Journal Entry: July 31,2014

On this,my fourth day of vacation,I hang out with my friend, Anthony, going to the Palisades Mall in Rockland County.As I walk around town earlier in the day,I see some women pushing strollers with babies inside,prompting me to daydream about my future wife and I doing the same thing one day.

Missing Journal Entry: November 28,2013

It's Thanksgiving,and family comes over and I daydream about having Thanksgiving dinner with a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: July 30,2014

On the third official day of my vacation from work,I again take a walk around town,and up to Irvington,daydreaming about meeting those girls from the Internet,going on vacations to Bermuda and other tropical islands with them,and eventually going on a honeymoon with the one I end up having a deep relationship with and eventually marrying.

Journal Entry: July 29,2014

On my second official day of vacation,I take a walk around town and daydream about the future, including getting married and having a family

Journal Entry: July 28,2014

Today's the first official day of my vacation,so I daydream about flying to some tropical island with some hottie I've met online recently and having sex on the beach.

Journal Entry: July 25,2014

I daydream about meeting the few girls that I'm talking,now on phone and emails with from Eharmony.com and going out with them and asking one of them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: July 24,2014

I take a walk after dinner this evening and see some young couples pushing their babies and toddlers in strollers and baby-carriages and it prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls from Eharmony.com and having children with them, pushing our own babies in strollers and such as we go on walks around the area like these young families were doing this evening.

Journal Entry: July 23,2014

I talked with some of the girls that I've met from Eharmony.com and I daydream about meeting them one day soon and inviting them to my younger sister's wedding and our dancing together to slow, romantic songs, kissing and making out all evening.

Journal Entry: July 19,2014

Two of my friends and I go down to the city for the day,and I daydream about meeting some of the girls that I've met on dating sites that live in the city and going on dates with them.

Journal Entry: July 18,2014

I daydream about what it might've been like if my predictions of having a wife and 3 kids by now would be like,and about how me and my first 2 kids go to visit their Mom and 2-day old baby sister in the hospital this afternoon.

Journal Entry: July 17,2014

Get another email from woman on dating web-site and once again I daydream about meeting girls from dating web-sites and asking them for a date to my younger sister's wedding in November

Journal Entry: July 16,2014

It's the day that I predicted that my third child would be born on,back when I was a naive teenager in the 1990's unaware of future consequences that would make me still very much single and still living with my parents at 35 years old,at this time,so I daydream about what would happen if my prediction had come true and I daydream about rushing my wife to the hospital,about the birth of our little girl, Carol Anne,and about everyone in our families, including my parents, my sisters,and their husbands (both current and soon-to-be), my two (now fictional) sons, and my niece and nephew coming to meet their baby niece,sister,cousin,and granddaughter, Carol Anne, during the course of the day.

Journal Entry: July 15,2014

I daydream about meeting more of those girls/women from Eharmoney.com,especially as one of them emails me explaining that she'll email me and tell me more about herself tomorrow.I also daydream, especially by night-fall, what I might be doing if I had been correct,all those years ago,in my predictions that by this time,I'd be married, already have two kids (both boys), and a third on the way to be born tomorrow,including racing around to be sure to be ready if my (of course fictional), wife was to go into labor tonight.

Journal Entry: July 14,2014

I get some more responses from women I've messaged from Eharmoney.com and this prompts me to daydream not only meeting these women, but possibly asked them to be my date for my younger sister's November wedding,and with my folks informing me that we'll be staying at the hotel that they had arranged to host my younger sister's wedding reception,I also daydream about possibly making love (having sex with), one of these women who ends up being my date for the wedding.

Journal Entry: July 13,2014

My recently engaged younger sister and her fiance are able to pick a date for their wedding (November 15 of this year), and though I'm happy for them,I'm feeling quite low as it reminds me of my loneliness trying to weed out all the profiles and responses from women from Eharmoney.com and see which one looks likely that I can start a relationship with.I do eventually daydream about meeting these women and eventually having a relationship with one of them.

Journal Entry: July 11,2014

I hear from a couple of women that I've met online and one agrees to meet me in person by the end of the summer,so I daydream about what might happen on our first date at that time.

Journal Entry: July 9,2014

With the date of my prediction of my third-born child being born from over 20 years ago being just a week away,I daydream about what would be happening in my life right now if my predictions on when I was going to get married and have children were correct.

Missing Journal Entry: November 16,2013

It's my niece,Julianne's third birthday,so we go to my older sister's house for her birthday and I daydream about one day having a little girl of my own,most likely named Carol Anne,who me and my wife celebrate her birthday with one day in the future.

Journal Entry: July 7,2014

Went back to work after the 3-day Fourth of July holiday weekend and daydream about getting a new job and possibly landing a lucrative book contract with someone one day.

Journal Entry: July 6,2014

Went to see the latest Transformer movie with a couple of friends of mine and daydream about taking one of the girls from Eharmoney.com and going to see a romantic movie with her one day.

Journal Entry: July 5,2014

Walked around the area,stopped at library and such,daydreaming about the future.When I got an email from one of the girls from Eharmoney.com,telling me that she's blowing me off,I get upset and daydream about ending up being homeless and alone and having no one once my elderly parents die.

Journal Entry: July 4,2014

I spend the day at the Starbucks in Ardsley,and daydream about having a family one day and taking them to barbecues and watching fireworks during future Fourth of Julys.

Journal Entry: July 3,2014

I go for another walk,this time after dinner,and I daydream about getting rich off my books and meeting those girls I've met recently on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: July 2,2014

I send some more book proposals to some more literary agents and daydream about one of them taking me on as a client to send my books to publishers to get some lucrative book deals

Journal Entry: July 1,2014

I take a walk after work and daydream about the future.Then,I come home and send some more book proposal to some literary agents.