Journal Entry: September 13,2014

Today's our date,so I meet with Jennifer at Half Moon Restaurant by 7PM this evening.Beforehand,I daydream about how the date will go.After the date,I come back,and daydream about my second date with Jennifer and about future dates with her,yet I'll continue to leave my options open until I feel that I'm ready to pick my next girlfriend and focus on our relationship.

Journal Entry: September 11,2014

It's the 13-year anniversary of the 9/11-terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center and the Pentagon,so my daydreams today aren't about the future,but about the past,about what I was doing on this date 13 years ago and how my life,and the life of this country has changed since then.

Journal Entry: September 7,2014

I go for a walk,leaving at 11AM,and eventually walk all the way to Sleepy Hollow and Philipsburg Manor,getting there by 1:15PM. I turn around at around 1:30PM, get back to Tarrytown by 2:30PM, to Irvington by 3:15PM, and back to town at around 4PM and go home by 5PM,all the time daydreaming about my date with Jennifer,yet keeping my options open for other girls I've been messaging from EHarmony.com, mostly.

Journal Entry: September 3,2014

I've dropped Elizabeth because I haven't heard from her in several days now,so it's just me and Jennifer for next Saturday's date,so I start daydreaming about that.

Journal Entry: August 31,2014

I daydream about my dates with Jennifer and Elizabeth and meeting other girls through Eharmony.com. I also dream of asking one of them to be my date for my younger sister, Linda's wedding on November 15,and dancing with them on the dance-floor,and making out with them and losing my virginity upstairs in the hotel later that evening.

Journal Entry: August 30,2014

I arrange to meet a girl named Jennifer on September 13,and another named Elizabeth 2 weeks later on September 27,so now I daydream about my dates with both of them.

Journal Entry: August 29,2014

Get message from Kathleen telling me that it's over,that she doesn't have time for a relationship with me,but I still daydream about going out with other girls I've been recently sending messages to on Eharmony.com despite this crushing blow.

Journal Entry: August 23,2014

I hang out with my friends at one of the bars in White Plains this evening,and I talk about my date with Kathleen with them and we talk about what I need to do next to keep this relationship going and I daydream about going on dates with Kathleen based on what me and my friends discussed this evening.

Journal Entry: August 22,2014

I go out on my first date with Kathleen,from okcupid.com. We eat at the town diner for dinner this evening,and then we leave.Afterwards,I daydream about our next date and having a relationship and eventually marrying and having a family with this Kathleen women, especially after we agreed to see each other again in a couple of weeks.

Journal Entry: August 20,2014

I talk on the phone for the first time with the girl I met on okcupid.com recently,named Kathleen.We talk for about 5-10 minutes,but afterwards,I daydream about our first date set for Friday.

Journal Entry: August 16,2014

It's been exactly one month since my little baby girl, Carol Anne, was supposed to have been born,so I daydream about what my life might've been like if those predictions of mine (of being married with now three kids), from my teen years, over 20 years ago now, had come to fruition.

Journal Entry: August 10,2014

Second day in Jersey Shore with my buddies.We go to the beach today and I daydream about going to beach with girls I've met through online dating and doing other exciting things with them in the future.I also daydream about going to the beach with my future family and my children playing in the sand and in the water on a trip to the beach with them and their Mommy one day.

Journal Entry: August 9,2014

I go down to the Jersey Shore with my buddies Jimmy,John,and Anthony,and I daydream about going on vacation with one of the girls I've met through online dating so far.

Journal Entry: August 6,2014

I daydream about inviting Kathleen to my sister, Linda's wedding and our dancing to the music they play at the reception,and about our own wedding,eventually.

Journal Entry: August 5,2014

Kathleen and I settle on August 22,2014 as the day of our meeting and I daydream about what's going to happen on our first date,and then from subsequent dates.

Journal Entry: August 4,2014

I go back to work today after taking a week off.Later on,I get an email from girl I met not on Eharmony.com but from OkCupid.com,named Kathleen,and she asks me if we can meet one day on a Friday so I daydream about what might happen on our first date and about our relationship only blossoming from there.

Journal Entry: July 31,2014

On this,my fourth day of vacation,I hang out with my friend, Anthony, going to the Palisades Mall in Rockland County.As I walk around town earlier in the day,I see some women pushing strollers with babies inside,prompting me to daydream about my future wife and I doing the same thing one day.

Missing Journal Entry: November 28,2013

It's Thanksgiving,and family comes over and I daydream about having Thanksgiving dinner with a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: July 30,2014

On the third official day of my vacation from work,I again take a walk around town,and up to Irvington,daydreaming about meeting those girls from the Internet,going on vacations to Bermuda and other tropical islands with them,and eventually going on a honeymoon with the one I end up having a deep relationship with and eventually marrying.

Journal Entry: July 29,2014

On my second official day of vacation,I take a walk around town and daydream about the future, including getting married and having a family

Journal Entry: July 28,2014

Today's the first official day of my vacation,so I daydream about flying to some tropical island with some hottie I've met online recently and having sex on the beach.

Journal Entry: July 25,2014

I daydream about meeting the few girls that I'm talking,now on phone and emails with from Eharmony.com and going out with them and asking one of them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: July 24,2014

I take a walk after dinner this evening and see some young couples pushing their babies and toddlers in strollers and baby-carriages and it prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls from Eharmony.com and having children with them, pushing our own babies in strollers and such as we go on walks around the area like these young families were doing this evening.

Journal Entry: July 23,2014

I talked with some of the girls that I've met from Eharmony.com and I daydream about meeting them one day soon and inviting them to my younger sister's wedding and our dancing together to slow, romantic songs, kissing and making out all evening.

Journal Entry: July 19,2014

Two of my friends and I go down to the city for the day,and I daydream about meeting some of the girls that I've met on dating sites that live in the city and going on dates with them.

Journal Entry: July 18,2014

I daydream about what it might've been like if my predictions of having a wife and 3 kids by now would be like,and about how me and my first 2 kids go to visit their Mom and 2-day old baby sister in the hospital this afternoon.

Journal Entry: July 17,2014

Get another email from woman on dating web-site and once again I daydream about meeting girls from dating web-sites and asking them for a date to my younger sister's wedding in November

Journal Entry: July 16,2014

It's the day that I predicted that my third child would be born on,back when I was a naive teenager in the 1990's unaware of future consequences that would make me still very much single and still living with my parents at 35 years old,at this time,so I daydream about what would happen if my prediction had come true and I daydream about rushing my wife to the hospital,about the birth of our little girl, Carol Anne,and about everyone in our families, including my parents, my sisters,and their husbands (both current and soon-to-be), my two (now fictional) sons, and my niece and nephew coming to meet their baby niece,sister,cousin,and granddaughter, Carol Anne, during the course of the day.

Journal Entry: July 15,2014

I daydream about meeting more of those girls/women from Eharmoney.com,especially as one of them emails me explaining that she'll email me and tell me more about herself tomorrow.I also daydream, especially by night-fall, what I might be doing if I had been correct,all those years ago,in my predictions that by this time,I'd be married, already have two kids (both boys), and a third on the way to be born tomorrow,including racing around to be sure to be ready if my (of course fictional), wife was to go into labor tonight.

Journal Entry: July 14,2014

I get some more responses from women I've messaged from Eharmoney.com and this prompts me to daydream not only meeting these women, but possibly asked them to be my date for my younger sister's November wedding,and with my folks informing me that we'll be staying at the hotel that they had arranged to host my younger sister's wedding reception,I also daydream about possibly making love (having sex with), one of these women who ends up being my date for the wedding.

Journal Entry: July 13,2014

My recently engaged younger sister and her fiance are able to pick a date for their wedding (November 15 of this year), and though I'm happy for them,I'm feeling quite low as it reminds me of my loneliness trying to weed out all the profiles and responses from women from Eharmoney.com and see which one looks likely that I can start a relationship with.I do eventually daydream about meeting these women and eventually having a relationship with one of them.

Journal Entry: July 11,2014

I hear from a couple of women that I've met online and one agrees to meet me in person by the end of the summer,so I daydream about what might happen on our first date at that time.

Journal Entry: July 9,2014

With the date of my prediction of my third-born child being born from over 20 years ago being just a week away,I daydream about what would be happening in my life right now if my predictions on when I was going to get married and have children were correct.

Missing Journal Entry: November 16,2013

It's my niece,Julianne's third birthday,so we go to my older sister's house for her birthday and I daydream about one day having a little girl of my own,most likely named Carol Anne,who me and my wife celebrate her birthday with one day in the future.

Journal Entry: July 7,2014

Went back to work after the 3-day Fourth of July holiday weekend and daydream about getting a new job and possibly landing a lucrative book contract with someone one day.

Journal Entry: July 6,2014

Went to see the latest Transformer movie with a couple of friends of mine and daydream about taking one of the girls from Eharmoney.com and going to see a romantic movie with her one day.

Journal Entry: July 5,2014

Walked around the area,stopped at library and such,daydreaming about the future.When I got an email from one of the girls from Eharmoney.com,telling me that she's blowing me off,I get upset and daydream about ending up being homeless and alone and having no one once my elderly parents die.

Journal Entry: July 4,2014

I spend the day at the Starbucks in Ardsley,and daydream about having a family one day and taking them to barbecues and watching fireworks during future Fourth of Julys.

Journal Entry: July 3,2014

I go for another walk,this time after dinner,and I daydream about getting rich off my books and meeting those girls I've met recently on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: July 2,2014

I send some more book proposals to some more literary agents and daydream about one of them taking me on as a client to send my books to publishers to get some lucrative book deals

Journal Entry: July 1,2014

I take a walk after work and daydream about the future.Then,I come home and send some more book proposal to some literary agents.

Missing Journal Entry: October 31,2013

It's Halloween and as I walk around town after work,all the kids around town are out in their Halloween costumes and I daydream about seeing my children dressed in cute Halloween costumes some day in the future,after I meet my future wife and we get married and start having kids.

Journal Entry: June 30,2014

It's the end of another month,and once again,I daydream about the future,and with us getting deeper into the 2014 summer season,I daydream about meeting those ladies that I've met off the Internet, mainly through EHarmoney.com,and daydream about what it would be like if I had been right in my predictions when I was a kid,that I'd be married with 2 kids and a third on the way in a couple of weeks (July 16,2014 being the predicted date of the birth of my third child),by now.

Journal Entry: June 29,2014

Took a long,4-hour walk all around the area, over 3 towns in the area,and used the time to daydream about the future and achieving the future goals that I've set for myself,including the main goal of having my own family and being able to support them and give them the very best.

Journal Entry: June 27,2014

I went to the Starbucks in Ardsley after work today and daydreamed about dating and eventually marrying one of the girls/ladies that I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for recently, meeting at least one of them this upcoming summer.

Journal Entry: June 25,2014

Daydreamed some more about the future,as I decide to find literary agents that might take me on as a client so that my books can get into the hands of real publishers and hopefully it'll take my writing career to the next level.

Journal Entry: June 24,2014

My younger sister officially gets engaged to be married to her boyfriend,leaving me the last one of my whole family still single,which prompts me to daydream about dating and one day marrying one of those girls I've met on those online dating sites and asking them to my sister's wedding.

Journal Entry: June 23,2014

Today's the 3-year anniversary of my first day at my current job,and it prompts me to daydream about the future,which I hope to include getting a better job one day.

Journal Entry: June 22,2014

Went around Central Avenue in Yonkers with my friend Anthony,and we passed by both a bridal store and a children's clothing store,which prompted me to daydream about marrying one of the girls I've since met off the dating sites and having a family with said date.

Journal Entry: June 21,2014

Went swimming today, as my town had a "Free Pool Day", as they allowed all residents to use the public swimming-pool at Gould Park, for free, without needing a membership pass.Naturally, as I was swimming around in the pool,I daydreamed about the future, teaching my babies how to swim. Of course,I daydreamed about teaching each of my children,my son, and my daughter,urging them on as they struggled to keep their heads above water as they learn to kick their chubby, little legs and paddle with their adorable,chubby,little arms.

Journal Entry: June 20,2014

I go to the Starbucks in Ardsley,NY after work and dinner this evening and I daydream about meeting,in person, one of those girls I've met off those dating web-sites later this summer,with the first day of summer just a day away and the 2014 Summer Solstice being just hours away.

Journal Entry: June 19,2014

I go for a walk after work today and I stop at the local park to read for awhile, and while I'm reading I see a woman with her infant daughter who's apparently learning to walk, and it prompts me to daydream about watching one of my own children learning to walk one day in the future.

Journal Entry: June 18,2014

I went for my typical after-dinner walk this evening,and as I walked around town here, I daydreamed about the usual things; going on dates with these women I've met on those online dating sites I've signed up for,marrying one of these women, and having babies with her, as well as writing the "Great American Novel", as well as achieving other future goals of mine. 

Journal Entry: June 17,2014

I daydream some more about meeting these women off these dating sites and about eventually marrying and having a family with one of them,including some beautiful little babies.When I go for a walk after dinner this evening, I stop at one of the local parks,named Gould Park, to read from my Nook when I see some young families out at the park with their kids and it makes me daydream what it might be like if I were already a father of a couple young kids myself, with one of the girls/women I met on one of those dating sites I've been signed up with.

Journal Entry: June 16,2014

Got another response from another woman that I sent some questions to via EHarmoney.com's three-step/levels of compatibility,and daydream about meeting said woman for a date and what we might do on this first date. 

Journal Entry: June 15,2014

It's Father's Day 2014,so I daydream about a future where I have anywhere from 1 to as much as 4 or 5 children,and all the neat situations of taking my children out with me in future Father's Days.

Missing Journal Entry: December 25,2013

It's Christmas Day,so I daydream about a future where I'm married and have 2 or 3 children,and the kids are opening their presents wearing their fuzzy,woolen,footed blanket sleepers,their little faces lighting up when they see all the presents underneath the tree.I daydream about various future situations from a future Christmas with my next girlfriend,the first Christmas after me and my first wife get married,and the first Christmas of my future offspring.

Journal Entry: June 14,2014

I walk around town today,daydreaming about the future,particularly since one of the other girls I've been talking with that I met on EHarmoney.com, named Liz, and we talk about possibly meeting in person one day this upcoming summer season,daydreaming particularly about meeting this Liz girl and having a relationship with her and possibly marrying her,if things work out.

Journal Entry: June 13,2014

I go out after work,being a Friday,and I daydream about the future,especially as I talk with the girl named Tunde,on the phone this evening,for about 10-15 minutes, at around 7:30PM.

Journal Entry: June 12,2014

My family threw a little party for my younger sister's turning 30 yesterday,and of course,my older sister and her husband and my niece and nephew came over,and my younger sister and her boyfriend came.Her boyfriend announced to us,when my younger sister left the room that he's going to ask my younger sister to marry him someday soon,and he even showed us the engagement ring he got her while she was away,leaving it a foregone conclusion that I'll be the last one never married in my whole family,once they officially "tie the knot",possibly sometime late next year.It prompts me to daydream about marrying one of these girls I've met through online dating and about our meeting and such.I also got an email from another girl from another dating site I signed up for and this prompted me to daydream about meeting her, as well.

Journal Entry: June 11,2014

Today's my younger sister's 30th birthday,so I daydream both about the future and the past, the past about me and my sisters growing up,so it was more a reminiscence than daydreaming,but I also daydreamed about the future and about my goals for a family of my own one day.

Journal Entry: June 10,2014

Tunde texted me again today,so I texted her back and daydreamed about my future goals including possibly dating and marrying this girl and having a family together with her,as well as about what might've been if I had been right about my being married with 2 kids and a third on the way by now, back when I was growing up 20-25 years ago now.

Journal Entry: June 9,2014

Heard from another girl from EHarmoney.com,Liz,and then I emailed her back and I daydreamed about being married with children with this Liz-girl,and how beautiful our children will be if me and this Liz-girl end up together as husband-and-wife.

Missing Journal Entry: December 31,2013

It's New Year's Eve,so it's again time to daydream about my goals for the future,which are to get a better job/make more money that I am now,including writing more novels,and about what I hope to ultimately achieve (a family of my own,including children,one day).

Journal Entry: June 8,2014

I spent another sunny,beautiful Sunday afternoon taking a walk around the area today,daydreaming about the future,about meeting these girls on dating sites,and eventually marrying one of them and having a family.I also daydreamed what it would be like if my prediction,from 20 years ago,when I thought that I would already be married and even have a couple of children,with a third on the way, had come true and what I might be doing now with my wife and children if this had actually happened to me,something I still hold out hope will happen one day,preferably in the near future

Journal Entry: June 7,2014

Went to White Plains today to do some shopping and texted the Hungarian girl,Tunde,and I daydreamed about meeting her and other girls I've been texting on EHarmoney.com recently.

Journal Entry: June 6,2014

It's Friday,so obviously I go out after work and eventually go to Ardsley to do some shopping.I also daydream about the future,about meeting these girls off EHarmoney and going on dates and eventually marrying and having a family with one of them.I meet up with my buddy Anthony later that evening,and we chat at Doubledays bar on Main Street.

Journal Entry: June 5,2014

I again go out after work and go for a walk and daydream about my future goals being met,eventually.

Journal Entry: June 4,2014

After work,I call Tunde over the phone and we talk for a few minutes,but she's still busy,working as a nanny in the city,so we don't talk long and then I go for a walk after work and daydream about the future,about meeting with Tunde and other women from EHarmoney in the future.

Journal Entry: June 3,2014

Walked around town after work and daydreamed about the future,about achieving my goals, especially as I talk/text with girl named Tunde I've met on EHarmoney.com

Journal Entry: June 2,2014

Talked with girl from Eharmoney.com named Tunde (she's Hungarian),and texted each other all day and even talked about meeting for a date later this month,so I start daydreaming about the possibility of this working out and the two of us falling in love and having a family together.

Journal Entry: June 1,2014

It's a sunny,seasonably warm,gorgeous day;a rarity around here this spring,so of course,I go out and exercise and daydream about the future,including my meeting these women I've been messaging on these dating sites and going on dates and eventually having a relationship with one of them that, hopefully,eventually,leads to marriage and children.

Missing Journal Entry: January 1,2014

Today's New Year's Day,the start of a new year,the year 2014,so I daydream about the future and about my goals for 2014,including to get a new job,make some more money,and meet a girl,have a girlfriend,and eventually get married and have children.

Journal Entry: May 31,2014

I still haven't heard from Mary in 3 days now,so I am moving on.I obtain phone # of another girl on EHarmoney.com but I still need to know if her profile name is just a nickname,her surname or her first name,but this prompts me to daydream about going out with this girl and developing a relationship with this woman and daydream about marriage and a family,as this renews my belief that I will make these daydreams a reality one day,hopefully soon.

Missing Journal Entry: April 1,2014

I decide to go on a new diet and exercise regiment today,as I start eating less and walking more,and I start daydreaming about my ultimate goal: losing weight enough to attract women,and I daydream about achieving said goals and what this could mean if goals end up being realized.I also decide to renew commitment to get a new job and do other things to improve my life and achieve my dreams.This is also the date that I decide to keep a journal of my daydreams for future reference (or at least,I start thinking of doing just this,but it takes several days before I revisit idea and start doing this).

Journal Entry: May 30,2014

Haven't heard from girl from dating site named Mary,for the last couple of days now,and am starting to think that she has ditched me for someone else.I still daydream about achieving my future goals despite this set-back,as I message some more women on several dating sites this evening.

Missing Journal Entry: January 25,2014

Today's my mother's 65th birthday and I spend the day daydreaming about giving her more grandkids than the 2 she has now,as I daydream about various scenarios where I introduce my mother to her new grandkids,from my first born (which is usually a boy in most of my daydreams),to my second born,third born,etc...............,including when my first daughter (either as a firstborn,or in most of my daydreams,my second or third born),Carol Anne (most likely),is born.

Journal Entry: May 29,2014

I again daydream,this afternoon and evening, about going out on dates with these women I'm meeting on sites including eHarmony.com and other dating sites that I've signed up for.

Journal Entry: May 28,2014

Texted Mary from Plentyoffish.com on my cell-phone a few times this evening,and once again it makes me daydream about going on dates with this Mary woman hopefully later this summer.

Journal Entry: May 27,2014

Went for walk after work and daydreamed about the future and certain scenarios that might happen or at least, that I hope will happen,eventually.

Journal Entry: May 26,2014

Talked to Mary over the phone for a few minutes,but we decided to continue to chat online for the most part.I've messaged a few more girls on the two or three dating sites I've signed up for and just have to wait for their replies.I daydreamed about having a barbecue on a future Memorial Day with my future wife and our adorable children running around with their friends and cousins.

Journal Entry: May 25,2014

Got phone # from girl I met on online dating site Plentyoffish.com,and will be calling her tomorrow or Tuesday.Meanwhile,I daydream about me and this girl,named Mary,meeting,going out on dates and eventually having sweet,passionate sex and eventually children together.I daydream about some day in the future when I'll be bringing my kids around to see their grandparents,and maybe to meet their new grandson or granddaughter for the first time.

Journal Entry: May 24,2014

Daydreamed about the future as I'm talking with this girl I met on the dating site POF (Plentyoffish.com),as she has the platinum-blonde hair that I'm attracted to.I then daydream about our having children who all have the same platinum-blonde hair this girl,named Mary,has,in the picture she posted on the site.

Journal Entry: May 23,2014

With Memorial Day weekend coming up,I daydream about it being in the future,say about 5-10 years from now.I have a nice job,a lovely,beautiful wife,and a great home in a nice neighborhood.I'm outside barbecuing some burgers on the grill,our 3 or 4 beautiful children (okay,it's probably more like 15 years from now,but whatever),are running around in the yard with some neighborhood kids or with their cousins and everything is wonderful and life is grand.

Journal Entry: May 22,2014

Daydreamed about my hopes and dreams of getting a nice job with a decent salary,and losing enough weight to better attract more women and having all these hot babes crowding around me that I end up having glorious sex with,just about every night.

Journal Entry: May 21,2014

After getting out of the interview with the employment agency,I again have daydreams about my future,including working at a company paying me lots of money and having a beautiful bride as my wife and some beautiful,golden-haired children and I daydream about having a nice house,a lovely wife and beautiful children for most of the afternoon and evening.

Journal Entry: May 20,2014

Going to that interview with the employment agency tomorrow and went walking after work,to reflect on my future goals,including career goals,and I daydream about some of the future jobs this agency might be able to set me up with.

Journal Entry: May 19,2014

It's another beautiful day for a walk after work.I take a walk and daydream about the future especially with upcoming interview with local employment agency looming on Wednesday.I'm also working to up-grade or "sex up",my online dating profile and one of the things is asking what my ideal first date is,so I daydream about just that,and how I hope to get one of them hot girls online into the sack with me and make hot,sweet,passionate love with each other and then I daydream about getting married and having a family with "dream girl",from my daydreams.

Journal Entry: May 18,2014

Walked around the area,as part of my exercise program and I spend most of the day daydreaming about the various ways I can meet women who I can carry on a serious relationship with one day,including improving my chances via strengthening my profile on dating sites

Journal Entry: May 17,2014

Went to a singles meet-up event in White Plains,NY this evening.Was there from 8-10:30PM,and met some great people,but no girls my age or type for me to date,but I am confident that if I go to enough of these,eventually I'll meet that "woman of my dreams",and for the rest of the evening,I daydream about getting married and having a family.

Journal Entry: May 14,2014

Joined some meetup groups from meetup.com and am thinking of going to a single's event that they're holding this Saturday,so I daydream,today,about meeting a hot,sexy chick there and asking her out. I then daydream about going on dates and eventually marrying and having a family with this hypothetical single woman that I hope to meet at this event this upcoming Saturday,including daydreaming about the day of the birth of my first child (hopefully happening soon enough).

Journal Entry: May 13,2014

Got a call from an employment agency with some jobs that I may be qualified for.This prompts me to daydream about what my life can be like with a job that pays me a good,living wage,with room from growth and expansion and to help me maximize my talents and my being finally able to buy my own car,my own place and maybe,one day,help me raise a family of my own.

Journal Entry: May 11,2014

It's Mother's Day 2014 so I daydream about being a parent,and who I dream of as the mother of my children,and daydream about the day that my future wife becomes a mother herself.

Missing Journal Entry: January 14,2014

Today's my 35th birthday,so naturally,I daydream about being married with 3 gorgeous children,including little Carol Anne,and my firstborn son, William. I dream about meeting this gorgeous "woman of my dreams", which ends up being the mother of William,Andrew (another male name that I like and might name my second son,if I end up having 2 sons one day),and Carol Anne.This "woman of my dreams",meet everything I look for,mainly someone to share my hopes and dreams with that will be with me through thick and thin,in sickness and in health.

Journal Entry: May 8,2014

Once again daydreamed about the future,this time after receiving some messages from women from online dating sites I'm signed up for,including from one drop-dead gorgeous fox.I can picture both of us making beautiful, golden/platinum-haired children together one day.

Journal Entry: May 5,2014

Took a walk after work,and as I was walking around the town,I daydreamed about my hopes and dreams of becoming a husband and family man one day, in which I have anywhere from one to as much as five children,all very beautiful,matching my vivacious,lovely,vision of my future wife, as I continue to use my walks as times and moments to reflect on my life and it's direction.

Journal Entry: May 4,2014

Went around town today,and at 3PM,I stopped at one of the parks in town,to sit,enjoy the nice weather and read from my Nook,and when I got there,I saw some families with small children there, and I daydreamed about taking my own children to the park and what it might be like once I have children in reality.I spent most of the rest of the day contemplating my life and future goals and how I can obtain them both before and after my visit to the park.

Missing Journal Entry: February 14,2014

It's Valentine's Day,so naturally,I daydream about meeting the woman of my dreams,having a romantic,candle-light dinner with her, and then we watch a romantic movie together and then top everything off with a night of wild, passionate love-making.

Missing Journal Entry: March 7,2014

On the day that the Malaysian airline disappears and it's all over the news,I daydream about being on a plane going to some tropical island with some gorgeous,super-model chick.

Missing Journal Entry: March 14,2014

On the day before I am to go to Atlantic City with my friends,I daydream about going to one of the casinos there and what I would do if I were to win a lot of money from these casinos.

Journal Entry: May 3,2014

Today,as I walk around the area,doing my exercise routine,I daydream about the future,and again about having a family,taking my baby son,or daughter, usually either wearing overalls, or one-piece, footed, blanket sleeper pajamas, around in their strollers,sometimes having to stop to change their diapers and the like,as I continue to think about my future goals and aspirations.

Journal Entry: May 2,2014

Got message last night/early this morning from dating site okcupid.com from some girl claiming to be living in my town who wanted to chat with me and exchange pictures and though I've since found out that this is a sham to get me to sign up for some porno-site,until then,I did have daydreams all day about meeting this woman and going on dates with her.Later this evening,I went to Starbucks and daydreamed/fantasized about having a family with anywhere from 2 to as much as 5 or 6 kids.I also daydreamed about taking one of my kids,as a baby and taking them to the Starbucks and watching them as they nap in their strollers,while sitting at the Starbucks,reading from my Nook,having to take the babies into the bathroom to change them, or while I was there, relieving myself,as the case may be, fantasizing that my wife was working late and I had to watch the kids and take them to Starbucks with me.All day,I fantasize about playing with the kids while they're babies,watching them mimic me as I make funny faces at them as little babies and toddlers tend to do,making me feel bad that I had these daydreams about meeting this woman,after finding out that this dumb bimbo was just trying to get me to sign up for some dumb,lame-ass porno-site.

Journal Entry: May 1,2014

All day today, as I thought about my future goals, hopes and dreams, and how I was going to get there under my present circumstances,I daydreamed about those said hopes and dreams,including the day that my sons and/or daughters were going to be born.I daydreamed about having one son and one daughter in one daydream,and about having twin sons and/or twin daughters in yet another,but basically I daydreamed about the day my children were (or are to be,in any case),born.

Journal Entry: April 30,2014

Daydreamed about the birth of my children,starting with my son,and then in another,about the birth of my daughter,about visiting them and their mother in the hospital,and about those first days after we take them home and about the day-to-day care of them as newborn babes,including my wife breast-feeding them and my changing their diapers,and giving them their first bathes.

Missing Journal Entry: March 17,2014

It's St. Patrick's Day and I get to see some pretty,find,young lassies out and about wearing their green shirts and what-not,and I daydream about having sex with some of the fine,lovely lassies I see, daydreaming about making one of them my wife and making fine-looking babies with her, as I pass by some of these fine,hot,Irish chicks!

Missing Journal Entry: March 16,2014

Came back from Atlantic City this evening with my friends and on the ride back,daydreamed again about making out with some of the fly chicks from Atlantic City.

Missingf Journal Entry: March 15,2014

Went with 5 friends to Atlantic City for my boy,Anthony's birthday.We walked the famed Boardwalk and played at the casino in our hotel,and went to nearby club by 11PM,this evening..Saw some beautiful women which prompted me to daydream about having sex with them.

Journal Entry: April 29,2014

Daydreamed about a future where I'm married and my little girl,Carol Anne,is dancing around in her little pink tutu,putting on a show for me.I clap several times when I think that she's done,but she gets mad at me,and I just kiss her on the head.Then,my lovely,vivacious,sexy wife tells Carol Anne to go get changed into her jammies,ready for bed, and then a bit later on,I tuck her into her bed.

Journal Entry: April 28,2014

Got message from woman on dating site asking for a date.I respond back,asking when and where we can meet,but haven't heard from her yet,but I daydream about that possible first date; where we go to eat, and what we do after dinner.I then daydream about dating some hot chick, and eventually going to bed and having hot,passionate sexual intercourse with said chick.

Journal Entry: April 27,2014

I walk around the area this afternoon,to get some exercise,and I daydream about finding a sexy hot chick to date and we eventually get married and have either three or four equally beautiful children and some of the day-to-day events that typical families go through,from changing my babies' diapers to watching my sons play little league,and the like.

Journal Entry: April 26,2014

Did the laundry at the Laundromat in town today and daydreamed about meeting a hot,sexy chick there who I end up dating,marrying,having sex and eventually a family with,and daydream of my wife doing the laundry with our beautiful children in toe.Then,later,I go to the Ardsley Starbucks and see a young couple with their toddler son and I daydream about being married and having a little son like the cute little toddler boy at the Starbucks.I later have daydreams about several type of situations I might run into in the future if I ever get married and have kids myself.

Journal Entry: April 25,2014

Today, as I'm trying to think of new material for my latest fiction novel (I'm a self-published author of now 40 books and counting),I daydream about writing the infamous "great American novel",and about getting filthy rich off some best-sellers that I managed to write,buying fancy sport cars,big mansions and having sexy,hot,super-model chicks to have hot,passionate sex with.

Missing Journal Entry: April 4,2014

Me and my two guy friends,named Jimmy and Anthony,go see the second Captain America movie that came out this evening and I daydream that,instead,I'm at the movies with my girlfriend/wife seeing either a comedy, or romance movie,or even a rom-com movie together as a date.I also daydream or reminisce about seeing the few superhero movies that I went to the movies to see as a kid and teen, many long years ago.

Missing Journal Entry: March 28,2014

I go to the Ardsley Starbucks today after work and as I'm sitting there, reading from my Nook E-reader,I see a young couple with a baby and I daydream about the young couple being me and my lovely,vivacious wife pushing the stroller of our toddler son,but then in another daydream,the baby is our toddler daughter,sucking on a pacifier wearing a one-piece,footed,snowsuit.

Journal Entry: April 24,2014

It was a very busy day at work today;busier than most.I work in the shipping department of my current employer,and we ended up shipping out 20 packages;a record since I started working there almost 3 years ago,in June of 2011.This triggers a daydream or two about my climbing the corporate ladder,and what I would do if I were to finally get a nice,decent raise from my employer (we haven't had a raise since September of 2011,and for me that was only because I went from part-time,during my first couple of months there,to going full-time just weeks before the last raise we all received),from buying a car,to finally going on a date with those dating-site women.

Journal Entry: April 23,2014

This evening,after I get home from work,I decide to log onto the dating web-sites that I am a member of and see that I have some responses from some of the women I sent messages to,and of course,that triggers my daydream of having a hot,sexy chick to date and make love to and I daydream about meeting and going out with a few of the attractive women I got responses from.

Journal Entry: April 22,2014

During lunch,at work,one of my co-workers was talking to another about his girlfriend,which prompted me to daydream about having sexual intercourse with what I think is a drop-dead gorgeous woman; one with golden-blonde hair, crystal-blue eyes, and a slim,healthy,hour-glass figure and how I'd like to marry and have children with such a woman.

Journal Entry: April 21,2014

It's yet another sunny,seasonably mild late April,mid-spring afternoon.While at work,on my lunch-break,I listen to my small walk-man device, to some rock-and-roll music and it makes me daydream of riding around in a red, sporty convertible with the top down, blaring the music as I speed off down the highway,with a hot, sexy chick next to me.Later on,as I'm taking my 3PM break outside,and some kids are walking down the block returning from school,I daydream about my future, VERY unborn children;this time just one son (8 or 9), and one daughter, aged 6 (Carol Anne wearing her "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh" overalls), coming home with their book-bags,my little girl showing me some drawing that she made for me while at school today.

Journal Entry: April 20,2014

Today's Easter Sunday,so once again,I go for a walk and while walking around the area,I have some daydreams. One is of my beautiful, sexy wife, and beautiful children all decked out in our Sunday best, ready to go to church for Easter Mass. I daydream that my young,handsome,strapping sons are wearing suits and ties,while my wife and toddler daughter are in dresses.I daydream of seeing my toddler daughter,Carol Anne,searching for Easter eggs with all the other parish children on the church lawn.I then daydream us going home and my wife putting our toddler daughter in this cute, pink, bunny-suit (either a snowsuit or a blanket sleeper),with a hood and floppy bunny ears (think the bunny-suit from the Christmas movie "A Christmas Story"),and attached tail,and slippers/booties. When I get home to where I live,in reality,with my parents,I daydream about them seeing their grandbabies and including their granddaughter in that bunny-suit.

Missing Journal Entry: April 11,2014

Walk to Ardsley to visit Starbucks after work. While there,I daydream about being married with a wife and kids,and one of the kids was my little daughter,Carol Anne (yes,after the little platinum-blonde girl in Poltergeist), in her stroller wearing footie pajamas.By 9PM,I leave the Starbucks for home,and I daydream about my wife and children walking home together and then we put our children to bed once we get home.

Journal Entry: April 19,2014

Yet another beautiful Saturday,so once again,I go walk to Tarrytown,and along the way,I again daydream about my future goals.One daydream in particular has me pushing my little girl,Carol Anne, as a toddler,in her stroller.Sometimes she's wearing pinstriped "Osh-Kosh B'Gosh",overalls and in other dreams,she's in a pair of one-piece,footed,blanket sleeper pajamas,as it is a bit cool at times,though the temperature does raise to the middle 60's this afternoon.I do walk to the site of where the company calling for an interview with me,so I can know where it is once I schedule an appointment for an interview,and end up walking to the Tarrytown/Greenburgh border. Later this evening,I hang with my buddies that I usually hang with,and daydream about telling my wife that I'll be hanging with the guys for a few hours while she watches the kids,who are all in bed,being just after 10PM,by then.

Journal Entry: April 18,2014

It's the start of the Easter 2014 weekend,as it's Good Friday,so my job lets us out at around 1PM.I then stop at the town cafe to have lunch.Then, at around 2:30PM,I come home to drop off some things and see a message from either my Mom or Dad,about someone calling for an interview after seeing my resume on careerbuilder.com. This prompts me to have daydreams about this new job and about my future goals including having a wife and children.I eventually go to Ardsley and stop at the Starbucks there and then go home by 9PM,this evening

Journal Entry: April 17,2014

After work,I walk around Dobbs Ferry,and once again,my daydreams center around my future goals and again that's having a family one day and I daydream about what it's like to come home after work being greeted by my beautiful wife and my equally beautiful children.Each time I have these daydreams,it motivates me more and more to do what I have to do to make these dreams a reality

Journal Entry: April 13,2014

This time I head up to the town of Ardsley,just to the northeast of Dobbs Ferry,and I again daydream about my dream wife,and our going out on dates,and our kissing and making love,and our eventually having our children.I go into the Starbucks there,and daydream about me and my wife and our three or four lovely,beautiful children sitting there in the Starbucks with me.

Journal Entry: April 12,2014

Went for another walk around the area,from Dobbs Ferry to Tarrytown,though I walked a bit further this time,almost to the town of Sleepy Hollow.As I was walking, once again enjoying another wonderful, bright, sunny early spring afternoon,I once again had some daydreams about the future featuring my future goal of having my own family one day.Now,even though I don't have a girlfriend at this time,as I'm in the process of using some online dating sites to meet women (again in that 27 to 33 year old age-range), I'm using these daydreams as motivation to keep pushing.My daydreams on this day feature my driving my children around to the park on this beautiful,unseasonably warm early spring Saturday,listening to some music on the radio (I was listening to my little walk-man [yes,I still use those.I haven't upgraded to I-pads for this,yet], while having these daydreams).I have my two sons (I had 2 sons and a daughter in these daydreams), which I named William and Andrew, sitting on the back, and their baby sister, which I named Carol Anne, sitting on a car-seat in the middle.I then daydreamed that we stopped at a local park,and while the boys run around and play,I have my little daughter in an infant-seat sitting on the park bench.Eventually,as I'm heading back to Dobbs,I daydream my heading back with my three beautiful children in toe.

Journal Entry: April 9,2014

Went to go see my regular physician Dr. Andrew Fader and he told me that I was generally healthy but I weighed 244 pounds,a 5-7 pound rise from my last check-up.This only made me want to exercise some more and reflect on my life and once again,I daydreamed about having a lovely wife and 2 or 3 beautiful children and all the various situations,from when they're babies,to when they're school-aged and even teenagers,and all the various concerns any parent has about their children's well-being.I also daydreamed about various scenarios where I would be much skinnier than I am now and what might happen once I do lose 20 or 30 pounds

Journal Entry: April 6,2014

Walked from my home in Dobbs Ferry,NY to Tarrytown,NY,as part of a diet/exercise routine I've just begun,mainly by walking and cutting down on  nonessential snacking/eating.As I walked,I thought about/reflected on future goals; one of which is to find Mrs. Right and get married and have a family. As I walked,enjoying the nice,sunny,early spring weather,I daydream about being married and having a family.Some of the dreams/reflections have me and my wife;a beautiful,vivacious,lovely,gorgeous, super-model-like woman between 4 and 7 or 8 years my junior (I'm 35,so if me and my future wife are to have children,she's going to have to be between 27 and 33 at this time and for the foreseeable future),having our firstborn child (sometimes a son,sometimes a daughter),as a baby or toddler being pushed in his carriage/stroller.Others have us having 2 or 3 kids,including a son (or two),and a daughter (or two),but all are very young,no older than 5 or 6 years old. During these daydreams, I would just push the kids around in their strollers and I'd just look at them and talk to them, and they'd smile up at me