Journal Entry: August 31,2014

I daydream about my dates with Jennifer and Elizabeth and meeting other girls through Eharmony.com. I also dream of asking one of them to be my date for my younger sister, Linda's wedding on November 15,and dancing with them on the dance-floor,and making out with them and losing my virginity upstairs in the hotel later that evening.

Journal Entry: August 30,2014

I arrange to meet a girl named Jennifer on September 13,and another named Elizabeth 2 weeks later on September 27,so now I daydream about my dates with both of them.

Journal Entry: August 29,2014

Get message from Kathleen telling me that it's over,that she doesn't have time for a relationship with me,but I still daydream about going out with other girls I've been recently sending messages to on Eharmony.com despite this crushing blow.

Journal Entry: August 23,2014

I hang out with my friends at one of the bars in White Plains this evening,and I talk about my date with Kathleen with them and we talk about what I need to do next to keep this relationship going and I daydream about going on dates with Kathleen based on what me and my friends discussed this evening.

Journal Entry: August 22,2014

I go out on my first date with Kathleen,from okcupid.com. We eat at the town diner for dinner this evening,and then we leave.Afterwards,I daydream about our next date and having a relationship and eventually marrying and having a family with this Kathleen women, especially after we agreed to see each other again in a couple of weeks.

Journal Entry: August 20,2014

I talk on the phone for the first time with the girl I met on okcupid.com recently,named Kathleen.We talk for about 5-10 minutes,but afterwards,I daydream about our first date set for Friday.

Journal Entry: August 16,2014

It's been exactly one month since my little baby girl, Carol Anne, was supposed to have been born,so I daydream about what my life might've been like if those predictions of mine (of being married with now three kids), from my teen years, over 20 years ago now, had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 10,2014

Second day in Jersey Shore with my buddies.We go to the beach today and I daydream about going to beach with girls I've met through online dating and doing other exciting things with them in the future.I also daydream about going to the beach with my future family and my children playing in the sand and in the water on a trip to the beach with them and their Mommy one day.

Journal Entry: August 9,2014

I go down to the Jersey Shore with my buddies Jimmy,John,and Anthony,and I daydream about going on vacation with one of the girls I've met through online dating so far.

Journal Entry: August 6,2014

I daydream about inviting Kathleen to my sister, Linda's wedding and our dancing to the music they play at the reception,and about our own wedding,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 5,2014

Kathleen and I settle on August 22,2014 as the day of our meeting and I daydream about what's going to happen on our first date,and then from subsequent dates.

Journal Entry: August 4,2014

I go back to work today after taking a week off.Later on,I get an email from girl I met not on Eharmony.com but from OkCupid.com,named Kathleen,and she asks me if we can meet one day on a Friday so I daydream about what might happen on our first date and about our relationship only blossoming from there.