Journal Entry: June 30,2016

My folks babysat my niece and nephew for a few hours today and I decided to hang around and help them out.We took them to a park in town and naturally I daydreamed about taking my own children to this same park one day and maybe with my niece and nephew;their cousins.Then,later on,when my brother-in-law came to pick them up,my folks mentioned my sister and brother-in-law going to Cape Cod for vacation next week and that made me daydream about taking my wife and kids on such a vacation while our kids are still little.

Journal Entry: June 29,2016

Took a walk around the area and saw some parents with babies,including two women who I assume are friends,holding their babies who look only a few weeks or months old,in their arms and I daydream about me and my wife doing the exact same thing with our babies.

Journal Entry: June 28,2016

Again stopped into local cafe in town at around 4:30PM, this afternoon and saw this couple who usually go in there as they live nearby,and they have this little daughter of theirs who's about 2 so naturally, I daydream about having my own 2 year old,Carol Anne,there with me just like I had daydreamed about this yesterday as well.

Journal Entry: June 27,2016

I go into the cafe in town on Main Street and see a young family with parents and a kid of about 4 or 5 years old and I daydream about taking my own four or five year old son and/or daughter into the same place one day and introducing them to the people who work there who I personally know.

Journal Entry: June 26,2016

I go for a walk this evening after dinner and I daydream about being married with 3 beautiful children and we're taking an after-dinner walk together with our little girl,Carol Anne, in pinstriped "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh", overalls and when the baby spots one of my neighbors walking their dog, I daydream her going "doggy", or when she spots a bird flying up into one of the trees that line one of the streets,she goes "birdie", just like a little one or two year old would (again fantasizing about my prediction of having 3 kids by the summer of 2014 some 20-25 years ago having come true).

Journal Entry: June 23,2016

I decide to do something different today.I take the bus up to White Plains and stop in a strip-mall near the Greenburgh Public Library and I stop in a K-Mart but I also stop in a Carter's store and of course when I see mothers with their babies and young kids I daydream about one of those mothers being my wife and carrying one of my children,shopping for clothes for them. I then take the bus home. Also on the bus-ride up I see a mother with a baby and I again daydream about my wife doing the same with one of our babies one day.

Journal Entry: June 20,2016

It's the first day of summer,so I daydream about all the things I hope to do with a future family one day; from going to the beach and playing with my babies in the sand to taking my wife and kids camping in the woods and my wife and I making out in the RV while the kids sleep in sleeping bags in their tent and I tell them all camp-fire stories before they go off to bed in their sleeping bags.

Journal Entry: June 19,2016

It's Father's Day 2016,so naturally I daydream about being a father myself. I daydream about my kids giving me presents and having a chance to spend a day with them,especially when they're real little and all the various things I'll get to do with them once I become a Daddy one day,myself.

Journal Entry: June 17,2016

Helped my elderly parents take care of my niece and nephew for a few hours after school this afternoon and naturally, I started daydreaming about seeing my niece and nephew running around with my kids who would,naturally,be their cousins, though sometimes it gets me to feel bad about not giving them cousins to play with in real life,but that only makes me more determined to make that a reality; some day.

Journal Entry: June 14,2016

Took a walk all the way up to Tarrytown and daydreamed that I was taking one of my kids as a baby with me in his or her little stroller or baby-carriage and then daydreamed about taking them to the park and playing baseball with them while I was listening to some music while I walked.

Journal Entry: June 13,2016

Took a walk around the area and stopped in the town diner for a snack and daydreamed that I was walking in there with my two little boys and my baby daughter; Carol Anne.

Journal Entry: June 12,2016

Took a walk all the way to Tarrytown today and while doing so,I not only thought about new scenes for the books that I'm working on,but I also daydreamed about a scene where I'm sitting on the couch with my infant daughter,Carol Anne,me in a T-shirt and jeans or pants,Carol Anne in a fuzzy, fleecy, thick,plush,one-piece,footed,blanket sleeper with a zipper-tab snapped shut,skid-resistant soles and bumper-toecaps and a vintage Sears Winnie-the-Pooh applique embroidered on the left-chest,napping on my chest.She has one thumb in her mouth and her other arm is lying to her side and from the angle that I'm looking at her,one of her chunky,chubby,baby-fat-laden cheeks is sticking out as she lays on her tummy and has her head tilted to one side as she peacefully sleeps on top of me.

Journal Entry: June 11,2016

Walked around the area for my workout regiment and once again daydreamed about having my own place,having sex with a hot chick in my own apartment,getting married and having children and all the things that I've been daydreaming about over the years.

Journal Entry: June 10,2016

Even though tomorrow's my younger sister's 32nd birthday,she comes over to the apartment this evening to celebrate and I daydream again about happier times and my hopes and dreams for the future,including celebrating the birth of one of my own children one day.

Journal Entry: June 9,2016

I watch Game 5 of the NHL Stanley Cup Finals and daydream this time about one of my sons playing in the NHL and helping his team win their first ever Stanley Cup title and hoisting the Stanley Cup over his head as he skates around the arena.

Journal Entry: June 7,2016

I take a walk around the area as part of my exercise regiment, and I daydream about better times than I've been having,from having a decent job earning a decent living,to being married and with kids or at least,having a place of my own to invite girls back to, to have sexual intercourse.

Journal Entry: June 5,2016

Another of my friends invites a group of guys over to their house to watch Game 2 of the NBA Finals and this time I daydream about one of my sons playing in the NBA and helping his team to their first NBA championship and his first of many championship rings.

Journal Entry: June 2,2016

One of my friends invites us to come over to his house to watch Game 1 of the NBA Finals and I daydream about my playing in the NBA and making the game-winning shot to help my team win their franchise first NBA title.

Journal Entry: May 30,2016

It's Memorial Day,so I feel that this is a perfect opportunity to memorialize my hopes and dreams for the future and what I thought that my life would be like by now. Therefore,I daydream about being married with 3 kids by now and what we might've been doing today if my predictions from over 20 years ago now had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: May 8,2016

It's Mother's Day 2016,and I daydream about being married and having children and seeing my children give my wife and therefore their mother, some presents like roses and such and of course, eventually I daydream about having children already in any event, with a whole host of situations.

Journal Entry: May 7,2016

Today's the day of my nephew Frankie's Holy Communion. This prompts me to daydream about having one of my kids having their first Holy Communion as well. Eventually, later that afternoon, I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley and hang out there for the rest of the afternoon into the evening, reading the newspaper and at times daydreaming about future events.

Journal Entry: March 31,2016

I go with my father and younger sister to meet with a woman from this agency I'm working with to try to get services including vocational services with,called ARC of Westchester.We sign me up for a whole host of government-funded services under Medicaid and of course, this prompts me to daydream about a day when I have a decent-paying job and eventually my own place and being able to live a fruitful, independent life one day.

Journal Entry: March 27,2016

It's Easter Sunday 2016 today and my older sister drops off my niece and nephew at the house for a few hours. This prompts me to daydream about what my kids might or would look like in their little Easter outfits if they had since been born as I had predicted 20-25 years ago would happen by now. I also picture either myself,my wife,or our daughter,Carol Anne,being in an Easter Bunny costume or outfit on this holiday, maybe someday in the future.

Journal Entry: March 22,2016

It's the first day of spring and that means that the warmer weather is coming and so is baseball season. That prompts me to daydream about taking my kids to a baseball game one day.

Journal Entry: March 17,2016

It's St.Patrick's Day and therefore the famous parade is on TV. I watch it and as I watch, I see some bands with young kids in them marching down the street as well as shots of people with kids,some of whom are most definitely Irish just by looking at them. Since I myself am part Irish, it makes me daydream about having my own children at the parade, either marching in it or being one of the spectators on the street one day.

Journal Entry: March 6,2016

This was the day that I thought,over 20 years ago,that I'd not only be married with 3 children,but that my oldest would be 10 years old today. Therefore,I daydream what it might've been like if I was right and I had a 10 year old son named William,as well as a 5 year old son named Andrew and 1.5 year old daughter named Carol Anne,since my predictions for all 3 for their birth-dates was March 6,2006 (William), October 22,2010 (Andrew; just 3 weeks from when my real-life niece; Julianne, was born), and July 16,2014 (Carol Anne).

Journal Entry: February 14,2016

It's Valentine's Day,and a very cold one at that,so I daydream about taking my future wife out to dinner on future Valentine's Day,as well as daydream about my babies being in thermal long-johns and their thickest,heaviest blanket sleepers, keeping toasty and cozy-warm on the coldest of nights during their first few winters in the future.

Journal Entry: February 2,2016

It's Ground Hog's Day,which prompts me first to think about the famous movie with that name starring Bill Murray, and then I daydream more about the future and being married and having children.

Journal Entry: January 23,2016

We get the biggest snowstorm in ages today as parts of the area are buried under 2-3 FEET of snow, with Central Park getting very close to an all-time record snowfall,though some say that those early estimates are off by an inch or so. Anyway,this prompts me to daydream first about hefty snowfalls that we've had in the past including the famed Blizzard of 1996.Then,I daydream about future snowstorms and seeing my babies playing out in the snow in their little one-piece, footed snowsuits and then bringing them inside to have hot chocolate and then put them back into the fuzzy, fleecy, one-piece, footed, blanket sleeper pajamas and playing with them for the rest of the evening.

Journal Entry: January 14,2016

It's my 37th birthday today and once again,like 2 weeks ago,I reflect on my life and what I hope will be my future,daydreaming about future birthdays with my wife and kids around me and feeling blessed to have them all in my life.

Journal Entry: January 1,2016

It's New Year's Day,so once again,I daydream about the future; about getting a job,a girlfriend,getting married and having a family and daydream all about what that might entail.

Journal Entry: December 31,2015

It's New Year's Eve,as I go up to White Plains with my friends to celebrate the end of 2015 and the ringing in of 2016. Naturally,I daydream about having my girlfriend here and even more into the future,celebrating the ball drop with my wife and eventually our children and having a party with friends for it at our house or apartment in future years.

Journal Entry: December 25,2015

It's Christmas Day,so naturally I daydream about a future Christmas Day with my wife and children and seeing my kids eyes light-up at all the presents underneath the tree. I daydream about my kids being in footed sleepers,opening their presents and jumping around,all excited that Santa got them that one toy that they always wanted and now finally got.I daydream of seeing one of my kids as a baby,napping in front of the Christmas-tree with his or her blanket sleeper-clad and diaper-clad butt sticking up in the air, sucking on his or her thumb or pacifier as they sleep.

Journal Entry: December 24,2015

It's Christmas Eve,so I daydream about a future Christmas Eve with my wife and kids and my kids being excited that Santa Claus is coming to town tonight,but with it being the hottest Christmas Eve ever,it doesn't feel the same,so I daydream about a typically cold,snowy Christmas Eve in the future.

Journal Entry: November 26,2015

It's Thanksgiving so I daydream about having a Thanksgiving dinner with my future wife and kids and the kids watching the traditional Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade.