the start of the football season and the coming of the nice,cool,crisp weather of the autumn months of October and November to come.

Journal Entry: August 29,2016

I hang out with my buddies Ant and Jimmy and we go to the Starbucks in town and we chat about sports and our favorite movies and comics and especially about the upcoming football season,which prompts me to then daydream about not only watching football games but also participating and winning the annual picks pool that we have with the 3 of us and 3 or 4 other buddies of ours.

Journal Entry: August 27,2016

With August coming to a close and September and the fall coming right behind,I start daydreaming about cooler weather and football games soon to come.

Journal Entry: August 26,2016

I go to the wake for Anthony's mother and though I,naturally,don't daydream at the wake, I do daydream during the day about how I would handle the same situation and how I want to get married and have kids before that happens to my own mother or father in the future.

Journal Entry: August 23,2016

My close friend of 8 years,Anthony, had a devastating loss in his family; his mother passed away today and I find out from him on Facebook. This prompts me to daydream about all the times I've been over my friend,Anthony's house and seeing his Mom there and her asking me how my family is and how my parents are doing.

Journal Entry: August 22,2016

Today I go with my parents to the pool where my sister takes my niece and nephew now until school starts for them in a couple more weeks and I daydream again about my niece and nephew having some cousins (my own children), to play with in the pool one summer in the future.

Journal Entry: August 21,2016

I finally have my first day off since I finally got employed again back on Wednesday and naturally I daydream,for most of the day at work,what I might do with my first days off since I started working again,this time at my latest part-time,retail-job.

Journal Entry: August 19,2016

I end up getting out of work early today because I had to work from 7AM until 4PM,and so I daydream about what I might do on some Fridays in the future now that I'm back to having a job and therefore earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 17,2016

Today's my first day at DeCicco's and it's quite an exhausting day as you might imagine from being the first day of my working since the beginning of 2015, over 19 months ago.I barely have enough time to daydream about anything today,but I do about one day getting a full-time career-job and finally making some real, serious money one day.

Journal Entry: August 16,2016

Today's my last day of being unemployed. I spend the whole day again daydreaming about this new job and what it might entail and taking advantage of all the benefits of finally earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 15,2016

I go to the Foodtown in Hastings for the interview. When I get out,I get a call from DeCicco's, another supermarket in the area,this one from Ardsley,where I had that interview on July 25 and they inform me that they are going to go ahead and hire me and for the first time in 19 months,I finally have a new place of employment and a job to go to. I therefore daydream about finally starting to work and earning money and eventually having a family of my own,especially when I then go to the pool in Hastings to help my parents look after my 7-year-old nephew and 5-year-old niece.

Journal Entry: August 14,2016

I get a call to come in to Foodtown for an interview tomorrow and naturally I daydream about getting a job there so at least I can finally start working and earning a pay-check.

Journal Entry: August 13,2016

Another day in this brutal heatwave,so once again,I head up to the malls this afternoon and naturally,I again see some hot chicks and daydream about dating them. I also try to daydream about other "cool thoughts", as a way to beat this oppressive heatwave.

Journal Entry: August 12,2016

Another hot day,so once again, I go up to the malls in White Plains to keep cool and I see a few attractive ladies while there and naturally I daydream about going out with them,having one of them be my girlfriend and what that might be like.

Journal Entry: August 11,2016

Another hot,muggy,steamy,mid-to-late summer afternoon,but this time I do go up to one of the AC-ed malls in White Plains and just keep cool and daydream about being on a beach or some of the things I might do one day on hot days like this once I have children of my own.

Journal Entry: August 10,2016

Decided to go back to the Starbucks in Ardsley but in the afternoon,mostly to,once again,catch up on or finishing up my baseball almanac book,but with how hot and humid it is out there today,I just daydream about being at a beach,or AC-ed mall or movie theater.

Journal Entry: August 8,2016

Took a walk after dinner and decided to,once again,go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley to go have a chance to sit down and read some more of my baseball almanac while sipping back on a black-tea with lemonade and at times,daydream about being employed again,dating,and eventually having a wife and three beautiful,cherubic,golden-haired angels one day.

Journal Entry: August 7,2016

Went to the Ardsley Starbucks this afternoon and read some of my baseball almanac that I'm in the middle of reading,daydreaming about either me playing baseball myself or one of my children playing baseball or softball either in little league,high school,college or even the pros.

Journal Entry: August 6,2016

The main public pool in town hosts a free event where all town residents get in free even if you're not a member of the pool,so I go over there and go swimming this afternoon and naturally,I see many families with young children there and I daydream about taking my own kids to this pool one day as well as about having my own kids already and taking them there.

Journal Entry: August 4,2016

My parents have my niece and nephew to look over for a few hours after camp lets out but before their father; my brother-in-law, comes to pick them up after work. Naturally, I daydream about having children of my own and seeing them playing with my niece and nephew; their cousins.

Journal Entry: August 3,2016

Today I meet with a psychiatrist and have a physical all to make sure that I am autistic and deserving of funding for programs designed to help those with autism find jobs and their own apartments and other meaningful services to lead a productive life one day,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 1,2016

It's a new month,so that means I, once again, daydream about having a family of my own and having children one day and all that that might entail.

Journal Entry: July 31,2016

It's the end of another month,so once again I daydream about the future. It's been such a hot,steamy summer already that I just daydream about cooler weather to come particularly as we move into the last few months of 2016, especially once the summer officially ends in late September.

Journal Entry: July 30,2016

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this evening and as I'm reading a sports book I'm currently in the middle of reading,it makes me daydream about either being a professional athlete myself or daydreaming about one of my kids playing professional sports one day themselves.

Journal Entry: July 29,2016

Hung out with a few of my friends and one of the guys in my group who has a girlfriend and I see them kissing and it prompts me to daydream about having a girlfriend to kiss one day.

Journal Entry: July 27,2016

I go back up to the mall today to beat the heat and while in the Barnes-&-Noble up in White Plains, I see several mothers wheeling strollers with their babies inside and I daydream of one day either me alone or me and my wife coming into that same Barnes-&-Noble wheeling one of our own babies in his or her stroller around the store.

Journal Entry: July 26,2016

To beat the heat,I go into the local library to finish reading my latest book and then I donate it to the library. As I'm reading, I see several parents with young children there for some special event and therefore I daydream about taking my kids to one of these such events in the future.

Journal Entry: July 25,2016

Go on my first interview in months for a job at a local grocery-store (just to have some money coming in until I get something better,something more suited for my career goals),and naturally,I daydream about getting the job and some of the things that I might be doing on a typical work day while working for this particular grocer-company.

Journal Entry: July 23,2016

Once again head to the malls in White Plains to beat the heat on another summer scorcher.This time, I see some fine-looking young woman walking around and I daydream meeting one of them or having one of them for a girlfriend and the various things we might do together,including having sex.

Journal Entry: July 22,2016

The latest heatwave begins and once again,I go up to find relief from the heat at one of the malls in White Plains. Eventually, I see several mothers with strollers and babies and young kids there and naturally, I daydream about being married and having kids of my own and envisioning the various scenarios where I might try to keep them cool; whether at the mall,the movies or the pool or a water-park, during these hot, summer months.

Journal Entry: July 21,2016

Went to Jones Beach with my friend Anthony this afternoon and naturally,I daydream about going to the beach with my girlfriend one day and my wife and children another day further into the future, taking the kids into the water, seeing them play in the sand, etc.............

Journal Entry: July 20,2016

Took a walk around town and daydreamed about taking my kids to the park after passing by the main park in town, for example or taking them to the local diner to eat lunch,which I also did and overall just daydreamed about what I still hope to be my future.

Journal Entry: July 18,2016

It's another hot,mid-summer day,so once again,I try to find a way to keep cool; this time at one of the malls in White Plains and again, whenever I see parents pushing strollers and carriages,I immediately daydream about being one of those doing the same thing.

Journal Entry: July 17,2016

I went up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this afternoon to beat the heat and naturally, I daydreamed about some of the other ways I might keep myself and maybe my girlfriend and eventual wife and my babies cool,like the pool or the beach or to a family-friendly movie. I also daydream about being married with kids each time I see someone who,in reality,has those things already.

Journal Entry: July 16,2016

Daydreamed about my third child turning 2 years old today (based on my prediction that I'd have 3 kids and the third being born on July 16,2014, which was 2 years ago today,some 20-25 years ago back in the mid 1990's when I was a mere teenager),daydreaming that those predictions of mine from 1994 or 1995 had come true and my little girl, Carol Anne, had turned 2. I daydream that we'd have invited all of the grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins over and we'd have my little now 2 year old daughter open her presents by 4PM, then we'd have dinner by 6PM and her birthday-cake by 8PM and the party being over about a half hour ago at about 9:40PM, or so.

Journal Entry: July 15,2016

Hang out with my pal Anthony Latino,and we go to the Palisade's Mall in Nyack and of course, I see many women with kids and babies in strollers and carriages and I again daydream about one day going to the mall with my wife and both of us taking turns pushing our babies in their carriages and strollers one day including now if I had been correct with my predictions of being married with 3 kids and the third turning 2 years old tomorrow. 

Journal Entry: July 14,2016

Take another walk around the area and daydream about the future,including about one day meeting my future wife and "making babies", with her.

Journal Entry: July 13,2016

We are just 3 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I,once again,daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday.

Journal Entry: July 12,2016

We are just 4 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday. 

Journal Entry: July 11,2016

Went to Starbucks in area for a quick drink and snack this afternoon and daydreamed about what I might be doing if on vacation with wife and kids if I even had said wife and kids,maybe taking them camping or to one of the beaches in the area,most likely.

Journal Entry: July 9,2016

It was a cool,cloudy,murky day today,so I go out to the Starbucks in Ardsley and I see this attractive-looking woman sitting at one of the other tables nearby where I'm sitting. Naturally,at times,I think of going up to talk to this woman but she looks rather young for me (I'm 37,she looked to be about 22 or 23),and so I daydream about all the ways I could go up and talk to this woman but I never find the right moment and then the woman leaves and I daydream what might've been if I had gotten the chance to talk to this woman and I find out that she's much closer to my age than I thought.

Journal Entry: July 7,2016

It's another hot one during this latest heatwave and so I go up to the malls again today and walk around. Naturally,I see mothers pushing babies in carriages and strollers and it prompts me to daydream about my wife being one of them and another time I daydream about pushing one of my own kids in their strollers and carriages as babies through this particular mall.

Journal Entry: July 6,2016

The first heatwave of the year starts today so I head up to the malls for the day and I daydream taking my girlfriend or wife to the movies and then have another daydream of taking my kids to the movies or to the public swimming-pool in town or the beach as the case may be.

Journal Entry: July 4,2016

This evening,I go down to the waterfront to watch the fireworks display that the town sets off every year and I daydream about having my wife and children down there with me and seeing my babies having their eyes wide open as they look at all the pretty colors from the fireworks in the sky,but then it starts to rain and I picture me and my wife and kids racing to the car to leave.

Journal Entry: July 2,2016

Took a walk around the area this afternoon and used time to reflect on life and daydream about what my life could've been like if things turned out differently along the way.

Journal Entry: July 1,2016

We had some hefty thunderstorms this afternoon and evening and it made me daydream about how my own babies will react to scary thunderstorms and I daydream about some nights in the future I have to take them out of their cribs and comfort them down after some loud crashing noise from thunder wakes them up and scares them and what it might take for me to get them to calm down and fall back to sleep again,daydreaming about each of my future kids (whether just 2 or 5 or 6), being babies and having to calm them down after severe thunderstorms while they're all little kids.

Journal Entry: June 30,2016

My folks babysat my niece and nephew for a few hours today and I decided to hang around and help them out.We took them to a park in town and naturally I daydreamed about taking my own children to this same park one day and maybe with my niece and nephew;their cousins.Then,later on,when my brother-in-law came to pick them up,my folks mentioned my sister and brother-in-law going to Cape Cod for vacation next week and that made me daydream about taking my wife and kids on such a vacation while our kids are still little.

Journal Entry: June 29,2016

Took a walk around the area and saw some parents with babies,including two women who I assume are friends,holding their babies who look only a few weeks or months old,in their arms and I daydream about me and my wife doing the exact same thing with our babies.

Journal Entry: June 28,2016

Again stopped into local cafe in town at around 4:30PM, this afternoon and saw this couple who usually go in there as they live nearby,and they have this little daughter of theirs who's about 2 so naturally, I daydream about having my own 2 year old,Carol Anne,there with me just like I had daydreamed about this yesterday as well.

Journal Entry: June 27,2016

I go into the cafe in town on Main Street and see a young family with parents and a kid of about 4 or 5 years old and I daydream about taking my own four or five year old son and/or daughter into the same place one day and introducing them to the people who work there who I personally know.

Journal Entry: June 26,2016

I go for a walk this evening after dinner and I daydream about being married with 3 beautiful children and we're taking an after-dinner walk together with our little girl,Carol Anne, in pinstriped "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh", overalls and when the baby spots one of my neighbors walking their dog, I daydream her going "doggy", or when she spots a bird flying up into one of the trees that line one of the streets,she goes "birdie", just like a little one or two year old would (again fantasizing about my prediction of having 3 kids by the summer of 2014 some 20-25 years ago having come true).

Journal Entry: June 23,2016

I decide to do something different today.I take the bus up to White Plains and stop in a strip-mall near the Greenburgh Public Library and I stop in a K-Mart but I also stop in a Carter's store and of course when I see mothers with their babies and young kids I daydream about one of those mothers being my wife and carrying one of my children,shopping for clothes for them. I then take the bus home. Also on the bus-ride up I see a mother with a baby and I again daydream about my wife doing the same with one of our babies one day.

Journal Entry: June 20,2016

It's the first day of summer,so I daydream about all the things I hope to do with a future family one day; from going to the beach and playing with my babies in the sand to taking my wife and kids camping in the woods and my wife and I making out in the RV while the kids sleep in sleeping bags in their tent and I tell them all camp-fire stories before they go off to bed in their sleeping bags.

Journal Entry: June 19,2016

It's Father's Day 2016,so naturally I daydream about being a father myself. I daydream about my kids giving me presents and having a chance to spend a day with them,especially when they're real little and all the various things I'll get to do with them once I become a Daddy one day,myself.

Journal Entry: June 17,2016

Helped my elderly parents take care of my niece and nephew for a few hours after school this afternoon and naturally, I started daydreaming about seeing my niece and nephew running around with my kids who would,naturally,be their cousins, though sometimes it gets me to feel bad about not giving them cousins to play with in real life,but that only makes me more determined to make that a reality; some day.

Journal Entry: June 14,2016

Took a walk all the way up to Tarrytown and daydreamed that I was taking one of my kids as a baby with me in his or her little stroller or baby-carriage and then daydreamed about taking them to the park and playing baseball with them while I was listening to some music while I walked.

Journal Entry: June 13,2016

Took a walk around the area and stopped in the town diner for a snack and daydreamed that I was walking in there with my two little boys and my baby daughter; Carol Anne.

Journal Entry: June 12,2016

Took a walk all the way to Tarrytown today and while doing so,I not only thought about new scenes for the books that I'm working on,but I also daydreamed about a scene where I'm sitting on the couch with my infant daughter,Carol Anne,me in a T-shirt and jeans or pants,Carol Anne in a fuzzy, fleecy, thick,plush,one-piece,footed,blanket sleeper with a zipper-tab snapped shut,skid-resistant soles and bumper-toecaps and a vintage Sears Winnie-the-Pooh applique embroidered on the left-chest,napping on my chest.She has one thumb in her mouth and her other arm is lying to her side and from the angle that I'm looking at her,one of her chunky,chubby,baby-fat-laden cheeks is sticking out as she lays on her tummy and has her head tilted to one side as she peacefully sleeps on top of me.

Journal Entry: June 11,2016

Walked around the area for my workout regiment and once again daydreamed about having my own place,having sex with a hot chick in my own apartment,getting married and having children and all the things that I've been daydreaming about over the years.

Journal Entry: June 10,2016

Even though tomorrow's my younger sister's 32nd birthday,she comes over to the apartment this evening to celebrate and I daydream again about happier times and my hopes and dreams for the future,including celebrating the birth of one of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: June 9,2016

I watch Game 5 of the NHL Stanley Cup Finals and daydream this time about one of my sons playing in the NHL and helping his team win their first ever Stanley Cup title and hoisting the Stanley Cup over his head as he skates around the arena.

Journal Entry: June 7,2016

I take a walk around the area as part of my exercise regiment, and I daydream about better times than I've been having,from having a decent job earning a decent living,to being married and with kids or at least,having a place of my own to invite girls back to, to have sexual intercourse.

Journal Entry: June 5,2016

Another of my friends invites a group of guys over to their house to watch Game 2 of the NBA Finals and this time I daydream about one of my sons playing in the NBA and helping his team to their first NBA championship and his first of many championship rings.

Journal Entry: June 2,2016

One of my friends invites us to come over to his house to watch Game 1 of the NBA Finals and I daydream about my playing in the NBA and making the game-winning shot to help my team win their franchise first NBA title.

Journal Entry: May 30,2016

It's Memorial Day,so I feel that this is a perfect opportunity to memorialize my hopes and dreams for the future and what I thought that my life would be like by now. Therefore,I daydream about being married with 3 kids by now and what we might've been doing today if my predictions from over 20 years ago now had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: May 8,2016

It's Mother's Day 2016,and I daydream about being married and having children and seeing my children give my wife and therefore their mother, some presents like roses and such and of course, eventually I daydream about having children already in any event, with a whole host of situations.

Journal Entry: May 7,2016

Today's the day of my nephew Frankie's Holy Communion. This prompts me to daydream about having one of my kids having their first Holy Communion as well. Eventually, later that afternoon, I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and hang out there for the rest of the afternoon into the evening, reading the newspaper and at times daydreaming about future events.

Journal Entry: March 31,2016

I go with my father and younger sister to meet with a woman from this agency I'm working with to try to get services including vocational services with,called ARC of Westchester.We sign me up for a whole host of government-funded services under Medicaid and of course, this prompts me to daydream about a day when I have a decent-paying job and eventually my own place and being able to live a fruitful, independent life one day.

Journal Entry: March 27,2016

It's Easter Sunday 2016 today and my older sister drops off my niece and nephew at the house for a few hours. This prompts me to daydream about what my kids might or would look like in their little Easter outfits if they had since been born as I had predicted 20-25 years ago would happen by now. I also picture either myself,my wife,or our daughter,Carol Anne,being in an Easter Bunny costume or outfit on this holiday, maybe someday in the future.

Journal Entry: March 22,2016

It's the first day of spring and that means that the warmer weather is coming and so is baseball season. That prompts me to daydream about taking my kids to a baseball game one day.

Journal Entry: March 17,2016

It's St.Patrick's Day and therefore the famous parade is on TV. I watch it and as I watch, I see some bands with young kids in them marching down the street as well as shots of people with kids,some of whom are most definitely Irish just by looking at them. Since I myself am part Irish, it makes me daydream about having my own children at the parade, either marching in it or being one of the spectators on the street one day.

Journal Entry: March 6,2016

This was the day that I thought,over 20 years ago,that I'd not only be married with 3 children,but that my oldest would be 10 years old today. Therefore,I daydream what it might've been like if I was right and I had a 10 year old son named William,as well as a 5 year old son named Andrew and 1.5 year old daughter named Carol Anne,since my predictions for all 3 for their birth-dates was March 6,2006 (William), October 22,2010 (Andrew; just 3 weeks from when my real-life niece; Julianne, was born), and July 16,2014 (Carol Anne).

Journal Entry: February 14,2016

It's Valentine's Day,and a very cold one at that,so I daydream about taking my future wife out to dinner on future Valentine's Day,as well as daydream about my babies being in thermal long-johns and their thickest,heaviest blanket sleepers, keeping toasty and cozy-warm on the coldest of nights during their first few winters in the future.

Journal Entry: February 2,2016

It's Ground Hog's Day,which prompts me first to think about the famous movie with that name starring Bill Murray, and then I daydream more about the future and being married and having children.

Journal Entry: January 23,2016

We get the biggest snowstorm in ages today as parts of the area are buried under 2-3 FEET of snow, with Central Park getting very close to an all-time record snowfall,though some say that those early estimates are off by an inch or so. Anyway,this prompts me to daydream first about hefty snowfalls that we've had in the past including the famed Blizzard of 1996.Then,I daydream about future snowstorms and seeing my babies playing out in the snow in their little one-piece, footed snowsuits and then bringing them inside to have hot chocolate and then put them back into the fuzzy, fleecy, one-piece, footed, blanket sleeper pajamas and playing with them for the rest of the evening.

Journal Entry: January 14,2016

It's my 37th birthday today and once again,like 2 weeks ago,I reflect on my life and what I hope will be my future,daydreaming about future birthdays with my wife and kids around me and feeling blessed to have them all in my life.

Journal Entry: January 1,2016

It's New Year's Day,so once again,I daydream about the future; about getting a job,a girlfriend,getting married and having a family and daydream all about what that might entail.

Journal Entry: December 31,2015

It's New Year's Eve,as I go up to White Plains with my friends to celebrate the end of 2015 and the ringing in of 2016. Naturally,I daydream about having my girlfriend here and even more into the future,celebrating the ball drop with my wife and eventually our children and having a party with friends for it at our house or apartment in future years.

Journal Entry: December 25,2015

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I daydream about a future Christmas Day with my wife and children and seeing my kids eyes light-up at all the presents underneath the tree. I daydream about my kids being in footed sleepers,opening their presents and jumping around,all excited that Santa got them that one toy that they always wanted and now finally got.I daydream of seeing one of my kids as a baby,napping in front of the Christmas-tree with his or her blanket sleeper-clad and diaper-clad butt sticking up in the air, sucking on his or her thumb or pacifier as they sleep.

Journal Entry: December 24,2015

It's Christmas Eve,so I daydream about a future Christmas Eve with my wife and kids and my kids being excited that Santa Claus is coming to town tonight,but with it being the hottest Christmas Eve ever,it doesn't feel the same,so I daydream about a typically cold,snowy Christmas Eve in the future.

Journal Entry: November 26,2015

It's Thanksgiving so I daydream about having a Thanksgiving dinner with my future wife and kids and the kids watching the traditional Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade.