Journal Entry: July 31,2016

It's the end of another month,so once again I daydream about the future. It's been such a hot,steamy summer already that I just daydream about cooler weather to come particularly as we move into the last few months of 2016, especially once the summer officially ends in late September.

Journal Entry: July 30,2016

I go up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this evening and as I'm reading a sports book I'm currently in the middle of reading,it makes me daydream about either being a professional athlete myself or daydreaming about one of my kids playing professional sports one day themselves.

Journal Entry: July 29,2016

Hung out with a few of my friends and one of the guys in my group who has a girlfriend and I see them kissing and it prompts me to daydream about having a girlfriend to kiss one day.

Journal Entry: July 27,2016

I go back up to the mall today to beat the heat and while in the Barnes-&-Noble up in White Plains, I see several mothers wheeling strollers with their babies inside and I daydream of one day either me alone or me and my wife coming into that same Barnes-&-Noble wheeling one of our own babies in his or her stroller around the store.

Journal Entry: July 26,2016

To beat the heat,I go into the local library to finish reading my latest book and then I donate it to the library. As I'm reading, I see several parents with young children there for some special event and therefore I daydream about taking my kids to one of these such events in the future.

Journal Entry: July 25,2016

Go on my first interview in months for a job at a local grocery-store (just to have some money coming in until I get something better,something more suited for my career goals),and naturally,I daydream about getting the job and some of the things that I might be doing on a typical work day while working for this particular grocer-company.

Journal Entry: July 23,2016

Once again head to the malls in White Plains to beat the heat on another summer scorcher.This time, I see some fine-looking young woman walking around and I daydream meeting one of them or having one of them for a girlfriend and the various things we might do together,including having sex.

Journal Entry: July 22,2016

The latest heatwave begins and once again,I go up to find relief from the heat at one of the malls in White Plains. Eventually, I see several mothers with strollers and babies and young kids there and naturally, I daydream about being married and having kids of my own and envisioning the various scenarios where I might try to keep them cool; whether at the mall,the movies or the pool or a water-park, during these hot, summer months.

Journal Entry: July 21,2016

Went to Jones Beach with my friend Anthony this afternoon and naturally,I daydream about going to the beach with my girlfriend one day and my wife and children another day further into the future, taking the kids into the water, seeing them play in the sand, etc.............

Journal Entry: July 20,2016

Took a walk around town and daydreamed about taking my kids to the park after passing by the main park in town, for example or taking them to the local diner to eat lunch,which I also did and overall just daydreamed about what I still hope to be my future.

Journal Entry: July 18,2016

It's another hot,mid-summer day,so once again,I try to find a way to keep cool; this time at one of the malls in White Plains and again, whenever I see parents pushing strollers and carriages,I immediately daydream about being one of those doing the same thing.

Journal Entry: July 17,2016

I went up to the Starbucks in Ardsley this afternoon to beat the heat and naturally, I daydreamed about some of the other ways I might keep myself and maybe my girlfriend and eventual wife and my babies cool,like the pool or the beach or to a family-friendly movie. I also daydream about being married with kids each time I see someone who,in reality,has those things already.

Journal Entry: July 16,2016

Daydreamed about my third child turning 2 years old today (based on my prediction that I'd have 3 kids and the third being born on July 16,2014, which was 2 years ago today,some 20-25 years ago back in the mid 1990's when I was a mere teenager),daydreaming that those predictions of mine from 1994 or 1995 had come true and my little girl, Carol Anne, had turned 2. I daydream that we'd have invited all of the grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins over and we'd have my little now 2 year old daughter open her presents by 4PM, then we'd have dinner by 6PM and her birthday-cake by 8PM and the party being over about a half hour ago at about 9:40PM, or so.

Journal Entry: July 15,2016

Hang out with my pal Anthony Latino,and we go to the Palisade's Mall in Nyack and of course, I see many women with kids and babies in strollers and carriages and I again daydream about one day going to the mall with my wife and both of us taking turns pushing our babies in their carriages and strollers one day including now if I had been correct with my predictions of being married with 3 kids and the third turning 2 years old tomorrow. 

Journal Entry: July 14,2016

Take another walk around the area and daydream about the future,including about one day meeting my future wife and "making babies", with her.

Journal Entry: July 13,2016

We are just 3 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I,once again,daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday.

Journal Entry: July 12,2016

We are just 4 days from what I had predicted would be my third-born child and only daughter's second birthday.Therefore,I daydream about talking with baby Carol Anne (which I am planning to name my daughter one day if that ever becomes reality),and getting her psyched-up for her second birthday on Saturday. 

Journal Entry: July 11,2016

Went to Starbucks in area for a quick drink and snack this afternoon and daydreamed about what I might be doing if on vacation with wife and kids if I even had said wife and kids,maybe taking them camping or to one of the beaches in the area,most likely.

Journal Entry: July 9,2016

It was a cool,cloudy,murky day today,so I go out to the Starbucks in Ardsley and I see this attractive-looking woman sitting at one of the other tables nearby where I'm sitting. Naturally,at times,I think of going up to talk to this woman but she looks rather young for me (I'm 37,she looked to be about 22 or 23),and so I daydream about all the ways I could go up and talk to this woman but I never find the right moment and then the woman leaves and I daydream what might've been if I had gotten the chance to talk to this woman and I find out that she's much closer to my age than I thought.

Journal Entry: July 7,2016

It's another hot one during this latest heatwave and so I go up to the malls again today and walk around. Naturally,I see mothers pushing babies in carriages and strollers and it prompts me to daydream about my wife being one of them and another time I daydream about pushing one of my own kids in their strollers and carriages as babies through this particular mall.

Journal Entry: July 6,2016

The first heatwave of the year starts today so I head up to the malls for the day and I daydream taking my girlfriend or wife to the movies and then have another daydream of taking my kids to the movies or to the public swimming-pool in town or the beach as the case may be.

Journal Entry: July 4,2016

This evening,I go down to the waterfront to watch the fireworks display that the town sets off every year and I daydream about having my wife and children down there with me and seeing my babies having their eyes wide open as they look at all the pretty colors from the fireworks in the sky,but then it starts to rain and I picture me and my wife and kids racing to the car to leave.

Journal Entry: July 2,2016

Took a walk around the area this afternoon and used time to reflect on life and daydream about what my life could've been like if things turned out differently along the way.

Journal Entry: July 1,2016

We had some hefty thunderstorms this afternoon and evening and it made me daydream about how my own babies will react to scary thunderstorms and I daydream about some nights in the future I have to take them out of their cribs and comfort them down after some loud crashing noise from thunder wakes them up and scares them and what it might take for me to get them to calm down and fall back to sleep again,daydreaming about each of my future kids (whether just 2 or 5 or 6), being babies and having to calm them down after severe thunderstorms while they're all little kids.