Journal Entry: October 31,2015

Today's Halloween and as I walk around town,they close down the two main streets in town and let everyone walk around in costumes and take their kids trick-or-treating through the town. Of course, seeing all the little kids in their cute Halloween costumes make me daydream about the future and my kids getting dressed in the same cute, little costumes when they're little as some of the kids walking around with their parents this evening. Also,when I see my niece and nephew for about an hour that evening,in their costumes,I also daydream about my own kids being in Halloween costumes one day.

Journal Entry: October 30,2015

Tomorrow's Halloween 2015 and being a Saturday,me and my friends are going to be wearing costumes to the bars in White Plains, so I daydream about wearing the costume I am thinking of wearing; as a big baby,wearing my feetsie pajamas as part of the costume along with the big bottle and pacifier I also bought earlier this week.

Journal Entry: October 29,2015

I have an appointment with a jobs counselor with the organization called ACCES-VR and I talk to her about my career goals and she sounds really upbeat about my chances for success. This prompts me to daydream about achieving said career goals and eventually my personal goals of getting married and having children as well.

Journal Entry: October 28,2015

Aunt Cathy and Uncle Richard who are visiting for a wedding end up staying at our place last night. Just before she leaves with my uncle to go back to their hotel before leaving for home on Thursday, my aunt invites me to come visit her and my uncle in Arizona so I daydream about what it might be like to visit where they live for a couple of weeks like me and my friends visited Florida for a couple of weeks earlier this month.

Journal Entry: October 27,2015

I go to White Plains for an interview for a position at the company Panera Bread; my first interview since just before I went to work for my last company; Rembar. I then daydream about getting a job and getting back to achieving my future goals of my own place and eventually having a family.Also,my Aunt Cathy and Uncle Richard (Richie), from Arizona are here for a visit due to a wedding so I daydream about seeing them again and catching up on things with them.

Journal Entry: October 24,2015

It's exactly one week before the pagan holiday of Halloween and I daydream about taking my future children around town in their costumes trick-or-treating as well as myself walking around in costumes for costume-parties and the like that I might attend in the future.

Journal Entry: October 21,2015

It's the day dubbed by social media as "Back to the Future" day since this is the date in the sequel where the main characters go to the "future", to stop one of the main characters from being talked into committing a crime with neighborhood thugs, so I daydream about what it might be like to time-travel back-and-forth between the future and the past like the characters in the "Back to the Future" trilogy.

Journal Entry: October 18-19,2015

Though I dream of many things tonight,one dream that stands out is another one where I'm out and about wearing my footsie pajamas. One is when I'm at the town library,reading books and magazines and wearing my royal blue,sherpa, adult-sized blanket sleeper pajamas (I'm wearing them in reality as it's the coldest night since early-to-mid April tonight). I then leave the library and in my footsie pajamas and am surprised that no one seems to notice that I'm outside walking around town in my footsie pajamas. In another dream,I'm wearing these pink bunny footies that I had owned for a time and wore to work one Halloween for a costume, but this time I'm at home and walking around and usually my folks would comment about my wearing these but in this dream they don't and act like I'm wearing just regular clothes

Journal Entry: October 17,2015

I arrive home by 12:30AM, unpack my stuff and by 1:10AM I go to bed. Then, later in the day,I daydream about getting a job soon and meeting women and making a family as I start getting back to my normal life and thinking about my hopes and dreams for the future.

Journal Entry: October 16,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I went back to New York today as we got up by 4AM and were on the road by 4:45AM. We didn't get back to New York until shortly before 12AM some 18.5 hours later. During the long journey,I daydream about taking a long road-trip with my future wife and children and all the things that could happen on such a journey

Journal Entry: October 14,2015

This time,Jimmy,Anthony and I go to Daytona Beach and get there by 3PM,after leaving at 11AM (we would've gotten there 2 hours earlier if we weren't going around in circles thanks to the crummy directions people keep giving us to get to the beach). We then leave at 7PM,stop somewhere for dinner at 9PM,and get back to the condo by 10PM. All the time,I daydream about taking my future family to the beach during a family vacation one day in the future

Journal Entry: October 12,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I go back to Universal Studios theme park and go on some more rides so once again I daydream about taking my kids to this park and going on these same rides that me, Jimmy and Anthony go on today

Journal Entry: October 11,2015

Today,Jimmy,Anthony and I stay at the condo and watch football games all day and I daydream about watching football with my future sons.

Journal Entry: October 9,2015

Jimmy,Anthony and I went back to Disney World and went to Epcot Center. While there, I daydreamed about taking my kids here in the future and some of the rides that they might want to get on while at the park here.

Journal Entry: October 7,2015

Jimmy,Ant and me go to Universal Studios for the first time and we go on some rides and meet some of the superhero characters like Spiderman; Jimmy's favorite. We get several pictures of us with the characters and of course I daydream about taking my kids,particularly my sons here and their meeting their favorite superheroes here one day.

Journal Entry: October 5,2015

Jimmy,Ant,and me go to Disney World for the first time today and I daydream all day about taking my children here in the future and all the fun they'll have; meeting their favorite characters and the like.

Journal Entry: October 4,2015

Me,Jimmy and Anthony go to a football game in which one of the teams playing is Jimmy's favorite NFL team; the Carolina Panthers won by Jimmy's team so obviously he's thrilled. Meanwhile, I just daydream about taking my future children; hopefully at least one or two of whom will be sons, to some football games including ones played by the area's NFL teams; the Jets and Giants.

Journal Entry: October 3,2015

Today's our first full day in Florida and we mostly just do some souvenir shopping and I daydream about all the great souvenirs I'm planning on buying and how everyone's going to react to their gifts that I get them.

Journal Entry: October 2,2015

We finally arrive in Florida and to Anthony's family's condo. We arrive at 1PM and then take naps until around 6PM. Then we go out to eat and buy some groceries for the week. I daydream about what we're going to be doing on our 2-week vacation.

Journal Entry: October 1,2015

Today's the day me and my friends; Jimmy and Anthony leave for our vacation to Florida so I daydream about what it might be like when we get there.

Journal Entry: September 29-30,2015

Tonight I dream first about my trip to Florida with Anthony and Jimmy tomorrow in which we are in Anthony's car and trying to get by some rush-hour traffic in,say the nation's capital or somewhere in Maryland or Virginia. Second,I have a dream about being in the town cafe wearing my Winnie-the-Pooh adult-sized blanket sleeper pajamas when I realize that I'm in my footsie pajamas and it's like 1PM in the afternoon and I'm out walking around in my Doctor Denton's. Strangely,no one in the dream seems to even notice what I'm wearing.

Journal Entry: September 27,2015

I start packing for my 2-week trip to Florida with my friends Anthony and Jimmy today and I promptly daydream about all the fun,neat things we're going to do on this vacation/trip; my very first to the Sunshine State.

Journal Entry: September 26,2015

Today's the day of the town festival where they close down the 2 main roads in town and the business in town show off their wears to the visitors to the festival and I daydream of one day taking my girlfriend,wife,and eventually children to future town festivals like this one.

Journal Entry: September 25,2015

I have to go back up to my new doctor's office in White Plains to sign the release forms for my records from my physical a week ago yesterday. I daydream about the future some more and maybe about future doctor visits and maybe even later on,taking my own babies to get check-ups from their pediatricians in the future.

Journal Entry: September 24,2015

Today's my first visit with my new counselor from the WJCS and I meet with her and talk about my background and my past and what I want to get out of the services that this new counselor provides her clients and I daydream about eventually getting my own place and being an independent person and not relying on my now elderly parents for the rest of their lives if not the rest of mine.Tonight me and my friend Anthony go to our friend Joe's house to watch the football game tonight and I daydream about watching football with my future sons one day.

Journal Entry: September 23,2015

It's the first day of the 2015 autumn season today and today I have to go to the VESID/ACCES-VR orientation today as they will eventually transfer me to the ARC of Westchester where they will help me find jobs. I daydream about this process being completed and about getting a decent job and making a decent living and achieving all I want out of life.

Journal Entry: September 22,2015

It's the last day of the 2015 summer season so I daydream about the cooler weather and all the other stuff I love about autumn to come.

Journal Entry: September 19,2015

I hang out with my friends,Anthony and John and one of the things we talk about is about our trip to Florida in 12 more days and therefore I daydream about going on this trip and the long road trip that we're taking to go down there in a little under a couple more weeks.

Journal Entry: September 17,2015

Today I went to see my new doctor; Dr. Giampietro and have my first physical in over a year today and I daydream about getting this done and eventually signing up for those organizations that help people like me affected by autism,get jobs and such.

Journal Entry: September 18,2015

It's my older sister's 40th birthday and she comes over for an hour with my niece and nephew and I play with them and I daydream of having my own children one day and their running around with my niece and nephew and what it might've been like if I already had kids for my little niece and nephew to play with already,while they're still young.

Journal Entry: September 16,2015

It's mid-September and exactly 100 days to go before Christmas of 2015, so I daydream about future Christmases with my girlfriend,then my wife and then my children.

Journal Entry: September 15,2015

It's officially mid-September and a week from tomorrow autumn will officially begin so I daydream about cooler days to come,the changing color of the leaves,the holidays and all the other promises of autumn, though it feels more like mid-summer than almost autumn with the unseasonable warmth out there today and it's only to get warmer/hotter from here over the next 2 or 3 days,making everyone think more of the beach and getting a tan than raking leaves and tossing the football around.

Journal Entry: September 13,2015

Today's the first day of the 2015 NFL season so I daydream about tossing the football around with my still fictional sons and taking them out to the park for a game of catch and eventually seeing them play little league or high school football one day.

Journal Entry: September 11,2015

Today's the 14-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon and instead of daydreaming about pleasant things,I think about what I was doing that day 14 years ago and what might horrific event might happen to this city and this country 10-15 years from now thanks to the feckless cowards in Congress approving this reckless Iranian nuke deal recently and though I try to think of more positive things,today it's not that easy. 

Journal Entry: September 8,2015

It's the hottest day of 2015 as it hits 90 degrees by 10AM and is 95 degrees by 2PM when I leave to go to the pool. I stay there all day and daydream about my future hopes and dreams including getting married and having children of my own.

Journal Entry: September 7,2015

It's Labor Day 2015 but with it being so warm out today,I go right to the pool and swim my laps.Of course,I daydream about teaching my little kids in the future how to swim and seeing them swim around and play games and of course I also think about what I'm going to write about in my latest novel that I'm working on,as well.

Journal Entry: September 6,2015

I go to the pool in town and find out that;due to the upcoming heatwave, they are keeping the pool open a couple more days through September 9. Also today,John comes to the pool and we hang out there and naturally I daydream about future especially when John and I talk about my ongoing hunt for a job and his Mom helping out by checking my resume and editing it for me.

Journal Entry: September 5,2015

Tonight I hang out with Anthony,John,and Jimmy and his girlfriend and sister Janine. Of course, seeing Jimmy with his girlfriend prompts me to daydream about having a girlfriend one day as well.

Journal Entry: September 3,2015

Today's my latest visit with Dr. Grossman from WJCS and after talking with her,and her telling me about this other doctor who is going to work with me about some of the issues we discussed particularly with my issues of needing greater independence in my life. Therefore,I daydream about getting my own place one day and being able to cook for myself and clean my own apartment and such.

Journal Entry: August 30,2015

Me,Anthony and John all go into the city today and we first stop at Battery Park and eat lunch at a restaurant there. Then, we go to walk around Manhattan and we walk the Brooklyn Bridge and then we go to Times Square before going home. I daydream about possibly working in the city or meeting some babe off Eharmony.com who lives in the city and us going around the city on dates and later maybe making a family day of it with my wife and kids as well.

Journal Entry: August 29,2015

Anthony,John and I decide to forget the beach for tomorrow and go to the city to do some sightseeing instead,so I daydream about some of the things that we might do in the city tomorrow.

Journal Entry: August 27,2015

Today's my latest visit with Dr. Grossman at WJCS and then later this evening,I meet with Anthony and John and we go to the Starbucks here in Dobbs Ferry and we sit and talk about what we're doing this weekend and about my job hunt and other issues. I then come back and start researching some organizations including ARC of Westchester and Autism Speaks and trying to sign up for more services including vocational services. I daydream about all of this coming together and my getting a job and my own place and achieving other goals that are still just a dream for the future.

Journal Entry: August 22,2015

Anthony,John and I meet up and we all go to White Plains to hang out and discuss what we're going to do for next weekend. We decide to reduce it from the whole weekend of August 29-30 to just that Sunday and that we just go to the beach out in Long Beach. I daydream about that and maybe meeting some girl I met on Eharmony.com that lives out there, until she tells me that she's not going to be around that weekend anyway.

Journal Entry: August 18,2015

Today's my second meeting with Dr. Pat Grossman at WJCS and we go over some more of my goals for therapy including about my goals to get employed again. I daydream about these goals coming to fruition and what I'd like my life to look like 5,10,15 years down the road,in the year 2020,2025, 2030,etc.........

Journal Entry: August 16,2015

Today would be the day that my third born;Carol Anne would be 13 months old if I had been correct about my predictions of this from over 20 years ago,so naturally I daydream about what life might be like right now if those silly,crazy,uneducated predictions from when I was 13 or 14 back in 1992 or 1993 had actually come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 11,2015

Today I had to go up to my old high school;Stepinac because of records from there needed for the programs that my younger sister, Linda's trying to sign me up for,so naturally not only do I daydream about the future,but also past experiences during my high-school years. 

Journal Entry: August 9,2015

Me,Anthony and John all go to Orchard Beach in Rye today and once again I daydream about me and my future wife going out to the beach with the kids and watching the kids play in the sand and in the water, splashing all about and learning to swim and such.

Journal Entry: August 6,2015

I hang out with my friends Anthony and John and we meet at the Cross County mall in Yonkers and we catch up on things. John says that he wants to go to Long Beach out on Long Island and he wants to do it during the weekend of August 28-30. I daydream about being out there and seeing all the beautiful women in the skimpy bikinis and getting with one of them; getting their number, going out on dates and eventually getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: August 5,2015

I meet with Dr. Pat Grossman; a psychiatrist with the WJCS of Westchester to discuss my unemployment situation and my dealing with my autism and Asperger's diagnosis. I daydream about the future again and what I want to have accomplished,not just with getting back to being employed but also being a more independent person and one day having a family of my own. 

Journal Entry: July 31,2015

For baseball fans everywhere,this is the day of the Trade Deadline so naturally I daydream about taking my kids to some baseball games. I also daydream about seeing them play little league baseball to seeing them play Major League Baseball once they become big and other baseball related things.

Journal Entry: July 28,2015

At various times today I daydream about the future,from daydreaming about taking my future kids camping,to taking them to the carnival or the circus, to taking them to the zoo, to going to see a movie and other things parents take their kids to do during the hot summer months.

Journal Entry: July 25,2015

I go to the pool again today and once again I daydream about my future children learning to swim and playing pool games together, splashing all about and doing other fun things during the summer.

Journal Entry: July 22,2015

Today's the day I go to the Elmsford office of the Social Security office of Westchester/New York State for an appointment to sign up for some Social Security benefits. Naturally, I daydream about being approved for these benefits especially when the lady assigned to my case signs an application for me for SSDI.

Journal Entry: July 16,2015

It's the day that I thought,over 20 years ago,I'd be celebrating my third child; Carol Anne's first birthday, so naturally I daydream about that actually happening and my dreams from 20+ years ago coming true. My wife and I watch her open presents, watch her blow out the candles on her cake and all the usual things parents do on their baby son or daughter's first birthday, as well as daydreaming about all my future children's first birthdays.

Journal Entry: July 10,2015

I go to Jones Beach with Anthony today and we get there by 3PM and leave for home by 5:30PM. While there, I daydream about my future wife and I taking our babies to the beach and playing with them in the sand as I show them how to build a sand-castle and later, I daydream about taking the kids into the water and see them splashing all about.

Journal Entry: July 9,2015

Today I hang out with my buddy Anthony and we go to the Palisades Mall in Nanuet on a rainy,cool early summer afternoon.As we're there,I daydream about my future wife and I walking around a local mall with our children while they're babies pushing them in their strollers. 

Journal Entry: July 6,2015

I go to the pool in town and swim some laps. As I do so, I daydream about my future children swimming around in the pool, as well as my teaching them how to swim when they're real little.

Journal Entry: July 4,2015

It's Independence Day aka the Fourth of July. This evening,I go down to the waterfront in town to watch the fireworks. I daydream about my having children and seeing the fireworks with them and how in awe they are of the fireworks and all the pretty colors that they make as they explode in the sky. I also daydream about barbecues and the like throughout the day.

Journal Entry: June 30,2015

It's the end of another month and we're really into the 2015 summer season so I daydream about trips to the beach,and other summer destinations that I may go to in the future.

Journal Entry: June 25,2015

My unemployment is about to run out in another week and I daydream about getting on some sort of government assistance and if not,getting a new job through that autism organization that my younger sister, Linda, is trying to get me signed up for, but they've been giving us problems,asking for all of these documents to prove that I have autism including records from my high school,Archbishop Stepinac and my most updated medical records.

Journal Entry: June 21,2015

It's Father's Day,so naturally I daydream about becoming a father myself one day. Of course,it's also the first day of the 2015 summer season and once again I daydream about taking my kids to the beach or taking my sons to a baseball game and the like.

Journal Entry: June 15,2015

It's already the middle of June and summer's only a week from starting so once again I daydream of summer vacations at the beach, on tropical islands and the like.

Journal Entry: June 11,2015

Today's my younger sister, Linda's 31st birthday and again I daydream about me and my sister giving my niece and nephew cousins to play with one day and future family get-togethers.

Journal Entry: June 10,2015

I have the last visit to the Department of Labor up in White Plains to evaluate my job searching and eventually I daydream about getting a better job and maybe meeting my next girlfriend at that job and then eventually getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: June 5,2015

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and daydream about the future again, especially when I see couples with young children coming into the store.

Journal Entry: June 1,2015

Summer's almost here. I daydream about the future as I take advantage of the beautiful weather out there today, from getting a new job,to eventually getting my own place,to going on dates and eventually having a family one day.

Journal Entry: May 25,2015

It's Memorial Day,the unofficial start of summer so naturally I daydream about vacations to all sorts of tropical islands and taking my future wife and kids to the beach on a hot summer's day.

Journal Entry: May 22,2015

Today's the day the remake to my favorite horror movie growing up, Poltergeist, hits theaters, so naturally I go up to White Plains to the City Center's theater on the top floor and see the 7PM showing of the movie. I meet with my friend,Anthony in Wal-Mart just before I go see the movie. Naturally, I daydream about my future children since I get the name for my daughter, Carol Anne, from the 1982 original movie. Obviously they upgrade the story a little and though the movie has its moments of jump-scares and scariness and gore,the original still was better as usually is the case with originals compared to remakes/reboots. I just relish the fact that I finally got to see a Poltergeist movie in theaters after missing out on the original trilogy because they were all in the 1980's (1982, 1986 and 1988), when I was too young to be going to the movies to see such fare.

Journal Entry: May 16,2015

Today's my friend Jimmy and his twin sister, Janine's birthday but Jimmy doesn't come out with us, but Janine and some of her friends do and we all meet up at the bar and restaurant Rory Dolan's in Yonkers. I daydream about the future some more, particularly during the day when I take a walk around the area to get some exercise and think about things.

Journal Entry: May 10,2015

It's Mother's Day 2015 so I daydream about making one of those girls I've been chatting with on those online dating web-sites my wife and eventually a Mommy one day herself.

Journal Entry: May 5,2015

It's Cinco de Mayo, but it's still taking its sweet time warming up out there. I daydream about the future some more as I take a walk around the area on a nice, mild mid-spring afternoon.

Journal Entry: May 1,2015

New month starts today and still waiting for it to feel more like spring than winter. Anyway,I daydream about the usual stuff as I wait for everything to work it's way out.

Journal Entry: April 27,2015

Man, now this is getting ridiculous. It snowed today but only for a few minutes,but man,it's almost May and it's still cold enough to snow? When is it ever going to finally warm up? Well, I daydream about seeing my kids get excited about snow even at this late time of the year and with baseball season now in full swing,I also daydream about them playing baseball,maybe even for the New York Yankees one day when they get big.

Journal Entry: April 22,2015

I have to go back to the Department of Labor for another evaluation today. This is my second and there should be one more either next month or in June before I'm kicked off unemployment. Once again I daydream of having a job,one day getting married and having children.

Journal Entry: April 21,2015

Today's my Dad's 71st birthday and I daydream about him one day meeting his grandkids from me and that I get to have children before he dies. I just hope that,in real life,I'm not too late already,not even having a girlfriend or even a job to support myself at this point.

Journal Entry: April 5,2015

It's been exactly 3 months since I lost my job at Rembar and therefore I'm already halfway between getting on unemployment and being kicked off it. I would be trying harder to get a job but fortunately I've been working with my sister to get me signed up for some programs that help those with autism find work. I'm starting to accept the fact that I have this "disorder", though I've always known that I need help in terms of finding gainful employment, making friends and the like. Anyway, I continue to daydream about better days to come.

Journal Entry: April 1,2015

It's a new month but it still feels more closer to still being winter than the spring but being how brutally cold this winter was, I'm not surprised by this. Of course, I daydream about warmer days ahead and the usual stuff since I've been employed going on 3 months now.

Journal Entry: March 9,2015

I go down to the city with my sister,Linda,for the first day of tests to get me diagnosed with autism so that I can sign up for services that'll hopefully,one day,get me a full-time career job among other things,and of course,this makes me daydream about getting a new job and one day getting my own place and moving on up in the world and achieving my ultimate dreams for the future.

Journal Entry: March 27,2015

Another trip up to Starbucks in Ardsley and once again I daydream about the future and about my having children and of course, with my being unemployed for going on 3 months,having a job one day and hopefully getting my life together someday soon,I hope.

Journal Entry: March 20,2015

It's the first day of spring yet it feels like winter. We even get a few inches of snow today. Man,can't wait for spring. This winter's been the pits. Of course,this makes me daydream of warmer weather that's hopefully just around the corner.

Journal Entry: March 15,2015

Today's my buddy Ant's birthday and we go to Medieval Times in New Jersey and that makes me daydream about what it might've been like living in that time and how lucky I am to be living in the 21st Century instead of the 14th or 15th during the medieval period.Of course this also reminds me of our trip to Atlantic City for Anthony's birthday last year and daydream about the fun we had and about future vacations me and my friends might take in the future.

Journal Entry: March 6,2015

Today's the day that,if my predictions of the future from say 1993 or 1994 were correct,my firstborn would've turned 9 years old today,so naturally I daydream about what would've happened if I had been correct with that prediction,watching my son open his presents with my wife,little Andrew and baby Carol Anne watching and then we'd have his cake for dessert.

Journal Entry: February 28,2015

Finally,February's over and it's been a brutally cold month. It makes me daydream of warmer days to come and seeing the flowers bloom and the leaves come back in the trees and seeing all this damn snow finally melt,but it's still not as bad as it's been up in Boston. They may never get rid of all that snow that's been dumped on them this year.

Journal Entry: February 20,2015

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and sit there to read and daydream about the future and particularly when I see parents with young children they make me daydream about having some of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: February 14,2015

It's Valentine's Day 2015 so I daydream about going out on dates and meeting women and eventually my future wife and having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 7,2015

It's a frigid,cold day so I stay home and watch some DVD's and of course I daydream about my children all bundled-up in their long-johns and footed blanket sleepers playing together in one of their bedrooms trying to keep themselves occupied on such a frigid-cold afternoon.

Journal Entry: February 4,2015

I have to go up to the White Plains Department of Labor for the first appointment with them where they give me some leads for jobs and inform me to fill out a chart with all of my job applications listed. I daydream about getting one of these jobs and then eventually meeting my future wife there and eventually having children with her.

Journal Entry: February 2,2015

It's Ground Hog's Day and getting close to being a whole month since I got laid off from Rembar. Once again I daydream about future winters with my children, getting them bundled-up in their snowsuits and their long-johns and putting them in their fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers at night, all of them looking like cute, little living teddy-bears with human heads in those garments.

Journal Entry: February 1,2015

It's Super Bowl Sunday,New England versus Seattle. I go to my friend Anthony's house for his Super Bowl party and all of us are disappointed when Brady and the Patriots win their first Super Bowl since Super Bowl XXXIX (39), back in 2005 exactly 10 years ago. I still daydream about future Super Bowl parties and watching the Super Bowl with my children and hopefully having the Giants in the Super Bowl while my children are still young children and them getting excited when the Giants win the thing (probably by Super Bowl 60-something,Super Bowl LXIII [63], or something, at this point).

Journal Entry: January 28,2015

Historic blizzard ends up being a big bust at least for us here in the NYC area,but New England and Boston in particular get slammed with up to 3 FEET of snow. We get "only" 8 or 9 inches,not the 2 feet or more that the doomsayers predicted back on Sunday and Monday. Still,I daydream about my future children playing out in the snow and running around and having fun.

Journal Entry: January 25,2015

Today's my mother's birthday but the bigger news is the massive,historic blizzard that they are predicting to hit us starting tomorrow afternoon. This,therefore prompts me to daydream about my future children running around and playing in the snow and building snowmen and having snowball fights and then coming inside to have hot chocolate to warm themselves up.

Journal Entry: January 14,2015

Today's my 36th birthday and first since I got laid off from Rembar a week ago this past Monday,so I'm not much in a dreaming-of-the-future mood except for dreaming about getting a new job and getting back to making money.

Journal Entry: January 10,2015

I hang out with my friends for the first time since I got laid off from Rembar and inform all of them present that I got laid off and am currently unemployed. I have since signed up for unemployment insurance and Linda is working to get me some medical coverage most likely with Medicaid. It is still hard to daydream about anything positive despite my best efforts to try to think positively and dream about a future with a wife and children and a nice house in the suburbs.

Journal Entry: January 5,2015

Today my boss calls me into the office and informs me that I'm being laid off; a devastating blow for me in so many ways. This definitely puts a crimp in any future plans for this year and the foreseeable future including us going away to Cabo San Lucas this year. Naturally, I'm upset and I call my parents to inform them of the bad news and eventually my sister, Linda, is also informed since it was her working with her friend, Doug, to get me into Rembar. I eventually tell my friends too, but mostly just keep it to Anthony for now. 

Journal Entry: January 3,2015

Tonight I hang out with my friends, Anthony and John and we talk about going away for Anthony's birthday this year in mid-March and maybe going to Cabo San Lucas in Mexico for it or for one of our summer vacations later this year so naturally I fantasize about going around the world with my friends and maybe my future wife at various points in our lives together.

Journal Entry: January 1,2015

First entry of 2015 and as usual,I fantasize about the future and my hopes and dreams for it no matter how much things aren't looking too promising for those dreams to come true with my dead-end job and my struggles with online dating at the moment.

Journal Entry: December 31,2014

New Year's Eve,the last day of 2014 and therefore the last entry for this year. I end up meeting my buddies and watching the ball drop in White Plains and I fantasize about future New Year's Eves including any parties that me and my future/fictional wife might go to in the future or us going to see the ball-drop in Times Square one year.

Journal Entry: December 25,2014

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I fantasize about seeing the joy in little William, little Andrew and little Caroline or Carol Anne's eyes when they get all those wonderful presents that they asked Santa for, seeing them in their footed blanket sleeper jumping around when they get that present that they claim that they always wanted as well as the disappointment when the toy they thought that they were about to open was actually a pair of socks or underwear, instead. I also fantasize about future Christmases with snow on the ground and/or falling from the sky adding to the beauty and festivities of the holiday season. 

Journal Entry: December 24,2014

It's Christmas Eve so I fantasize about future Christmas Eves. I fantasize about putting the Christmas-tree up and having the kids help us decorate. I fantasize about getting the kids dressed in their best clothes and showing them off for Christmas Eve Mass at the local church. I daydream about seeing the excitement in my kids' eyes later that night and especially tomorrow morning when Santa brings them all of those toys and how happy they get when they get their dollies and scooters and I-pads and video games and get upset and toss their underwear, socks, pajamas, and other "boring" presents to the side as well.

Journal Entry: December 22,2014

First day of the 2014-15 winter season and I fantasize about future winters of me and my future wife taking the kids out, bundled-up in the thickest, fuzziest snowsuits and let them play in the snow. Of course, with Christmas coming in a few days, I also fantasize about how excited the kids get when informed of Santa's impending arrival and how my wife and I might use the usual threat of coal in their stockings to get the kids to comply to our bidding to take their bathes or eat all their vegetables or to put their toys away and hop into bed and the like.

Journal Entry: November 28,2014

Today's Black Friday 2014 so I fantasize about me and my future wife rushing around to get all the presents for the kids, fantasizing about one year we sit outside waiting for the 4AM door-buster deals to start, camped out with the kids in bulky, down snowsuits over fuzzy, woolen, blanket sleepers, bundled-up-to-the-nines waiting out in the freezing-cold for the stores to open and then us rushing around to get everything that we want,fighting the crowds for every last morsel.

Journal Entry: November 27,2014

Today's Thanksgiving 2014 so I fantasize about future Thanksgivings, about my sons and/or daughters eating their first turkey dinners and watching the annual parade on TV and then the annual football games that are on as well and my little ones getting excited when they see Santa Claus coming down the street at the end of the parade.

Journal Entry: November 16,2014

Today's my niece, Julianne's fourth birthday,so like on Frankie's birthday last month, I fantasize about the future birth of my children and future birthday-parties where everyone gathers at one or another's house and we all have a good time.

Journal Entry: November 15,2014

Today was supposed to be my sister Linda's wedding-day but due to her and her fiance breaking off the wedding, I fantasize about meeting my future wife and some of the places we might go for our honeymoon. Naturally, eventually, I fantasize about all the future events I hope to see,including the birth of my future children. 

Journal Entry: October 31,2014

Today's Halloween and after work I run into both of my sisters walking around with my niece and nephew in their costumes and I daydream about future Halloweens seeing my future children walking around in their own costumes. I picture them as babies wearing some cute, one-piece, footed costumes that they make for babies to seeing my kids in the traditional costumes like vampires, witches, angels, devils, superheroes and costumes that are popular today like zombies.

Journal Entry: October 8,2014

Today's my nephew Frankie's sixth birthday,so I daydream about future birthday-parties that my own children might have and all future birthdays in which our kids and my niece and nephew get to run around and play similarly to how me and my sisters and cousins would come visit each others' houses for birthdays when we were all growing up in the 1970's and 1980's and into the early 1990's.

Journal Entry: Septenber 23,2014

First day of the 2014 autumn season so I start daydreaming about throwing and tossing the football around with my fictional sons; William and Andrew and then I fantasize about them growing up to be NFL football players.